SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
Suicide

...Playlist: These Eyes - New West🎧...

Syahdu tepekur in the arms of Wicak. He thought about his fate. In his current situation, he was indeed unable to think long. All he knew was that he was alone now. Because Wicak will leave him if he knows that he has been cheated.

Syahdu could feel the warmth of a lizard breath at the top of his head. The man kissed his head while hugging tightly. A hug that Syahdu liked very much, but it no longer meant.

Syahdu broke away. He didn't say anything, just stood up and walked away.

"Syahdu, where are you going?" Ask Wicak.

The girl, with the rest of her tears, gave a small smile at the attention of her lover.

"Attent. I'm going for a minute." He then walked out of his grandmother's mortuary.

Shortly after, Arga entered and found Wicak alone next to Suriani's body. Behind the man were two women.

"Where's the demon?" Julia asked who only saw a man sitting by the corpse.

"Shahdu. was gone." Wicak replied confused, because he did not know the two women. But he guessed, if the two were Arga family. Because of their presence in this hospital made several nurses and doctors stand at the door.

Arga turned around, exiting the room to look for Syahdu. He ran into the female toilet. He went in no matter who was inside, but the toilet was empty. For some reason, Arga's mind was immediately fixed on the rooftop. The place first saw the slump of Syahdu.

He ran up the stairs to the top floor. Arga looked back and forth looking for the figure of Syahdu, and he found the girl standing on the wall.

Tense, Arga momentarily pegged to see Syahdu up there with a gentle breeze blowing through his hair.

"Shahdu!"

Arga's call made him look.

"Down! You want to do something, huh!" Arga tried to get closer. He was afraid that Syahdu would jump down.

The girl looked at Arga with a glare. The tip of his nose was also flushed from tired of crying.

"Shahdu, down, yes. We can find a way out. We're..." Arga doesn't know what to say. He's not good at persuading.

"Shahdu, please don't do that. Please.."

Syahdu looked back, right where Arga was standing looking at him. "Thank you the reason why I have to survive!"

Arga. He cannot lose Syahdu. He didn't want the girl dead.

"Shahdu. I know this sounds weird but. I. need you."

Syahdu did not move. He kept staring down. Arga's words can be denied, because Arga only needs it to be served.

"I. love you. You remember, right, our time at the oma house. You want to be friends. So any friend. I feel comfortable and really need you. I'm..." Arga bit his lips. He almost expressed his feelings at the wrong time. Then what else to say?? While Syahdu is not also moved up there.

"Syahdu, this morning, you said that you love me, right. You said you were happy I was finally getting married."

Syahdu looked back again, looking at Arga who had been below him.

"Say, you want to see me engaged. He said, You're happy that I got married. You.. Do you want to see your friend's fiancee?"

Arga, who did not know what to say, finally said a word he might one day regret. But this time he didn't think about it. What matters is that Syahdu listens to him.

"Many love you, Syahdu. You remember, Wicak also loves you very much, right. You still have him."

"It was he who made me want to end my life." Hit the girl.

"Huh. Why the.."

"I have no self-respect." Shahdu looked down, he cried again. "If he knew I didn't have the honor, he would have stayed with me." His screams at Arga, while the man just pecked. Citing the name Wicak even makes Syahdu even more crying.

Arga took one step forward. His hand stretched out so that Syahdu would go with him.

"There are still many people who love you, Syahdu. Can you imagine how Grandma feels seeing you like this."

Syahdu suddenly shut up, stopping his crying.

"Grandmother doesn't want you to be sad. He wants you to smile and move on with the future. You can still be a useful person for others. The kids at the red light you once helped. They also have hope of survival, they don't give up anyway, do they?"

Syahdu wiped away her tears.

"Hold my hand, Syahdu. Listen to me."

Syahdu.

Seeing Arga's strong desire to keep him alive, Syahdu slowly touched his finger to Arga's outstretched hand. Quickly the man pulled and carried Syahdu down.

Arga immediately hugged him, as well as Syahdu who sobbed and suddenly regretted his decision. He knew himself to be reckless and thought short. Syahdu cupped his face in Arga's body until he felt calm and returned to take care of his grandmother's body.

...🍁...

Syahdu went into Suriani's mortuary with Arga behind him. Inside are Julia and Margaret. The almost half-century-old woman immediately approached and hugged Syahdu whose eyes had been swollen.

"Prophey, baby. You're not alone. There's still mommy and oma who'll nemenin you."

Syahdu just nodded in his arms. She's not crying anymore.

Now it was Margaret's turn to come and embrace him. Margaret said nothing. He had heard his confidant's explanation of who Shahdu was and what Alex had done to him.

At the end, Wicak wondered why Syahdu could come with Arga. Also the two women who looked very close to Syahdu to label themselves as mami and oma. But now Wicak chose not to question it.

"What do you want to bring to the village?" Ask Julia again.

Syahdu shook weakly. He no longer wanted to step on that village.

"Here it is. If you can, this afternoon." Say the girl with the rest of the voice.

"Hospitals will take care of everything. You calm yourself, Syahdu." Margaret stroked Shahdu's shoulder.

Syahdu sat next to Suriani's body. He stroked the arm covered in white cloth while trying to make Suriani leave. He knew that death belonged to the almighty and could not be challenged if God asked him to return. As hard as Syahdu fought, Suriani time back is indeed at this time.

"It doesn't hurt anymore, does it." He still brushes his grandmother's arm. Now he is trying hard.

"Grandma don't worry. There are many who love Syahdu." He took a deep breath. Then smile.

"Syahdu will be a good child, according to what grandmother always said. Grandma, just calm down, yeah."

Wicak stroked his head. He knew his girlfriend was a strong woman. Although Wicak himself was actually not able to see the girl feel the pain like now.

So does Julia. He hugged Margaret's arm to see Syahdu grieving. She was grateful that her mother was alive and well until now.

...🍁...

Suriani's body is buried. The funeral was attended only by the Arga family, Wicak, as well as Adina and Ibra. There are not many people because they are new to the city, also Syahdu who does not inform the people in his village.

Syahdu spreading flowers. Sometimes she wipes away tears. His journey with Suriani is over. Suriani really gave him a lot of life lessons. The grandmother and mother educated him with tenderness and affection. Now it is time for Syahdu to stand alone.

After all hugging him and coming home, Syahdu sat on the ground with a swab of his headstone, unable to leave his grandmother alone there.

Only Wickers kept hugging him. While Arga, the man was standing near his car, still watching Syahdu.

"Come, baby." Julia patted gently on Arga's shoulders that didn't even move.

"Already, you don't worry Syahdu. He's got a guy who's always by his side."

Arga looked at his mother. Even if what is said is true, his heart does not accept it.

"Mommy can see that men are good. He must have taken care of Syahdu. Do not disturb the relationships of others. Yea?" Julia momentarily noticed Arga's eyes were still straight ahead. He felt sorry for his son. But, he also can't do many things especially Arga will be engaged to Soraya.

Arga's car leaves the cemetery, where Syahdu and Wicak are still there.

This time, the girl came back. Being sincere was not something that he easily lived. Every time Syahdu thought about how his life would go forward, he would scream when Suriani was no longer on his side.

"Shahdu, I'm here, baby." Wicak hugged Syahdu who sat on the ground.

"There's still me. I won't stay with you no matter the reason. You're not alone. I'll stay by your side anytime. I promise."

Hearing that, Syahdu again sniffled. Is this really what Wicak said? Is he really willing to accept himself who is no longer holy?

Wicak gently stroked Syahdu's cheeks with his thumb, wiping the tears that spilled back.

"I promise. I'm not gonna leave you. I. will still love you under any circumstances." He said again when he realized the highlight of Syahdu's eyes wanted an explanation again.

Syahdu splashing cuddle Wicak. One more, Aditya Wicaksana, a man who has always existed until now, pledged his promise to Syahdu. The girl clenched tightly to Wicak's body when she realized that she still had one grip and guard in her life.

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