SYAHDU (Contract Sleep Friends)
Lost Both Times

"I'm going home for a minute, yeah, brother."

"Don't.."

"I'm back, really. Take some stuff too. You haven't had a bath since yesterday, hehe." Syahdu laughed so as to release the seriousness on Wicak's face.

"You don't, me? No shower yet." Syahdu sniffed his own body. But the man before her was still with a tense and serious face.

"Don't.." Answer Wicak again. His voice was almost non-existent, his grasp was even stronger. Seeing that response, Syahdu relented.

"Yes, yeah. I'm not going home. I'm here, brother." Syahdu said, finally giving up.

The man stared silently at Syahdu. Like there was something he wanted to say to the girl, but his tongue was stuck.

Syahdu also stroked Wicak's cheek until the man fell asleep again. The face that had been tense now began to calm down and slowly closed its eyes. After Wicak fell asleep, Syahdu carefully removed his hand from the man's grasp.

He's out of the ICU. Paying attention to Wicak's parents to go home for a while to pick up the goods and clean up before staying again at the hospital.

Arriving at home Syahdu hurriedly arranged the clothes and items he needed to carry. He didn't want Wicak to wake up and he wasn't even next to him.

Syahdu's phone rings. He stared at the screen displaying Wicak's mother's name. Syahdu just let it go, because somehow Syahdu felt afraid when on the phone like this. In his mind, Mirna called to tell him the bad news.

His phone rang once more, he picked it up.

'Syahdu, this is you know, Wicak woke up and could speak clearly richly ordinary. I am so happy that I finally improved so quickly. But she still felt nothing with her feet. She was looking for you, mom said take a shower. You're still a long time?'

Syahdu let out a breath that he had been holding ever since. Thankfully, not bad news, he thought.

"It's about to go to the hospital, ma'am, 15 minutes to go."

'Yes already. Careful, yeah.'

"Yes, ma'am." Syahdu smiled widely as he finally got to be like this with Mother Wicak. Something that the man had wanted long ago. But now, everything's fine.

Syahdu buttoned his bag and came out wearing a Wicak gray jacket.

He hummed cheerfully because of the rapid recovery of Wicak. In a moment, maybe that great guy will be out of the hospital.

After descending the public transport, Syahdu stood waiting for the green light to turn red. He wanted to cross so that his feet would directly touch the hospital yard that was now opposite him.

The girl continued to smile, Wicak's feelings for her were incredible. He just needed that and all this time he felt that only Wicak could give him as much affection and happiness as he did now.

Syahdu's phone rang again. Still the same guy. This time Syahdu picked her up quickly to inform her that she was already across the hospital. However, as yet he said nothing, the noise across made him freeze.

Syahdu was silent, suddenly the smile that he had been smiling since had decayed.

Syahdu. The explanation of the person across made him feel like the world had stopped spinning. Suddenly his heartbeat stopped and did not drain oxygen into his body. He wanted to fall, but Syahdu chose to run between the green lights. Make the car horn noisy because of it. Syahdu's body was hit by a car that was still running in a green light.

Syahdu was running fast in the hospital corridor. His heart was racing very fast. His mind rejected the news that Wicak had died. No, that can't happen. Something must have gone wrong and Syahdu wanted to make sure of it himself.

Ten minutes ago, Mirna said that Wicak was improving and his speech was getting clearer.

The lizard cannot die. He spoke half an hour ago. The man fell asleep before his eyes. He's sleeping, not dead.

Shahdu went up the stairs in a hurry. Wicak's room is right in front of the stairs.

Not yet Syahdu managed to climb the entire stairs, clearly seeing the Wicak room wide open with the sobbing sound of Mirna clearly heard in Syahdu's ears.

Syahdu pitched his feet on the last step of the stairs heavily. He saw a gurney with a layer of white cloth over one's body. What's possible, the one lying down with the white cloth was a lizard. No, he wanted to make sure it was someone else.

Syahdu approached the long body above the gurney. On the other side, Bayu looked down to wipe his tears. At the end of the room, Mirna sobbed. Syahdu, with trembling hands, tried to open the white cloth that covered the body's face.

Slowly he opened it, until it was revealed that the cloth was closing to his chest.

Instantly Syahdu shut his mouth, the water dam just broke. Syahdu. He could not believe what was currently in front of him.

"Enggakkkp. This is impossible. Brother Wicak is not dead. This is wrong, sir." Syahdu put his hand on the face of the still warm Wicak. The whole device had been detached from the man's body. "Try me, sir, try a pacemaker. It can still be saved. I'm sure Wicak didn't die. He's just pingsaann. Wickers just fainted!!"

"Tried on a device, son. But Wicak doesn't exist. Patience, son." replied Bayu with a trembling tone.

"Sir is still warm. Mr. Wicak's body is still warm. He's not dead, paakkk. It can still be treated. Try again, sir. try again." Shahdu's screams did not accept the fate that befell him.

Bayu just kept his head down. He knows it must be hard to accept a loved one to return to the Creator. Moreover, as a father, Bayu lost the figure of a tough child.

"Please this how. It's not dead yet. Brother Wicak can still live. He's not maati yet. Sister, please." Syahdu shook the arms of the nurse standing by the door. But the nurse just fell.

"Soak. Banguun. Get up, kaaak." Syahdu shook Wicak's body, but there was no answer.

"Don't stay with me! I promise you, kaaan. He said he wouldn't stay with me no matter what the story was. Brother lied! Huuuu." Shahdu screams with tears. He sobbed until his chest hurt.

"Yawkk.." Syahdu sat down because his body was very weak without power. The cry of Syahdu got the attention of the passersby. He's been hit hard. The grief of Suriani's departure has not gone away. Now with a distance of one week, Wicak even went to leave him.

Syahdu remembered, later Wicak did very often say the word love. He often suddenly begged not to be left behind when the discussion was fun, but Syahdu felt the man was strange when he changed his attitude and asked him to continue to be beside him.

Syahdu just understood, why Wicak did all that to him. The man seemed to know of his own departure. That's why he changed often and was more in love with Syahdu.

Mirna sat next to Syahdu. He hugged the girl and wept over Wicak's departure.

Syahdu is alone. She was completely alone because her love and affection for her had been lost.

TB

**If anyone asks, why was he left when he asked to stay there. No one knows about age. I also. If I had known it was his last day, I would have stayed by his side until his death**