Rania
88.Calling Mama

Gunawan once told Nella. If he can't live with it. Nella can leave him. Because Gunawan does not want to hurt Nella's heart with his love that claps one hand. She also wants Nella to live happily. She can give apapum to Nella but not to her heart.

But Nella refused. He felt that being near Gunawan was his happiness. Nella's love does not demand Gunawan to love her. As long as Gunawan treats him well he will survive. And continue to provide support for Gunawan.

When Nella finds out what's in Gunawan's room. Gunawan said that Nella does not feel at home because there are memories of his ex-wife. They can move to a new home. But Nella refuses other than no problem with any of it. Nor does Nella want to leave Wiratmaja alone again.

Because he has started to accept Gunawan like that. Nella even had people clean the room every month. He only sees Gunawan happy. He believes one day either Gunawan will put him in his heart.

But Nella's wishful thinking is only wishful thinking. After two years of marriage, she was unable to conceive. Nella feels her world is destroyed. He felt bad for not being able to give children to Gunawan. Though he hopes with them to have children Gunawan can open his heart. At least for their children.

In such a broken heart. Nella wants to separate from Gunawan. But Gunawan does not want to let go of Nella because of the reason Nella separated. He can't give Gunawan a son. But Gunawan doesn't care about him being able to give a child or not. She'll accept Nella whatever her condition is.

Finally Nella decided to stay by Gunawan's side even without love from him. Nella feels her love for Gunawan is unconditional. Sincere from the heart.

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Rania is silent to Nella's story. He felt sorry for the middle-aged woman sitting beside him. He can even smile to tell it. For some women it is a very painful thing.

''Why can aunty be this fresh. Living with a man whose heart is not for aunts? What is aunt's heart made of?'' ask Rania sadly.

''Actually the core of the aunt told me this is not that son'' said Nella softly

''Trus?'' ask Rania. Nella looked around the room.

'' So that you may know that your father never forgets your mother for a second. This is one proof. He's still keeping your memories. If he's really angry with your mother, maybe none of this. When your father misses him he will come to this room. Sometimes he'll do it here. Only aunt knows all that. He also often visited the tomb of the person who is considered your mother. Even though he said every time he went there he did not feel that the buried was your mother.

''Aunt and Mother both suffer. If you have love but not the person. But aunt has her man but not her love'' said Rania she hugged Nella. Her tears could not be held back when she saw Nella's tough face all along.

''Auntie never blamed your father. Because he's not the one who brought aunty into his life. But the aunt herself wanted to get into her life. Your father was loyal just like your grandfather. Aunty knows how hard it is to forget the people we love. Now aunt has no parents anymore. Aunty only has your father and grandfather as a family. Even if your father doesn't love auntie. But God still loves you just as much as bringing you into our lives. So that aunty can know what it's like to have children said Nella. Rania's tears came out. He couldn't hold tight in his chest. Nella loved him so much. Was he too stubborn all along.

''Your father did not forget you. He just doesn't know that your mother is alive and you are. If he knew for sure he'd be looking for you guys until he met. From aunty married until now he never said that your mother was having an affair. Aunt only heard the story from Nita. He told me everything that happened. When your father came home from Bandung knowing you and your mother would not forgive him. And how guilty he felt for himself with your suffering all this time. He did not want to leave the room for a week. He lamented his regrets in the room. Aunt was sad to see it. It was like seeing him in the hospital first. His life came back empty. Only after your grandfather told you to go to Jakarta did he get excited again, explained Nella.

''Aunt just wishes you could accept him as a whole father after this. Aunty could not bear to see her sadness every night. Only because of his words when his emotions get all the rewards during this time. According to aunt all just misunderstood. And the person who made all this happen will definitely get a reply, Nella said.

''Yes tan'' replied Rania. He let go of his embrace.

''You are indeed very similar to Retno when young. You are both beautiful. Inside the closet are still some of your clothes. Do you want to see?'' ask Nella.

''Yes'' said Rania as she stood opening the closet. There are some clothes that are worn but still maintained. Dress when young.

''Said your father they lived here for only a week after getting married. Then they moved to a new house that was now burning. So your dress is not much. And the memories of your mother are just this that your father had. Yesterday when you wanted to stay here we planned to make this your room. But because you still can't climb the stairs at that time. Forced your room downstairs first, explained Nella. Rania closed her closet again.

''Is aunty really okay with all this?'' ask Rania.

''No, aunt is used to all this. At the age of such a aunt for especially jealous aunt. Now the aunt just wants to spend time with you, Nella replied smiling.

''If so, this room should remain like this. Rania feels able to release the same longing mother if she is here. Am I being too selfish with this request tan?'' rania asked while shedding tears. He spoke while sobbing.

''No dear, you are not selfish. You deserve that. Aunty is happy that all this can treat the same longing for your mother, said Nella.

''Thanks, the second aunt that Rania considers as a substitute mother. Can Rania call a aunt with mama?'' rania said, crying at Nella's answer.

''By honey, auntie is very happy if you call aunt mama'' said Nella crying while hugging Rania.

''Mama'' said Rania.

They hugged while crying. It cannot be described how Nella feels right now. He's very happy.

''Thank you, you made me a mother, said Nella Parau.