Snow In December
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for now I feel sorry for conveying my feelings to her. My liking for him was clapping one hand. Maybe I shouldn't have opened my heart so quickly, now I don't know what I have to do with this feeling.(Hinana arizawa's

Hinana looks at the cherry blossoms that are still budding, she goes to work and walks while feeling the warmth of spring.

"ohayou.." said Hinana to the office colleague and they all replied back. Then Hinana started her activities again.

"ohayou Hinana." said Arumi who had just arrived, indeed their workroom was now next to each other. So inevitably Hinana cannot avoid Ren completely.

"eh ohayou, you're early."

"of course, I have to clean the place first."

"you've never changed Arumi, you're so diligent."

"that's because there's nothing I do at home. I'm alone it feels so lonely so I better get off to work early. Hinana, I'm going to my room." Arumi stopped the conversation with Hinana and went into the next room.

Hinana returned to her computer, soon after she heard the voices of her friends who had started to arrive. He also sees Ren leaving with Tsubaki.

"good morning Hinana." said Tsubaki and Hinana replied with a nod. He sees Ren approaching his desk while Tsubaki is gone.

"Hinana, can we talk for a while" said Ren and was sitting in front of him.

"you don't see that I'm busy" Hinana replied in a cold manner.

"i know, just for a second. I also have a little time. I'm waiting for you at the rooftop." Ren then goes to the rooftop. While Hinana was still thinking about whether she should obey Ren's words or not.

Honestly, Hinana still wants to be close to her friends. With them, he could forget his past. But he also felt that life was becoming empty because he did not know its true purpose. He felt jealous because his friends could pursue his dreams while he did not.

"well what you want to say." Hinana has arrived at the rooftop and sees Ren waiting for her.

"Hinana look at it like some cherry blossoms have started blooming." Ren still looked towards the cherry blossoms without turning around.

"yes I know. No need to say it again quickly."

"you avoiding me?" asked Ren and slowly approached towards Hinana.

"no, what for?"

"but you look like you're avoiding me. With your exit from Tokyo Summer, you didn't even give a good reason."

"i told you that I don't have any skills that it's not satisfied enough." Hinana clasped her hand so as not to cry. He hated it when someone saw him as weak.

"if that's the reason then come back, friends need you."

"no, they can do it without me" said Hinana and left.

"what I'm guessing is, you purposely avoided me."

"you're the one who got away from me." shouted Hinana. "you suddenly asked me out on a date and left me. You're like hiding something from me."

"really? I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I was sick. Then forget if we ever dated. Forget if I ever take you."

"HUH." Hinana felt surprised by Ren's words. How could Ren say something so cruel to Hinana.

"alright you can go, that's all I want to say."

"wait a minute what do you mean, Forget it?" Hinana was approaching Ren.

"hem, forget if I ever asked you out."

"why?"

"i don't think that's important, isn't that why you went to Hokkaido to escape the pain? If you start with me, then you'll feel even worse pain. So forget it." said Ren and endured the pain he had been in. There was no sound of Ren's bracelet because he accidentally took it off. "Oh yeah, do you want to hug me for the last one?" ren and Hinana did not answer.

But Ren's face looked very flat and there was not a single smile. Did Ren really say this to her?.

Hinana gave up, now her tears can't stand anymore. He leaves Ren and leaves work. It's really painful for him. How could Ren have so easily told her to forget her first date.

"uh isn't that Hinana?" ask Emi who saw Hinana running.

"yes, what's wrong with him? Is he coming home? Isn't it still work hours?" reply Arumi.

"what happened to her?" Emi asked Tsubaki.

"i'll approach her for a minute." Tsubaki thoughtlessly ran straight over to Hinana. But Tsubaki is less fast, because Hinana drives her car very fast.

Meanwhile, Hinana was still driving with a state of anger and sadness.

"BAKA Ren's. I really hate you." said Hinana who still drives. Her tears could not stop to drip.

Hinana stops at Furano park, she sees cherry blossoms blooming. A beautiful view but not with his heart. His heart was completely broken this time.

"BAKA HINANA.." she yelled cursing herself and her cries could not stop.

He picked up the cherry blossoms that fell in the wind, Hinana remembered that he and Ren had been in this place. It felt like it was only yesterday but now those memories were like evil to him.

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"Gomennasai" said Hinana and bowed to Jouji. Yesterday he left work and the next day he inevitably had to go back to work.

"i'm sorry, but don't repeat. Now the lead is me, you understand Miss Hinana."

"Good."

" get back to work!"

"well, thank you." Hinana then walked out of Mr. Jouji's room and walked to his desk.

"are you okay, Miss Hinana? " ask Ariko his junior.

"hem, sir Jouji forgave me. Atigatou Ariko finished my work yesterday."

"no problem, as friends should help each other instead" Ariko replied while hugging Hinana and Hinana reciprocated.

Then shortly afterwards Ren came and all his employees saluted. Hinana who saw him chose to immediately sit at his desk. Ren just looked down to return the good morning of it all. He walked straight into his room and did not look at Hinana at all. That was what made Hinana the most upset.

"Hinana and did something happen to you?" ask Ariko.

"no, let's get back to work."

"alright, oh yeah Hinana. Yesterday after you left, there was an accident, said Mr. Ren, who fell down the stairs. But now seeing her back didn't seem like anything serious happened to her."

"really?" ariko's words surprised Hinana. Hinana thought about whether Ren was chasing after her then?.

"hem, you were talking to him at the time, right?"

"uh.. Yes but it's just a matter of work." replied Hinana flatly.

"all right we continue working, it will not be finished if we continue to chat" said Ariko and the two threw laughter at each other.

Although Ariko always helps her but Hinana still misses her other friends. But it's okay, maybe after the completion of the Tokyo Summer festival he can go back to work with his friends first.

Arico