The Delayed Love
Misjudge
The sound of a cell phone alarm woke me up
it feels heavy to move the body
but what a force I was forced to grab my phone at the nightstand next to the bed.
I tried to get out of bed even though it was heavy... If not because of the work that has been two weeks more I left.and also my promise with Ridwan.
I stayed with my position long enough...
I finally got up too.
I forcefully pulled my heavy foot to step towards the bathroom.
After forty minutes I spent taking a bath, decorating and everything
I rushed out of the room to the dining table.
My dad sat down at the dinner table and read the newspaper.
"Yeah." I said as I grabbed my father's hand and kissed him.
"For the boy ". let's have breakfast" said the father, folding and putting a newspaper next to the dinner table.
After a while, enjoy the food
Dad started talking
"What is your relationship with Hendra ..nak.,"
said father again ..while putting food into his mouth.
" Uhukkk.
"It's a drink first" said the father while offering a glass of water.
" Why are you, baby? " ask dad again after I finish drinking
" It's okay .... well ..a bit surprised aza
because of his father Mas Hendra's tumben ."
I'm the same Hendra well yeah well ."
I answered trying to calm down.
I don't want you to know about Ridwan.
"Well... I left first yes. because there is a lot of work that I have to finish today'
I diverted the conversation
I kissed the back of my hand and rushed out of the house
"Be careful, dear." said the father again a little loudly.
" Ok..yah.." I said as I passed
Once in the office I parked my car as usual.
Morning ma'am.." greet some of my employees at the same time.
"Good morning". I said while giving a paper bag containing some cakes and snacks and also some other gifts that I deliberately bought during my time in Bandung
" This is for you, please share it with other employees. Sorry the reward is not much." I said again
" Thank you ma'am...not anything this is enough...thank you very much ma'am.." he said again while holding my hand.
" Yes sama2" I said as I walked slowly away from them.
I entered the elevator to my room.
As usual, I did my job to check and sign the files that had been piled up on the desk.
Until I didn't feel like lunch time was coming.
Remember my promise with Ridwan.I also tidied up some files and rushed out of the room.
I also took my place in the corner..
because that's the most strategic place.
It had been ten minutes I waited but there was no sign Ridwan would show up.
Maybe he has forgotten his promise.but cook . i. anyway. only yesterday night promise he has forgotten.
Suddenly......
it was dark.
"Good morning honeyyy......"
slowly my eyes began to light up
I saw a variety of food already available in front of me.
And Ridwan has started to sit near me.
" You're nothing..Rid. make surprised to know....
" i said a little embarrassed
" it's all for someone very special in my life" he said, holding my hand
' We eat first yuk." he said again while keeping his hands away from my hands.
We also started eating together while occasionally he wiped my mouth with a tissue because there was leftover food stuck in my mouth.
It was what made my heart beat so hard that I could not describe my feelings.
After about fifteen minutes we spent eating. The waiter came to pick up the plate on our table because it was his boss's request.
"Mer.." said Ridwan, holding my hand gently, and after the waiter finished cleaning the table.
"I want to talk seriously with you.' he said again while confirming his seat.
Duuggg..duggggg.duggggg," my heart started to beat fast.
". i love you... Mer "pardon me. I can't get rid of this feeling.I've tried not to think about you because I know you already belong to someone else...there is pain and tightness in my heart. Two weeks I did not meet you. There is something missing in my heart...
All this time I tried not to tell you this, but I couldn't..
"Mer. I don't mean to interrupt your relationship. I'm sorry Mer.." said Ridwan as he slowly moved his hand away from mine
I was still silent.I didn't know what to say.
I was confused if I should be honest with my feelings...
' Mer..," said Ridwan again.."I just want you to be honest with how you feel. I will accept whatever you say. If you don't feel the same way as me........
Ridwan was silent for a moment..
"I'll go. I won't ..meet you again....
I just want to. You're happy.." Said Ridwan stammered by the brick to endure his heartache.
" Rid.." I started to open my voice.
"I'm confused.In fact, I didn't love my fiance Mas Hendra.
I'm silent for a moment.
" I didn't have a choice then... My father asked me to get engaged to Hendra mas because in addition to good he has also worked in our company for a long time. So my father knew exactly the background of Mas Hendra's family "
"Initially I told my father that I didn't love Hendra, but he assured me that by always being together, the feeling would grow by itself." he said.
Ridwan was still listening to me
"At that time I agreed with my father's words in the hope that one day I could love Hendra and I didn't want to hurt my father's feelings, because he's all I have right now." I said again as I occasionally threw out my slightly claustrophobic breath...
" I've been trying to love Mas Hendra.but I can't.." ...Rid "said me again with a sigh
" I Am .. I. I. love others.and others.and you." I said, putting my hand on my face.