How To Marry You ?
forty-four

Sandra tells Jonas that if he can't come to the office, he just claims he's not feeling well.

Not forgetting to tell Alex, of course with the same reason, but Sandra added that the man did not have to worry, because he only wanted to rest all day at home.

Natasha had also called, the girl said, not to worry about Xander, because she planned to take the boy for a walk.

After sending a message to the three men, Sandra washed her hands first before feeding Ferdiansyah, the man's right hand was plastered.

The porridge menu was provided by the hospital, despite protests, but finally Ferdiansyah wanted to open his mouth for breakfast.

"you don't know why I can be this?"ferdiansyah said on the sidelines of his breakfast.

"that's your business," said Sandra coldly.

Silence, only the sound of a spoon clashing with a plate, as well as the sound of chatter on the next bed.

Moments later, the porridge in the bowl had been exhausted, Sandra gave the nurse-given tablet to give to the patient after breakfast.

"are you having breakfast?"ask Ferdiansyah.

"Not hungry, you better rest" Sandra replied without looking at the man.

"Sandra, I'm really sorry, I hurt you, I'm sorry,"

There was no response from the woman.

"As much as you listen to me or not, obviously I was forced to leave you, I was in quite a debt, I used that woman to dredge up her property, in addition to paying the debt, I was in debt, I also want to buy you a two-room apartment, so Xander can have his own room, the plan after I pay off the debt and work back I'll come to you, so we can be together,"

Sandra was surprised by the man's confession, but trying to remain calm, she chose to remain silent without responding.

"Sandra, when my ospek who is your senior, fell in love at the same first sight of you, since then I secretly noticed you, but you didn't realize that, so when I graduated and then worked, I already know Mr. Wijayanto turned out to be a friend of the father, I asked the father to propose you to me,"

Sandra was still silent, not responding to the words of Ferdiansyah.

"If my heart aches when I know you have another son, but my love for you remains the same, I run from you, so that I do not hate you, I assure myself that whatever your circumstances, I still love you,"

There was a breath of fatigue from the man, "Sandra, honestly I was happy, when you knew you wanted to come live with me after the death of your parents, but when I saw Xander, I was happy, my disappointment and my heartache, reappeared, sorry I was rude to your son, but I promise after this, I won't repeat it, I'll treat Xander like my own son, I will also seek treatment in order to meet your biological needs, so please forgive me" he said at length.

Sandra was still silent, choosing not to respond, she was already hurt at the man, she recalled the time the man scolded her and denounced her as a cheap woman, who was pregnant out of wedlock, she said, she admits that being pregnant outside of marriage is not good, but for cheap, it does not seem appropriate, because she did it with only one man she loved, her first boyfriend and her first love.

Not to mention the man's treatment of Xander while still living in the apartment, several times he found bruises in several parts of his son's body.

And most of all, not even though Sandra loved Ferdiansyah, she only carried out her duties as a wife, there was no debate with her husband, unlike Alex, who was a wife, sometimes he makes his own smile when he remembers the man he loves.

"Sandra please stay my wife, I will try to be a good husband and father to Xander,"

Sandra sighed harshly, "It's too late, sorry I can't," she declined.

"why? You won't forgive me?".

"then why are you taking care of me now? You even left Xander to take care of me,"

"Do you think I'll just shut up when the hospital tells me that the man who was once my husband is in trouble? even your affair from last night I've been waiting, never to show the stem of his nose,"

"I'm sorry, I'm troubling you, and I've broken up with Erina, her husband caught our affair, that's why I'm here now" Ferdiansyah admitted.

Hearing that, Sandra was surprised, she did not expect Ferdiansyah like that.

Ferdiansyah's left hand tried to grab Sandra's, but she avoided it.

"Sandra I'm sorry, I really had to do it, Erina's husband works on a yacht that rarely comes home, so Erina needs warmth and attention, while I need a lot of money to pay my debts, I don't use my heart, because you're the woman I love the most,"

Sandra flashed her smile, "sorry before, did you provide warmth for your affair? I didn't hear wrong, did I? don't make it up to you,"

Ferdiansyah tried to grab his hand, but Sandra brushed him off, and,

"That's also what I'm surprised at, just as you I'm like that, but with other women I can satisfy them,".

"Here you go, I don't care, you've admitted your affair, so there's nothing we can defend, you better get some rest now, I'm gonna find breakfast downstairs,"

Sandra just left, not wanting to hear the man's words.

A fact that made him surprised, Ferdiansyah was only weak against him, was there anything like that ? What's wrong with her? Why could that happen? Is it because he loves himself so much?

But why did Alex, who had loved herself so much, never experience anything like that?

Even Alex actually made it to its peak more than once in their hot activities.

Didn't Alex really love her?

But it's impossible, Sandra can feel how much love Alex has for her, not to mention the existence of Xander who ties the two.

Sandra chose to buy breakfast at the hospital, had just entrusted Ferdiansyah to the nurse who was on guard.

Beside the hospital, there were many street vendors hawking his wares, the choice fell on the blue wagon chicken noodles.

He ordered it, while waiting for his order to be served, Sandra opened her phone, there were some messages there.

His son sent Natasha a picture of breakfast, grateful that his best friend would be cheered on by him.

Then Alex sent a photo of breakfast made by the man in the office, not forgetting a message that stated his longing for him.

These few days, the two only met while working, Alex has been very busy lately.

The last message from Ferdiansyah's parents said that the train will arrive at around two in the afternoon at Jatinegara station.

Sandra replied, the message and told her that she would pick up later in the day.