I'm Destroyed Because of you
18. Enjoying Role

Five years have passed and now Arkha has gone to school in a kindergarten near her home. Arkha grew up to be a pretty smart kid, his development was amazing. At the age of just five years Arkha can read, understand good manners and have high empathy for his friends. This can not be separated from the role of Dani who does not give him a gadget, Dani focuses on the development of fine and gross motor, and sensors. Dani also prefers to let Arkha play land, play water not even rarely play rain rain.

And now as Arkha begins school a new challenge must be faced Dani. How he should prepare his child's mental and feelings. However, Arkha was not born from the marriage of Arkha was born because of his mistakes, It is not impossible that Arkha will be bullied by his friends. They are still children who sometimes like to talk.

" the hotshot mother is ready for school....?" dani asked as soon as she saw her son was neat with a uniform and a bag on his back.

" yes mother, I'm ready.ayo mother anterin me, I don't want to be late." Arkha said while hugging Dani.

" i ...! Let's go we're leaving now..!" take dani

" eits wait a minute, inget yes dear if at school should always be polite.and should not hit the temen yes.." continued Dani again.

Danipun drove his son with his motor matic. Dani drives while listening to Arkha's chirp. There was always something the little boy asked. Dani patiently answered her son's question. At the school gate Dani dropped off her son. There is already a teacher in front of the gate who welcomes his students.

After his son entered the school Dani also passed from the school. Drive the motorbike to the traditional market to buy fruit vegetables and some side dishes for needs for the next week. The routine that he always lived in recent years, Dani is willing to be busy in order to provide healthy food and healthy snacks for his son.

At ten, Dani prepares to pick up her baby.at exactly ten and thirty minutes her son comes out of the school gate. His face was a little gloomy, there was a sadness that was clearly visible on his face.

" are you okay..?" dani asked as she led Arkha to the bike.

" i'm not okay Bun." replied Arkha.

" ok son, we go home , Arkha will tell the same story mom..?"

They drove to the tiny house where they lived. Not yet in the house Arkha hugged Dani tightly.." earlier my friend said I was an illegitimate child.. What bastard mother is..?"

This is what has always been Dani's fear, a bad talk aimed at his son.

" dear, your friend is right but the wrong is mother is not Arkha, mother has already said Arkha should not respond to them, just love a smile.ok dear." Dani spoke while looking into her son's eyes.

" what's wrong mom..?"

" later if Arkha is a big mother will tell."

" Arkha's grown up, he's five years old, he's already in Bun school.."

Dani smiled at the words of her son just now.." yes Arkha was already grown, but not old enough to hear the story of mother..."

" hmm well..emmmm Arkha's father is Raga, right Bun..? Where is she...?"

" right baby, you don't know son, maybe in this city maybe also in another city.. I'll find out later."

What makes Dani often sad is that Raga never once looked at Arkha, let alone look at the phone never. Moreover, sending a little money for the needs of Arkha also never. Money is not a big deal for Dani after all he works remotely from home and his income is quite large. What Dani hoped was that the body would come to see his son. Not that Dani hopes to be with raga again.Amit amit said Dani.

After all Arkha is in this world because of Raga as well. Cook yes Raga forgot.or maybe he already has a new family and forget them. Dani was reluctant to open communication again with Raga, Raga number is still stored in his phone, but yes it was Dani did not want to contact him again.

Dani has been able to make peace with himself and his past, but to forget the pain of being betrayed and hanged for several years is not easy. Dani who never dated, once dating even had to get a painful treatment from her first love. Not just ordinary pain, Dani used to feel his life was destroyed unceremoniously. There is no longer any self-esteem as a woman, pregnant and giving birth to children out of wedlock.

However life must go on, God has entrusted a son to him, in a very painful way. A woman must not be weak, she must always be strong for the sake of her beloved child.

Dani also realized that if her son grew up without any affection from his father, if Raga grew up without affection from his mother, now Arkha must grow up without affection from Raga father. Dani realizes her son is almost similar to her father. That's why Dani always tried to give so much affection for Arkha. Don't let Arkha grow up to behave like his father.

In each of his prayers Dani always begged that his son would become a responsible and God-fearing man.

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" morning mother.i love you.'' this morning Arkha woke up cheerfully.

" morning baby." Dani replies while kissing her son's chubby cheeks.

" later home our church will be run Bun..." Arkha reminded Dani

" it must be a pity, yuk Arkha hunted shower so that it is not too late to worship."

" ok Mum and pretty..."

Arkha ran towards the bathroom excitedly, imagined the excitement of the road event later. Yes today Dani promised Arkha to go visit the secret zoo tourist rides which in it a lot of animals and game rides including swimming pools.

" let's get the mother hunted...'' Arkha was already impatient to leave immediately.

Both of them drove with a red matic scooter. Arkha sang with space all the way. They had to travel a considerable distance from their home, about an hour away.

They were at the place they were headed. Arkha jumped for joy as soon as he entered the tour. Not infrequently his mouth asks what is , what is it, why is this, why is that so.

" wow cool, I also want to ah feed the elephant." he asked Dani.

" i also want to hold it Bun.." he asked while pointing at the queue of people who want to take pictures by holding an old parrot.

Dani was happy to see her son happy....

"Ting" a message came in Dani's phone. After reading it Dani's eyes immediately alert, looking left and right.