My Story With The Ustad
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Today is the day Azriel looks forward to. But it was a scary day for Ayu. Azriel prepares to pick up Ayu according to the message she sent. And Ayu responded that he would be ready when Ashar could return with Azriel. At Kos, Ayu said goodbye to the owner of the room. He deliberately went home last. To avoid his friends. Because kos ayu friends mostly come from the same district with Ayu. They knew Ustad Azriel. Ayu is afraid of many questions from her friends and the many rumors that will spread later.

Azriel treated Ayu very gently. When walking towards the car park, open the car door and let Ayu in. Really sweet. All Azriel's requests to take Ayu to eat and stop by the tourist attractions rejected Ayu. Even when Azriel went down to buy her mother's order, Ayu dared not come down. He was afraid that someone would know them. What he feared the most was his father. He was very afraid when he met his father or friends. He could not imagine what kind of disaster would happen. During the car ride, where Ayu was sitting next to Azriel, Ayu did not dare to stare. He turned his eyes out the window. At first, he chose to sit in the back. Azriel refused and asked Ayu to sit in front of her.

Azriel opens a conversation with Ayu.

“Dek ... from now on if you call do not Ustad yes. Call ‘mas’ aja“ Azriel spoke very softly.

Ayu smiled. What's he supposed to answer?

“Wouldn't you just call ustad? you later guessed what we have what”.

“What if why? Deck ayu don't want us to have a relationship?“ Azriel asked seriously. Sometimes he looked at the scuffles on the side. Silent mood. Ayu suddenly arrived silent and lowered her head. Like fear and sadness.

Azriel, who saw Ayu's unusual response, finally abandoned her intention to urge Ayu to answer. He smiled as he rubbed Ayu's long hair with a very careful heart. Ayu has not yet worn the hijab. Her daily life when in the village was not wearing a hijab. He only wears it when going to the madrasa or to the mosque to teach. Almost all the villagers are female yet to wear the hijab. Only Azriel's family and Kyai's children in the village wear. So it looks once where the family of scholars and where the family is ordinary. Azriel has not been troubled by Ayu's appearance. He intended to lead Ayu when he had his heart. She sees though not yet wearing a hijab, but Ayu's clothes are covered and loose. Her hair was long to the waist. Often parsed outside of school. But when school, ayu more often bind or braid it. How to dress Ayu looks polite does not follow the trend of her friend's model. Maybe because Ayu was unable to follow him.

Ayu is shocked by Azriel's hand. He looked at Azriel with a sad feeling. He wanted to say what had been a burden. He begins to become comfortable with Azriel. Azriel had not yet taken her hand off Ayu's head. They're staring. There were tears ready to fall on Ayu's cheek. Azriel couldn't stand it. He put his car to the edge. He found a safe place to talk.

“ What's up?“Azriel “let's say“ mas ready to hear it. Make it your back to share. You don't have to fear“ Azriel continued. The round of tears that Ayu had been holding back, finally fell. He can't hold it anymore. Ayu spilled all her sadness. He cried for a while until he was stunned.

Azriel silenced Ayu's position. He didn't respond to anything for a few minutes. Only after she did not hear Ayu's sobs did she caress Ayu's head. He faced Ayu in front of him. They're staring. Azriel looked at Ayu with a fixed look. Very clingy.

“ Why did you choose me ??? “ finally said the word that was spoken from Ayu's lips.

“ I don't know“Azriel replied after closing her eyes for a moment.

Yes, indeed he did not know why his heart felt tied to Ayu. He was also looking for answers. Is it because of Ayu's dazzling face, is it because of Ayu's intelligence, is it because of Ayu's friendliness and attitude of her behavior, or because she often meets Ayu so that it makes her love because it often pays attention to her? He never knew the exact answer. He had already performed Istikharah prayers to establish his heart with Ayu many times. While in the cottage he underwent all his religious teachings to establish and choose his companion. And the answer is, his heart is increasingly tied strongly to the figure of an Ayu.

“Please think again “. Ayu

“Azriel's eyesight is challenging. He is like an eagle that is ready to hit all obstacles in front of it.

“I am not who“ ayu answer with a hoarse voice.

“You're my chosen woman. Who will be my life companion “ Azriel

“I don't deserve !!! look at you and look at me ... we …. ??? “ Ayu's voice rises starting there are emotions from the word he said.

But unexpectedly Azriel immediately hugged Ayu. He hugged her tightly, very tightly. He drowned his face in Ayu's hair. He's been spilling his longing all along. For 2 years in the cottage without knowing the news of each other. Ayu tries to take off Azriel's embrace. But Azriel's powers are far more. He finally collapsed. He let Azriel hold him. Without replying. He still has logic and vigilance. They are men and women, not muhrim. In the car and in a quiet place. Ayu is still trying to fortify herself.

“ I beg you. Accept me deck. I was so tormented by this taste. I can't sleep, I can't stop thinking about you. Please mas “ Azriel shed tears on Ayu's head. He buried his head. Seeking strength for it.

“ If you are tormented. Untie her. Untie me. Indeed I do not deserve. “ reply Ayu without thinking. He resigned

Azriel let go of the embrace quickly she looked clear in front of her. There was a sense of disappointment and anger that Azriel felt.

“ Why? “

“Tell me why can't we be together ? “

“We have to solve this now also “ Azriel asked tubi tertubi make Ayu confused.

Actually Ayu did not want to answer that. But he was resigned and sincere when Azriel would disappear after this. Azriel locked the car door. This encodes that he doesn't want Ayu out of the car. Azriel leaned her head against the seat. He closed his eyes for a long time. He waited for Ayu to explain.

But it turns out …..

the expected confused. ENG ING ENG. Ayu is confused about what. Most chemical, physics and accounting formulas are yu. .. Author confused yu …. I'd like to start explaining what to Azriel. How to become an Author who wants to talk to Azriel .. do not .. author who knows Azriel. Even Ayuu of Azriel. Hadeeeh….