Snow In December
47

For a moment everyone in the room fell silent and tried to agree to Hinana's decision. Emi approaches Hinana and hugs her even though Hinana knows nothing about design, but the presence of Hinana makes Emi feel helped.

"well that's all I said, I'm sorry." continued Hinana then carried her bag and walked out of the room.

"Hinana.." call Ren and Hinana ."thanks for the cooperation."

Hinana did not answer any of Ren's words, she put her feet away. Not healed enough wounds yesterday and now he feels pain again because he met with Alice.

From the window Ren saw Hinana leaving by wiping her tears. Actually he did not have the heart, but Ren also did not want to make Hinana hope for him. What Shota said was true if he died what Hinana would be like.

Hinana took the busway and stopped at the shopping center, actually she had an appointment with Shota at 7 p.m. But because of his bad mood he immediately met Shota who was still in his working hours.

"hey what is it that your face looks tangled." asked Shota when she saw Hinana sitting on the chair by the window.

"i'm lazy to talk about it, just give me food that makes my mood good." replied Hinana indifferently.

"Wakatta." Shota understood Hinana's intentions, he did not think long and then moved away from before Hinana.

Hinana opens her phone and sees Koizumi's team group, and Tsubaki sends a picture of them. Of course with Alice too, Hinana sees Ren smiling broadly by embracing Alice's body. For a moment Hinana began to think about completely getting away from Ren's life.

"this is your food, miss." Shota brought some dishes and deserts even though Hinana had not ordered them.

"i haven't ordered anything yet, why are you bringing me food?" hinana asked and drank the soft drink in front of her.

"you said it was up to me. Eat quickly, then say what you want to say."

"what if my money isn't enough to pay for all this?" hinana asked and her eyes looked at the dishes.

"that's an easy thing. Maybe you'll be held back by the restaurant's manager and tell you to wash the dishes" Shota jokingly said, and Hinana laughed. At least with Shota can make his heartache gradually disappear.

After discussing his plans with Shota, Hinana decides to go to Niseko before returning home. Even though the winter is over, the place to play ice skating is still open.

He walked to feel the warmth of spring and the trees were crowded in the leaves. Even the flowers on the street look blooming.

Suddenly, Hinana's steps came to a halt when she caught a familiar figure. A man wearing a thick white coat was sitting on a long chair, who else if not Ren. His eyes seemed to get towards the ice skating playground, then Hinana also saw Ren's right heart wiping her own tears.

" is what I see real? Is that really her tears? This is the second time I've seen Ren grieving. Should I approach her?" . Hinana's voice in her heart. Then Hinana's phone rang she immediately moved away and received a call.

"Ne moshi-moshi (allo)."

"Hinana san, it's me Naomi."

"Ah you apparently, how are you? Have you returned from Tokyo."

"tomorrow I'll be back. Hinana san, I'm really grateful. If you don't clean me up then I'll regret it for the rest of my life. Arigatou Hinana san."

"Doitashimashite (same-same). How's Keiko doing?"

"he's getting more stable, actually I want to accompany Keiko to the hospital. But in a week I have a university exam."

"Ganbatte yo." Hinana gasped with encouragement to Naomi, then ended her call.

As Hinana was about to step away she heard a footstep slowly approaching her, Hinana looked back.

"why are you here?" asked Hinana sarcastically.

"as soon as I saw you, I doubted whether it was you or not. So I followed you, turns out it was you. What are you doing here, isn't winter over?" Ren looked at Hinana with his gray eyes that felt soothing.

"it's none of your business." Hinana tries to be assertive for herself. Because I don't want to expect too much from Ren.

"Sokka (oh so). Oh yeah can you give this to Shota?" Ren gives a digital camera that is still in his disbok.

"don't want to, just give it yourself."

"i wanted to give it to myself, but Shota must have rejected it."

"why? Isn't hers broken, so Shota should be happy to get it." Hinana then sits on a chair near the cherry tree, and Ren follows her.

"you know that Shota is a hard-working person, so he may freely accept. So give it to her, she definitely won't refuse." Ren continued to thrust the box at Hinana.

Hinana recalled the conversation earlier this afternoon with Shota.

"you can be the photographer." said Hinana while scorching her sweet desert.

"but I can, I don't have a camera."

" uh, then where's your camera."

"it-u was broken, I accidentally fell so the camera fell and broke" Shota replied stammeringly. "but you don't have to worry, there's still time I'll try to fix it again. But I can't promise." Shota continued.

"Yokatta (thank God) I believe you."

" just give it yourself, I'm sure Shota will take it. Besides, I don't want to be in touch with your people either."

"meaning?" Ren wondered what it meant for Hinana not to want to relate to her people.

" about me saying I like you, you better forget it. I also don't want to interfere with matters related to you. I don't want to like anyone else, I want to love myself. So goodbye." said Hinana and walked past Ren.

Hearing the words that came out of Hinana's mouth, distribute the right arrow to Ren's heart. He stood sculpting and his chest felt tight, accompanied by a voice from his smartband that sounded.

His eyes suddenly became blurred and saw everything go dark. Eventually, Ren falls to the ground.

" someone help me." said Ren softly and closed his eyes.

...************...

Just when Ren fell, Hinana was already in her room. He still can't sleep when it's 2 in the morning. His mind still feels full.

I said it. Why do I feel that sadness. Argggh it feels like my brain is completely damaged.

Hinana still regretted having said that to Ren. His eyes that had been swollen from earlier could no longer block the water droplets that came out. He sat down hugging his knee and felt the wound this time really hurt.

Ittai (sick) ittai yo (so sick) I shouldn't be this stupid. Why I've never been smooth to love someone.

Hinana said her eyes were looking at the dark night sky. He began to lean his head against the corner of the bed and began to close his eyes.