Snow In December
53 (Now, the secret is revealed)

"why aren't you asleep?" ask Aoyama and continue reading the book.

"em.. I thought of something. Aoyama, do you know anything about Ren. Surely you know, you work in a hospital." Hinana hesitantly asked that to Aoyama.

While waiting for Hinana outside, Aoyama also heard what Ren told Hinana. He had also read Ren's history.

"i don't quite understand what Ren says. Maybe he was joking or what, after saying that suddenly he laughed." continued Hinana back to tell.

"He's not kidding."

"Eh. You know that too."

"i only know because I read patient data."

"then why don't you tell me?"

"i think you'd better know than the man himself." replied Aoyama and closed the book he had read.

"so what's the name of the disease?" hinana asked and she started squeezing the clothes she was wearing.

"Heart failure. He has been operated on twice and failed the second operation. Most likely only able to survive 10 years but most do not arrive. I was also amazed that he could survive until now" Aoyama replied explaining everything he knew to Hinana.

The atmosphere became very quiet, Hinana was now beginning to understand what was happening now. His hand held tightly to his shirt to hold him back from crying.

"Hey go, I want to sleep." Aoyama said and put an ear phone in her ear and then closed her eyes.

Hinana slowly went towards Aoyama's room. The words Ren and Aoyama said still filled his head.

" i'm going to die." Ren said

"most likely only able to last 10 years but most not up." said Aoyama.

"there's something painful in here. The doctor told me I would die at 30" Ren said.

Arriving in Aoyama's room Hinana's legs felt very weak, she fell on the floor. Hinana could no longer hold back her sadness, she ended up crying.

Hinana also recalled the reason Ren refused to play ice skating, refused to ride a roller coaster and often fainted. Strangely why Hinana had never realized it.

I told you, all that I can't say don't force me." Ren said a little angrily. He handed the keys to Hinana and left her.

Memories of being with Ren began to revolve in his head, as if a sad film he had seen.

" why did it have to happen to him? I feel like those snowflakes are melting. The one I wanted to see her smile on was a lie. Behind his smile that I always wait for he always keeps a deep pain. Those beautiful eyes I thought never shed a tear."

Hinana just muttered to herself. He hugged himself.

Hinana's sobs were heard until in the middle room pierced through Aoyama's ears. Slowly, the clear liquid fell on Aoyama's eye patch.

Actually he has not really slept, Aoyama also did not hold back his sadness when explaining to Hinana.

"this night seems very cold" he said and saw Sakura's photo of her lover.

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The next day Hinana woke up with very messy hair and a wet face. He could not stand up and fell asleep under the floor.

"ohayou.." greet Hinana to Aoyama who is eating and take drinking water on the teapot.

"hem ohayou's. Did you sleep well?"

"of course. I'm thirsty, after this I want to sleep again." Hinana replied lying and left.

"i'll work, bring my access card." cried Aoyama and stopped Hinana's steps.

"alright, maybe I'll clean up my apartment." Hinana turned around only to retrieve Aoyama's access card. He went back to the room and went to sleep.

After Aoyama's departure he decided to pack his belongings. Because Hinana wants to live in her own apartment.

He spent the whole day cleaning his apartment. Hinana looked at the painting hanging in her room. He was in his mind to come to the hospital.

Hinana buys Yakitori (a Japanese special satay) to give to Ren.

"Hinana, what are you doing here?" Aoyama's voice called out to him.

"return your card. Thank you for allowing me to stay in your apartment." As I met Aoyama, he returned the access card.

"you sure you came to see me?"

"hem." replied Hinana with a nod.

"then the food is for me" said Aoyama and glanced at the bag of supplies carried by Hinana.

"AH, of course, this is not my lunch. See you, Aoyama." Hinana leaves Aoyama.

Aoyama knows the intention of Hinana's arrival to the hospital to see Ren. But Ren came home this afternoon and Shota and she was the one who helped him.

Hinana returned to her apartment, slowly hurting her head. He seems too tired today.

"Ne moshi moshi (yes hello)." said Hinana when picking up the phone and resting her body on the sofa chair.

"Hinana are you better? How you are, where you live now. Are you eating well?." The typical chatty voice that Hinana was annoyed to hear.

"explanation of how I'll answer your question if you keep nagging."

"basic you. Where do you live now?"

"in the apartment, of course."

"Yokatta (thankfully). I'll tell Aoyama to take care of you."

"hey I'm not a kid anymore. What aoyama's great anyway."

"Hinana listen to me, you have to take good care of yourself there and don't get hurt again. Gommen mom hasn't been able to visit you because of something sudden."

"yes I understand."

"do I have to get Ryusei there."

"don't do. My head ached so suddenly I wanted to rest."

"well okay. Get well soon."

After ending the call from her mother Hinana immediately headed to her room and fell into a deep sleep.

The sunlight has started to come out, looking beautiful as it adorns the blossoming cherry blossoms.

Today Hinana is back at work again. He slightly changed the appearance of bangs that usually cover his forehead he trimmed to the side.

"Ohayou." Hinana tang greeting has become a tradition of Japanese people greeting each other.

"Ohayou Hinana." replied Tsubaki.

"it's good to see you guys again in this place."

"you don't usually say that. Hey Hinana what about your head?" Tsubaki approached Hinana's desk and provided a number of documents.

"it's healed."

"Yokatta (please). I hope you won't get hurt again" Tsubaki said and returned to her desk.

Tsubaki's words were right, the second time he had seen Hinana hurt. And twice also Hinana always refused if treated. The two's gaze was sidetracked when they saw Ren starting to come.

"Ohayou mina-san. (good morning everyone)." said Ren and everyone in the office replied.

Hinana looked at Ren with a sad look, hoping that what Ren said yesterday was a dream or nonsense. He is not willing if people who have been considered snow flowers will die.

"Stop looking at me like that Hinana, I hate her. You're the one who made me forget a little about death. But if you look at me like that, it's like I'm dead now." Inner Ren.

The two eyes still met each other, until Ren lowered his head and entered his room. Hinana was still standing glued. He still hasn't completely let go of what happened.