I'm Destroyed Because of you
11. Oedipus complex

This is where they're leaning in the bed tonight. TangannRaga clasped Dani's hand tightly, Raga telling her what and how the two and her past were. She felt the need to tell Dani about her background and past stories.

Raga says that she is an oedipus complex or in other words she tends to like women who are older than her, more mature than her. This is because his soul misses the affection of a mother. His mother died giving birth to him. Maybe that's why Raga became an oedipus complex.

While continuing to hold Dani's hand, he continued his story, that he had once been in love with two adult women namely Aunt Dea and Aunt Lisa.

Dani had scrunched his forehead hearing this, but he just kept quiet.Raga continued the story, if he used to love aunt Dea his life was Aunt Dea. It was the aunt who introduced him to what was called love and forbidden relationships in it. She was swept away in the charm of Aunt Dea, she felt what it was to be loved and cared for. Aunt Dea also introduced him to the name lost love when Aunt Dea died. When he began to lose his direction he again met with the figure of Aunt Lisa, with Aunt Lisa he felt the pain of betrayal.

" that's my past that's a shame, a shame," he concluded.

Dani took a deep breath, her net staring fixedly at her body.

" You mind my past which...?" ask Raga

" hhhmm not exactly who, just why new story now..?" wonder Dani

" i'm afraid that, afraid that you might refuse.."

" i'm younger than you, which does not rule out the possibility of your oedipus complex relapse again." said Dani

" you are different, my love for you is very different from what used to be.." explained Raga

" why don't you tell me before we go too far.Why...?" crying Dani

Somehow Dani arrived crying, he felt played with, after Raga got what she had been guarding all this time, after they had forbidden relationships, even staying home, then Raga told him who she was.

Raga hugged Dani's shoulder, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean that, I used to be afraid you'd stay so know who I am."

There was a little regret Dani had, why should it be like this, he thought. But rice has become porridge, now Dani just wants them to have a more definite commitment about their relationship.

" marry me now...!!" pinta Dani arrived

" a what is..? Stuttering Raga

" marry me now..! Repeat Dani

" yes we will definitely marry." said Raga while carrying Dani into his arms.

Not only is that what worries Dani, another one that weighs on his mind is about the oedipus complex. It is not impossible if one day Raga meets a figure who is able to paddle him, Raga will leave him. This is really a fear for Dani. There is no guarantee that Raga will not change. There is no marriage status between them. Raga could have left her when she was bored, or found another woman.

Raga understands Dani's worries, and tries to convince Dani that Dani is everything to her. Two will definitely marry Dani but not anytime soon, considering her job is now in full concentration. Given that he is expanding his business wings in the field of briquette exports. Not only was his mind focused on his new venture, but also his energy and physique which required him to paddle to the briquette manufacturing site which was a fair distance away from his old office.

Dani tries to understand and reconcile with the situation, however wrong he is in this, too easily deceived by pseudo love and pleasure.

" God forgive my sins." ponder Dani suddenly remember with his Lord. Her tears trickled down remembering how she had gone wrong in stepping. To abandon God and his worship is for pure enjoyment.

" it's not like this ah, you're making me feel so guilty...." Raga stroked Dani's head.

" and I have to laugh with joy...? Dani's touch is upset.

" well, that's also what..."

" you're a boy so it's easy for you to say that, I'm a Raga girl, "it's still upset Dani

Not a little bit of fighting happened. This was their first quarrel since they were in love. Dani vented her emotions and annoyance with angry anger, Raga was provoked by her emotions.

If you know this mending I do not have to admit my past to him, thought Raga regretted what she had admitted earlier.

Dani is still bending her face, while the body moves in her room. Tired of their hearts and minds. Raga climbed into the bed intending to go to sleep immediately. But his eyes were not closed.

While Dani was still pensive on the sofa in the living room, she picked up her phone, and headed for the door. He intended to get fresh air outside, until in the basement he ordered a gocar. It's late now, but this doesn't dampen Dani's intentions.

Here he is now, in front of his tiny house, a house with all the memories with his master's people. He opened the door, the lights in the house were deliberately left on. His eyes swept over every corner of his house. His steps towards his room, he also laid his body there. He hugged his favorite bolster, did not feel his tears began to drip, his cry could not be dammed anymore. Two crying so it happened. his frustration really spilled. Didn't feel Danipun began to fall asleep with tears still wetting his cheeks.

Raga wondered why Dani didn't even enter the room. Aah maybe she overslept outside Raga thought. Yes, the body does not want to disturb Dani, he is afraid Dani is still angry and if he is nosy will cause more fights.

" kruuuk." the sound from the belly of the body, he just remembered that they had not eaten last night. Immediately two got off his bed, walked out of the room, towards the dining table about to eat. His eyes looked at the sofa, not seeing Dani's figure there. Maybe in the living room, Raga thought, her footsteps turning towards the living room looking for Dani's whereabouts. But what he was looking for did not see the trunk of his nose.

Fucked mind Raga, taken a square flat object from his room, his hand moved to press the screen of the object,,, the,,

" the number you are going to is not active." the sound of the flat object....

" wuck.... The phone isn't active anyway...!!!!