SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
The Only Promise Wicak Keeps

Syahdu bends his knees, hugs his own body. Inhaling the rest of the aroma of Wicak on the clothesline he was wearing. He strengthened his soul and heart alone. He tried as hard as possible even though he had to fall and be destroyed many times.

The sorrow in his heart was very real. The promise of the man who would continue to be by his side was only a thread of words. The words of love from Wicak in his ear also still continue to buzz and have no meaning.

It feels like disbelief. Time and again Syahdu bit his finger firmly, hoping that this was just a dream. But until his finger bleeds, he never woke up to make him have to swallow the reality of the pain he felt.

Too dark. These days, will Syahdu be able to forget it? Suriani and Wicak left in the near future. Can he continue to live when his heart feels dead like it is today?

Syahdu turned his head as Mirna sat next to him. The woman was holding a newspaper box. He stroked the box while crying.

Syahdu. A mother loses the boy she loves the most. Though it has not been together for a long time, but after meeting even Wicak who had an accident to die.

"It's got Wick." He said in a raucous voice, then handed the box to Shahdu.

"All that stuff he keeps for you."

Shahdu opened the box. He found the account book on the top stack.

"That's a savings he made specifically for you. Her goal is to marry you."

Syahdu opened a book of accounts that amounted to one hundred and twenty-five million.

"Mother is not willing to take it, because Wicak from the beginning save the savings is indeed for you."

Again, Syahdu tears fell when his name was printed in the savings book. Syahdu was powerless to endure the pain in his chest, as his memory flew to the memory where Wicak forced him to create a new account and it was Wicak who kept the book and Atm named him.

"I can't take this." Syahdu handed it to Mirna, but the woman refused.

"From the beginning, I actually knew you were a good girl. But your status that I cannot accept even though repeatedly Wicak reassures mom that you are not what people say." Mirna wiped her tears.

"After seeing everything, the mother is increasingly convinced that the mother's child has never misjudged women. He chose you, and it would be a sin if you took the effort he did for you."

Syahdu sniffled. Again, he felt guilty about everything he had done. The good girl pinned Mirna felt unworthy of her care given the betrayal she had committed to Wicak.

Again, Syahdu regretted himself. Setting foot in this city was indeed a mistake for him.

"Mom, come. The ambulance is ready. Let's go." Bayu approached, embracing Mirna standing up, also invited Syahdu to go to the funeral.

Arriving there, Syahdu just silently watched the funeral Wicak with a circle of tears from his classmates. He looks at people who love his girlfriend. I also heard a girl's moaning. Imel, he sobbed and lamented when he saw Wicak put in a lava burrow.

Syahdu also knew the woman felt lost her love. Syahdu understood because he was the same. It's just that Wicak promised her togetherness, said that he will always be there, yearning for marriage, a future together and that all he did not do.

"Patient, yes." Cintya approached Syahdu, giving him a little support. Also some Wicak friends who know Syahdu because Wicak always tell about his lover.

The eyes of Syahdu are swollen and red. He no longer even cried when he saw the mound of earth with a sprinkling of flowers.

Mirna was still crying there with some of her family.

Syahdu was not far from there. He no longer knew what to say. His body was buried with the man.

Beautiful memories for almost 8 years vanished buried and that clearly felt only a memory of the condition of Wicak last time in the hospital.

Syahdu approached his lover's grave. He touched the name on the gravestone. Aditya Wicaksana, the man who promised marriage and the future, does not dwell on fate. And that man, he reneged on all his promises.

Wicak denies everything. The promise he made was that there was nothing he could do.

The only thing that Wicak kept was his remark, that he would love Syahdu to death. The girl sobbed when she remembered Wicak's words at the boarding house first.

"I love you until death do us apart (I love you until death do us part)" whispered Wicak at that time and Syahdu remembered very well the man's gaze as Wicak revealed his sentence. Did Wicak really know about his disappearance?

Syahdu looked down inside. He was banging his chest that felt so tight. Screaming, that was all he could do in front of Wicak's grave.

Syahdu even like difficulty breathing because his chest that feels full of suffering. Until he himself could not describe what he felt at this time.

Syahdu squeezed the ground that was still wet. It's heavier. Losing Wicak is harder than Suriani.

When his grandmother died, Syahdu was still able to calm down because there was a Wicak beside him. But now, the light in Syahdu's heart was dim when no one stood by his side.

"Shahdu.." Mirna held both shoulders of the girl who shook violently. Syahdu cried sobbing until he was not aware that the drizzle began to fall.

"Come, go home, kid. It's raining." Bayu stood guarding Mirna and Syahdu.

"Come, Syahdu. I'm taking you home, yeah." Mirna helped the girl stand up and hugged her while walking.

Slowly their steps away from leaving the now wet tomb filled with rain stubs.

...🍁 ...

Heavy rain is pouring down the city. The rainy season, and Syahdu alone. He sat in the middle of his rented room. Still with the clothes earlier, Syahdu just hugged the knee. She's alone.

Syahdu saw a flash of lightning from the window. It was dark outside but still at 3 pm and the girl did not turn on the lights.

Darkened. Just like his soul. Nothing illuminates. Suriani, Wicak, the two men left him.

Syahdu smiled bitterly. He is fit to be left out. Karma really does work. Then what now? Is this final or just the beginning?

Shaken Shahdu's shoulders. She laughs. That fast karma will repay him. Is his life destiny like this? Was he not destined to be happy? Even if he is unhappy, can the people he loves be happy??

Wicak, it's better that she stay alive and marry a woman who's more beautiful and smart than she is. That man should have lived with an abundance of happiness. Not even dead.

Syahdu. He was more than happy to accept the fact that Wicak should be buried. He would be more sincere if the man married another girl because he was only separated but could still see each other. But death, how did Syahdu accept it?

His head suddenly dizzy. Some days he was crying too much. Suddenly Syahdu felt the whole room spinning and dark. Then he saw someone standing in front of him.

"Shahdu.."

The girl could not see her face, but she knew it was Arga's voice.

"Shahdu, what is.."

I don't know what Arga said. Syahdu no longer heard it. He was limp and could not hold himself back until the Shahdungan fell and collapsed on the floor.

TB