SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
Feelings above Love

Small running clouds meet Syahdu. The girl sat on a park bench alone and let the night breeze tease her body which was only wearing a thin t-shirt.

Again, Syahdu invited him to play anything as long as it could cure the chaos in his heart.

The clouds standing from a distance were quite far away, watching Syahdu who was sitting blankly staring in front of him. He felt sorry for the girl. Although it is not clear what exactly happened, Awan knew that he had decided it with great force. The clouds felt that the reason for Syahdu was a bit excessive.

"Remain here?" Ask Clouds. He sat next to the girl.

"Boss." Answer's relaxed.

"So not your college. Why?" The clouds did not hear the answer from Syahdu. He stopped answering.

"It must be because of Wicak, yes."

"Udahlah. Don't talk about that. We're karokean, yuk. Singer." Syahdu stood up and went straight to the road. The clouds followed him from behind.

"Why don't you take the others, anyway?" Ask the Clouds from behind Syahdu.

"Ngga wants to take nicotine. Dah malem." Quickly follow. Not hearing the Cloud's voice again, Syahdu turned around. "Why? You don't want to go to Nemenin?" Ask by swerving.

"It's not. Yauda!" The clouds walked quickly towards one of the karaoke buildings across the street.

Once there, Awan briefly excused Syahdu to go out to buy food while Syahdu went straight in and sang in his room.

She sings mellow songs. As soon as he lived until he did not realize someone opened the door and sat down to listen to him sing.

The song is also about how much he loves but has to let go. It is exactly what he is experiencing right now.

An applause was heard when Syahdu finished singing. Syahdu ignored him, he was busy choosing songs again.

"Wan, sing here." He said without looking back and continued to pick songs.

"Whoa.."

Syahdu looked over and was stunned. Wicak was already sitting behind him with a small smile.

Where's Cloud? Why is there a Wicak here? Syahdu.

Wicak stood up, he hugged Syahdu without permission. The girl just froze. He knew this must be the work of the clouds. He had bought food but had not shown up until now.

"Sister.. Why are you here?" Ask Syahdu.

Wicak pulled Syahdu's hand to sit down. He clasped the hand while looking into Syahdu's eyes.

"Sister. I.."

"You're happy, you're separated from me. Have you long wanted to separate, so happy until karaokean like this? You don't miss me, huh? Who are you dating now? Why not look at the campus? Avoiding me?"

Questions were asked by Wicak. But the girl just looked down. He tried his hardest to hold back his tears.

"Shahdu, if you really want to break up and not love. Why do you feel this sad?"

Wicak cupped Syahdu's cheek with both hands. "Can we talk about this? Can you tell me a clearer reason? I'll fix everything for you, Syahdu. I don't want us to separate not obviously rich gini. Tell me, what's wrong?"

Syahdu shed tears unconsciously. He quickly wiped away while shaking his head.

"Yes. Then why are you? What was the shahdu and now is why?"

Syahdu cannot explain it. Syahdu just silently let his tears flow. While Wicak immediately hugged him again. Rub her hair gently.

"Syahdu, we used to always face all the problems of both. The shahdu was like that. She's also the woman who would say 'yes' even if her heart says 'no.' He will still allow his girlfriend even though his heart refuses. She will continue to support all her boyfriend's favorite things even if that makes her sad. You did everything for me, right? Now you ask for separation, but your heart refuses. I know it. I know you well, either the old Syahdu, or the present Syahdu."

Syahdu wrapped both his hands around Wicak's waist. He cried again at the chest of the man's field. Comfortable, that's what Syahdu feels let alone the heartbeat of Wicak so regular and feels warm.

"On my parents, let it be my business, Syahdu. I'll make sure they accept you as I accept all the bad and good in you. I love you, Syahdu. I really love you."

For some reason it felt like his heart was slicing, Syahdu was crying more and more to hear that. There was nothing he could say anymore. He couldn't even give an excuse.

After Syahdu felt calmer, he let go of his embrace. Her clothes were wet with her tears. He cried long enough in his lover's chest. Moreover, the feeling of longing makes him urung take off hugs quickly.

"Is it better now?"

Syahdu nodded slowly. "Sorry.."

Wicak stroked Syahdu's cheek. "You're not wrong. Maybe I've been overdoing it all this time."

"Son, there's nothing wrong. And because of that, I don't feel like pantes with brother."

Wicak even laughed. "Speak what, anyway. I thought so too, anyway. Feeling no pantes for you. It feels like you can be with another man who can be more happy for you than me who has to pioneer first."

"No. I'd better be with brother." Answer Syahdu quickly.

"Haha. Aye, kan. Not just you, I thought the same thing. But it makes me even more excited to be more worthy of you, Syahdu. Because I don't want one day to regret not having fought for you."

"But what if it turns out I'm not in line with sister's expectations.."

"I don't think any human being can actually live up to our expectations. There must be a plus minus. And I'll try to accept all plus minus you." Wicak said as he stroked Syahdu's cheek, looking into the woman's eyes deeply.

"really?"

"Yes, honey. As you have accepted my shortcomings, I will accept all your shortcomings. Whatever it is."

"Anything is that.." Wicak's words were like giving him a glimmer of hope. His spiritless life was now like being given millions of energies to stand tall.

"Have I been like a man who would throw you away if you had flaws, Syahdu? Have I been like that all this time?"

Syahdu shed tears again. He shook his head and immediately spat out a wicak's embrace. He hugged her tightly. In his heart he felt very grateful to Wicak for accepting it. Although the man did not know clearly, but his words made Syahdu very calm now.

He hoped Wicak would understand, that he did not do it with pleasure, but was forced, to make his grandmother healthy again as usual.

"So, we're not breaking up, are we?"

"No. I'm sorry, brother. I've made a decision that's made my brother miserable."

"Yes. I'm in trouble with your decision. Don't do it again, yeah. Anything that is a burden on your mind, tell me. We'll find a way out together, not a way to break up."

Syahdu nodded, his face felt guilty especially not just Wicak, but he troubled himself. But thankfully, what Arga said was true. The level of love that has been far above, will make someone accept all the shortcomings without thinking anything but having it.