SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
Resisting Desire

Wicak looked at Syahdu's face. It had been seven years that she had been dating Syahdu, but this was the first time she had seen something that had always been hidden from under the shahdu shirt.

Wicak touched it, feeling a sensation he had never felt directly. He slowly squeezed the object until it caused a subtle sigh from Syahdu.

Syahdu felt something extraordinary. What Wicak does feels real different from Arga. Why when with Wicak, his whole body is bristling and very passionate. He could even hear his own heartbeat.

Wicak's face, he continued to stare at the face that was very alluring to him. He wants Wicak to do it too, something he's been imagining since meeting Arga.

The lizard kissed her lips again, slowly laying on Syahdu's body with a hand squeezing one of the woman's breasts.

Syahdu also unbuttoned the Wicak shirt, felt the chest of the field of the man. Every now and then Syahdu closed his eyes, enjoying the touch after touch that Wicak gave him.

Wicak suddenly stopped his activities. He looked at the face very close to himself. Noticing the two wide Syahdu eyeballs, asked him not to stop. He wanted to, but something was in his way.

Sitting, he quietly lowered his head. Syahdu also sat next to the man. What made Wicak stop, why didn't he continue?

Syahdu's hand stroked her lover's back, asking what made him stop?

Wicak grabbed the girl's hand, grasped it tightly while looking into her lover's eyes. He kissed Syahdu's hand and buttoned the dress of the girl he almost channeled his desire.

Syahdu also felt confused why Wicak buttoned his clothes, without a word. The man kissed Syahdu long ago, he closed his eyes, like he wanted to say thank you for giving himself up, had entrusted him to be the first, even though he did not say anything.

Wicak took off his shirt, he stood up to pick up the t-shirt in the closet.

"Sleep. I'm out for a minute."

Wicak left Syahdu who was still silent on the sofa. Syahdu's feelings were mixed. He had been thinking since what made Wicak reluctant to do that with him? Is it because Wicak feels that he has been touched by someone else?

Syahdu shook his head. No, that's not possible. Thenwhat?

Syahdu was upset. He stepped towards the bed. But his steps stopped when he saw someone running by the beach.

Syahdu knows it's Wicak. The man ran around with earphones in his ears.

Why do night-time sports? Syahdu felt even more unwanted, because the man even went out and did not know what he meant to exercise like that, making Syahdu pull the curtain, close the window and then return to bed.

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Wicak ran around with earphones in his ears. The song that he plays is a rock so that he can recover his mind that was messed up because of Syahdu.

Of course he already knows the consequences of sleeping alone with the person he loves is the possibility of peak lust until he can no longer resist his desire.

Like earlier, he really almost did that to Syahdu. Even though he knew, Syahdu wanted it too. But Wicak had already made the decision that he would not do such a thing to Syahdu until their status was changed to husband and wife.

Syahdu was part of his life. Although he had thought about sleeping with Shahdu so that the girl would be his, but he threw away those dirty thoughts when he could also feel the overwhelming love of his lover.

He only wants to enjoy Syahdu when it is legal as a married couple. He was sure, there would be a beauty of what he had half-dead hold for the sake of keeping the body of Syahdu.

Almost lost his mind, he realized that what he did broke the promise in him. So Wicak decided to run around so that the desire that had been in the crown disappeared.

Wicak could feel Syahdu being annoyed at him. He also understood because it could have offended Syahdu. He'll explain it to the girl later. Now, he's headed to the bathroom to clean himself up.

Syahdu. He heard the door open and the sound of water coming from the bathroom. Since then he had tried to sleep but failed when it was half one, he should have slept two hours ago.

What Wicak did to him he really can't guess why. It had occurred to him about Arga's words that Wicak was not normal. Yet he brushed it off, he could very well feel the normalness of a Wicak! It's just that the man must have a good reason why just leaving him in a half-dead state resisted the urge.

Syahdu closed his eyes as he felt the bed sway. Wickers get into bed. He approached Syahdu with a fragrant body.

A hand was coiled around his waist. Syahdu opened his eyes as Wicak peeped his head.

"Sorry." whispered the man behind his body. Wicak hugged Syahdu from behind, close his body with Syahdu's body.

"I hope you understand." His whisper again and truly, it made Syahdu even more curious. Understand what?

Syahdu turned his body, making Wicak shocked because it turns out that his lover did not sleep.

"Shahdu, haven't slept?"

"Am I not attractive to my sister?"

Syahdu's question left Wicak speechless for a moment. She's stroking her lover's hair. Not unattractive. He was so attractive that Wicak could not resist his desire.

"I love you, Syahdu. I'll say it every day until I die." Said Wicak while stroking Syahdu's cheek.

"From the very beginning of dating, I was meant to protect you. Guarding you from all the evil that is happening. But I was not able to. People keep booing you, knocking you down, until I'm tormented."

"After that I felt that I could not take full care of you. So, I want to keep your life safe from rumors that you're the same as your mother. Because I know you're different."

"That's why I don't want to ruin you. I'm gonna take care of you, protect you. Not to make you my place to vent my lust."

Syahdu, she unconsciously shed tears. His eyes suddenly hurt.

"I don't want to do that before we get married, Syahdu. I won't make you the same as people accuse you of."

Syahdu really could not hold tightness in his chest. He covered his face, crying, and Wicak pulled him into his arms, clutching the sobbing girl.

"Shahdu, don't cry." said the man as he stroked Syahdu's back.

Syahdu was embarrassed. The words of his beloved really ripped his heart. How long has Wicak been guarding him, dismissing all the prejudices of the people. But what he did was the opposite.

Unbeknownst to Wicak, Syahdu has sold himself for the treatment of his grandmother. Syahdu must have disappointed Wicak a lot.

There is no man as good as Wicak, Syahdu realized that. And really, he now feels unworthy to be with that man. Syahdu feels he is not worthy of side by side with Wicak who has preserved the honor of women who do not respect themselves.

TB