I'm Destroyed Because of you
16. Right decision

Amidst his heartbreak, Dani tried to ponder. Seeking God's purpose behind all the events he experienced. Dani believes that behind all events there must be the wisdom of God in it.

Today is Sunday as usual Raga has very rarely returned to the apartment. Even if you go home, you must be angry which will lead to their quarrel. Dani really wanted them to sit together with their heads coldly talking about the fate of their relationship. It's okay if they have to separate, Dani sincerely accepts it all. And this is where the problem is, Raga can not be spoken to from the heart of heart, his ego is too high to admit his mistakes. Why did Dani have to meet such an unequivocal man like raga ...?

Dani went to worship, she set out with a heart full of joy while carrying her child. As if God knew Dani needed enlightenment for his life, it just so happened that the words of God delivered by the father of the Shepherd were very influential in Dani's heart. God touched his heart through that word. And as per the worship here he is now, sitting with the father and mother of the shepherd, Dani tells his life story with a sobbing. No one is missed. They listened carefully to Dani's story and finally Dani was led to repent, admitting all her mistakes in earnest. The shepherd's mother stroked Dani's head as if giving strength and support. Dani is not alone anymore, her heart is calm and relieved. His heart made a decision for his life. Increasingly convinced by the support of two good people in front of him.

Arriving at Dani's apartment who already has a decision about his life immediately do the plan. The first thing he did was to clean up all his stuff and his son. Put it all in some cardboard. By noon all was well. Now he took out a piece of paper his hand nimbly wrote on the paper.

" For the Raga...

Thank you for all you have given me, consider our togetherness as a wonderful gift to our lives. I go with Arkha, please let us live quietly together. You can visit your child whenever you want. My door is open for that. Thanks though.

Dani's.."

Such was the sound of the writing he left on their room table. Dani put it in a place that is easily visible. His eyes circled the room, for a moment the memories of the two of them came back, but soon he was patis. Soon he got out of the room, picked up his hape and ordered a taxi. Dani took down her things with the help of apartment security. Not long after the taxi was headed to the address he gave.

They were in a small house, Dani's childhood home. Dani decided to go back to her house. Dani has decided to live alone with her son in this house. He had prepared his heart to face the neighbors' talk about the status of his son later. Must be strong.Dani kissed his son's forehead..

" this is our home now, support your mother to always be strong, son." whispered. And as if to understand the cute baby who has not even turned 5 months old was smiling.

The first week of living in his house the first thing Dani did was get it sorted out and tell his budhe was the only family he had now. Hearing the news from his nephew the budhe was surprised. Until he can't wait for Budhe to come to Dani's house to see his granddaughter.

" i'm sorry budhe ya nduk, there should be budhe nemenin you when the weight of your life, sorry budhe who never asked you again after your parents died.maafin budhe Yo nduk..." budhe repeatedly hugged Dani while apologizing, budhe felt that all that Dani experienced would not have happened if he had visited his nephew often. They hugged while crying.

" i have, the important thing is that now that you have realized your mistake, and your decision to return here is correct, Budhe will always support you nduk..."

This kind of support is needed by Dani. And so budhe stayed for a few days accompanying Dani, also helping Dani take care of the letter for her son. Budhe can't be with Dani for too long, however he also has his own family to take care of and look after. Dani really uses his time with his budheya well. Time felt fast until it did not feel like one Sunday budhe accompanied him.And today Dani had to take off his budhe to return to his home again. Budhenya promised to visit Dani often.

Dani has never tried to contact Raga. As ordinary humans sometimes there is still a sense of longing in his heart, however it is not easy for Dani to forget their togetherness first. Every night Dani always prayed that her heart would be strengthened.

Likewise with Raga who has not once contacted Dani, meaning Raga has not returned to her apartment. Let it be none of my business anymore, Dani thought in her heart.

Currently Dani must focus on the growth and development of his son. Dani must be able to be a father and mother figure at once for his son. It's tough, but Dani should be able to. And to meet the needs of his life later Dani decided to look for remote work that he could do from home. However, today there are many large companies both from within and outside the country who seek the services of freelance workers. That way he can still work while babysitting his child. May his hope be as beautiful as reality.

People talk do not ask again, and Dani has thickened his ears for all that.Dani knows This is a risk that he must accept due to his mistakes. Not infrequently he became a gossip when buying vegetables in the morning. Dani did not avoid it all, she only smiled when she heard mom talking about it. Dani is sure long ago they will get bored and disappear by themselves.

During his stay with Raga every month Dani gets a decent monthly allowance, slightly greater than his salary at work. And the money is still intact stored has not been reduced in the least, plus the money saved during work. And now Dani is using that money for her current needs. While waiting for someone who wants to use his services on online job sites.

The father and mother of the church Shepherd also diligently visited Dani and his son. To support and support Dani. How happy Dani is with her life now. Slowly, but surely, he got better. Let all the events that have destroyed her life as a woman, stored in her memory as a reminder that she had fallen into sin and would never repeat it again. There is a little angel whom God has sent with him today. Which made that beautiful smile reappear on her father's face.......