Snow In December
38

It took me five years to prepare myself, but only this time did I really feel like staying.

I began to feel afraid, if one day I really disappeared from this world.

But I can't lie either, if I'm happy right now. I want to see you once again that's all I've ever said in my heart. Because I don't know when I'll be gone. Again, as long as I am in this world. God give me a miracle if it really exists. (Kozumi Ren.)

Hinana clasped her hand tightly and occasionally looked at her face. Although there has been no answer from Ren, but he also sees that Ren has the same feelings as him.

"why do you keep looking at me?" tanya Ren looked towards Hinana with her sweet smile.

"it's okay." replied Hinana shyly and walked to enjoy the view of the cherry trees, even though there were no flowers yet.

They both walked to Ren's house. It was deliberately this time Hinana drove Ren home, because she did not want to get lost while riding the busway.

"Hinana, next Saturday, do you want to date

with me?" when he got home.

"hem." replied Hinana with a sparkling face.

"then I'll pick you up, go home be careful Hinana."

"yes, you go in first."

"no, I want to take you to the stop."

"i can go home alone Ren, this time let me drive you."

"isit. All right, I'm not going in until you're gone."

"emm okay, see you, Ren." said Hinana and walked away.

"me see you too, Hinana."

"don't forget to pick me up tomorrow."

" of course."

"Bad Ren.. You're sick." While walking away still Hinana said goodbye to Ren, until finally he hit the pole.

" hey watch your way." Ren chuckled at Hinana's behavior.

"bye-bye Ren." Hinana did not care about Ren's words, she still waved her hand until she entered the busway.

Arriving at Hinana's apartment not wanting to do anything, she chose to sleep without changing her clothes. He wants the morning to come.

...*************...

"i've copied this paper for all of you." Hinana took out a stack of files from her bag.

"what is Hinana?" ask Arumi and take one of them.

"you read everything. I'll explain, this festival will judge our work from scratch. So it will be in Shoot starting from the manufacturing process to completion."

"HAAHHH." Everyone was shocked.

"you're surprised? Me too, so we have to prepare. We will also see the review impressions of other participants."

"so we're going to go on TV" Tsubaki said.

"when I have to do a pedicure, maybe there are producers who are interested in me and make me an artist" Arumi said.

"hey Arumi I agree with you. Maybe you'll be a figurehead." Tsubaki's goddamn.

"Hinine... You're a bitch." cried Arumi.

"if everyone's on Shoot and it's on air, are you okay?" Ren said, taking a paper at the desk. Hinana was silent and could not answer.

"iya Hinana, you used to be a model and your face is no stranger to the public. They'll talk about you." Emi said.

Honestly, Hinana hasn't thought much about it. And Emi's words made her realize that Hinana could not hide anymore.

"it doesn't matter, I'm not a model now either." replied Hinana although she was also worried.

"is it really okay Hinana?" ask Tsubaki.

"hem, now we do our best. Alright we start the work." replied Hinana despite the concern in her heart, and they all started working on making clothes. Ren noticed from a distance that Hinana was actually worried about it.

"Hinana, please make lunch" Tsubaki said after lunch.

"Huh me?"

"all right I'm going to the kitchen." angrily Hinana walks into Tsubaki's kitchen. Hinana felt like she was really bad at not being able to do anything.

" excuse me. I told Tsubaki-san to make some food" Hinana said gently as she saw a girl in the kitchen.

" Hinana-san."

"eh Naomi, are you Naomi Keiko's friend?"

"hem I can't believe you're in my house. What are you doing here?"

"i have to make some food, to eat."

" ah apparently you're Tsubaki's friend. All right please cook, oh yeah all the ingredients are in the fridge."

" em thank you. All right, what should I do this time." muttered Hinana while thinking. Because Hinana can't make any food but tarts.

"How about you make okonomiyaki, it happens that in the refrigerator there are many eggs." Naomi said.

"good idea, but I don't know how to make it."

"do I have to help you?."

"do you really want to help?." asked Hinana and then Naomi approached him immediately preparing all the ingredients.

" thank you so much Naomi-chan. You're not only beautiful but also very good."

" you're so adoring me. Hinana-san please cut the beef."

" good chef." said Hinana with the chandelier.

It's been almost two years since Hinana felt the warmth of being friends. And now thanks to Ren he dared to start again. Hinana recalled the time Ren said something to her while in her office yard.

"" Hey Hinana, not everyone cares about you. But not everyone is lying to you. This life does not promise anything white, but not all unsuccessful things are black. There's a gray color, a thing you think is wrong but not completely" Ren said, treating Hinana's arm for wounds.

"""I don't know what you mean." Hinana is unable to move because Ren is holding her hand very firmly.

""" all life has hope."

""" I've lost hope, I don't even have any hope."

""" if you lose hope then make it." said Ren then left after finishing treating Hinana's wounds.

Ren's remarks made him confident again, and Hinana dared to start her life after the incident.

" haik is done" Naomi said after sprinkling katsuobosi on the dish.

"hemm oishi ne. Thank you Naomi-chan."

"that's the easy thing for me."

"you're great, you're good at cooking. I remember Keiko, she made me food every day" Hinana said praising Naomi.

"actually Keiko taught me."

"eh really? Then you two can join the cooking competition."

"it's impossible for us" Naomi said softly but Hinana could still hear it.

"why impossible? I hear you two are best friends, and you have the same hobbies as well." Hinana's leisurely tasting Naomi's cooking.

"it's true, but it was before I broke off my friendship with her" Naomi said, filled with regret.

Hinana who heard Naomi's confession was also very surprised, because Keiko always displayed a photo of Naomi with her in the room. Not only that, Keiko also often recounted her days with Naomi.

"why?" ask Hinana carefully.

" he started it, Keiko-chan kept something from me. We made a promise that there was no secret between us. Did Keiko ever say anything to you?" Naomi asked Hinana with her tears in her eyes.

" hem. But, I don't think Keiko wants to hurt you."

"if he likes it first why not just say it? Is it because of me?"

" Naomi-chan is also very valuable, that's what Keiko said. Hey Naomi, even your feelings are more important to Keiko. It's okay for Keiko to leave that man, as long as it doesn't hurt you. That's what Keiko said." Hinana said everything Keiko had told her.

Hearing all that Naomi's cries finally broke. Actually when saying all that Hinana also held back her tears, because it was very hard to release the loved ones for the sake of friendship.

" it's okay Naomi. Keiko-chan is still expecting you. You need to call her." Hinana hugged Naomi and calmed her down.