The Delayed Love
Deal
I also returned to the office after my brief meeting with Ridwan earlier.
" I don't know why after my meeting this afternoon I became reminded again of the time when I used to study in Junior High
Yes Ridwan who used to be an artist, many of my classmates had a crush on him.
ever since she performed a duet with me at the breakup of our first-grade sister above us..some thought we were dating until my own friends Fitri and Erika were upset that I thought I had taken her idol and kept quiet - had been dating Ridwan...
Since then I stopped following extra music ..
And since then we are not so close anymore because we have different classes. And besides that also because there are no special activities that make us often meet
Ahh....why do I have to remember that time again and think of other men ..while I am already engaged.
Ahhhh... no... no.. I have to waste my silly thoughts...he's very good with me and my father.he's a man of dreams.
not necessarily also Ridwan had the same thoughts as me. So why should I think about it..
.Ahh..what the hell is this.
Then the thought came to my mind again....
Why don't I concentrate like this...
Because of the two students sitting in front of me....
seeing them so friendly and plus my meeting with Ridwan.
Ahhhh already...I have to concentrate..konsen..konsen..konsen...please....Mer.you have to concentrate ok....
It seems like I can't concentrate today.
I should have calmed my mind first.Let me continue my work tomorrow morning.
I quickly tidied up the files on my desk, and I left my room and headed for the parking lot.
Arriving at the parking lot I was still confused.I had to go where to calm my mind...
Oh yes, the park....Yes I know the city park is the right place for me right now
I parked my car after I got to where I was.
I got out of the car immediately and I started looking for a seat not far from the parking lot
From my seat, I can see there are already some people who pass by, although not so much because it is still three in the afternoon where many people are still busy struggling with their work..there are those who exercise small but there are those who just sit like me.
I just look at the people around me with their own activities and that is enough to make me forget my messy thoughts
I don't feel like the clock in my hand has shown four and fifteen minutes.
Deg...
someone patted my shoulder gently and the voice seemed familiar to me..
I looked up my head and turned to the origin of the voice...
"Ridwan..
"Kok you can be here ?' ask me again with a little wonder
how could the person who had been haunting my mind from this afternoon until I could not concentrate be in front of me anymore ..
" Why would you. if I were here" he replied, sitting next to me.
" No. No. I'm glad to see you "I replied....
upssss... why am I keceplosan yes.waduh serious..mus2an he did not take my words seriously just now.
"I'm happy to see you too... Mer's...
"you're getting beautiful and growing up...
I-I see
" Are you married Mer.I see that there is a ring on your ring finger." jolted Ridwan while looking at my ring finger.
His touch was enough to shock me. for not expecting him to ask me that.
" It seems there is no hope for me" he said again
" Why did we meet this time." lamented Ridwan while holding his head.
"I'm not married yet.but.." said me while trying to breathe because frankly somehow there is a sense of tightness in my chest.
" Well, what is Mer.." said Ridwan while looking at me..
" But.me.me is already engaged." answered me again.
"Do you love him ? ask Ridwan curiously
" What do you mean by that question ? . answered me with a sharp answer.
" Mer. If you love her why you look so unhappy
and why should you be upset if I ask her how you feel"
let's answer Mer.. You have to be honest with your feelings mer.." said Ridwan which actually makes me more crowded.
Aaaahhhhhh.., I.
I was confused what to answer.should I tell you all the feelings that had been stuck in my mind with the person I just met this afternoon... although we used to know but I can not believe very well with Ridwan who has not met for a long time.
" Mer." Ridwan started to open his voice after I did not answer his question
"I know .. It may be difficult for you to answer my question. But don't worry Mer...I'm ready to be your best friend.Whenever you need my help.I will always be ready to be your confiding friend.... trust me " said Ridwan a little relieved me
"Thank you Rid.." I said.
"Now you calm yourself down .." said Ridwan as he stroked my back gently..
I don't know why Ridwan's caress makes me feel so calm and comfortable..
this feeling I have never felt before. Even with Mas Hendra... Ahhhhh why should I compare Ridwan with Mas Hendra huh.
" It's already mer night....
you better go home ..let me follow you your car from behind huh..
I just want to make sure you're safe at home" said Ridwan with a bit of clarity.
I just nodded my head in agreement.
we got out of our seats and walked to the parking lot.
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