The Delayed Love
Guard it
" Why bi.." asked me after I opened the door
" It...non..outside there are non nyari." said bi inah.
" Who is bi..? Ask me again
" Do not know non.' replied bi inah
" Well, I'll take a look. Thanks. Bi." I said as I stepped out.
" Ridwan......"
" Mer.. I want to talk for a while. I can come in. " said Ridwan.
I'm silent for a moment
" Mer.. please, let me talk for a minute" he said again.
" Okay... Please come in." I said again.
" Mer. I want to talk to your father" Ridwan said
" For what...?" ask me for wonder
" About our relationship.I'm serious about you.I'm not messing with Mer." he said again.
" Free Rid.... it's too late.. I'm going to marry Mas Hendra.and it's my decision.." I stammered the bricks while enduring the pain in my chest.
"What do you mean Mer. I don't believe your decision. Please let me talk to your father Mer. I'll explain everything. that we love each other" said Ridwan again while holding my hand.
" No.use Rid....this has been.......my decision.... you should just go home." I said slowly while trying to hold back my tears that started out.
"Mer.. please .. I beg you. I will not go home until I speak to your father.".
"I'll find your father now." said Ridwan as he stood up.
" Rid.... free of charge.my father is not home" I said again.
" You mean.." said Ridwan again.
" Yes.my dad's in the hospital" I said
" What's wrong with your father Mer...?" asked Ridwan while sitting back beside me
I sighed for a while and continued to tell her everything that had happened
," That's what happened....
" Rid.I don't know what else to do..
I don't want to lose my father because he's all I have...
I'm an unfilial child to parents because of my selfishness until I almost killed my own father..Rids
"I can't imagine what would happen if I left the house that day.."
I'm stumped...Rid " said to me again
" Crying is Mer. don't you snuggle in your heart." said Ridwan, hugging me tightly.
After a while, I finally let go of the hug.
"Rid .I know it's very hard for us ..but I don't know what else to do. I hope you can accept my decision." I said again, trying to calm my mind
'Mer. frankly. I can't part with you. I love you so much Mer " said Ridwan again.
" Rid..
" You are not wrong Mer. I understand your feelings" said Ridwan again.
" Rid..... try to.forget me... don't see me again.. while holding back the tightness in my chest.
" No Mer... I can't .. I won't stop loving you.." said Ridwan again.
"Please Rid.. leave me. Don't expect me anymore." I said again.
Ridwan was silent for a moment....
" all right...Mer.... I'm leaving. but I won't give up." said Ridwan again as he got out of his seat and left my house.
I'm silent for a moment......May this be the right decision for me. I must be strong. Please strengthen your servant....
I tried to get up from my seat and walked slowly to the bedroom.
I lay down on my bed and tried to rest......
I don't know how many hours I flipped...
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I woke up.from my sleep.the clock has shown at three in the afternoon...
it turns out.. it's three ..o yes I have to go to the hospital...
I had to rush to the bath." I thought to myself.
I finished eating. I got ready to go to the hospital..
I must try hard.I do not want to see my father sad...
I got out of the house and drove my car to the hospital.