My Love Journey's
About Student Loan

Exerting every brain cell in my head to concentrate on my work in the hospital was the only thing that made me at least able to maintain my sanity at the moment. I worked like crazy to get Paul out of my head.

All sorts of questions about her piled up in my mind to this day. Why would he do that to me? Of course, I knew he was thinking about my situation if we continued together, but now it felt even more painful, especially after seeing him leave me. Without saying anything.

The point is, our relationship is really over. I hope it's the best decision for both of us.

If I could just forget all the complexity in Paul and me, I honestly feel happiness when I'm with him, and it feels a little strange considering I would no longer be able to get that kind of happiness. I've fallen too deep for him, for me he's like a house where I want to go home and feel at ease in it.

Well, the time that will treat all the pain I feel, I believe it.

"Hey, Bee..." Stacey greeted me and hugged me as soon as I arrived at the table she had booked for us, in a small restaurant not far from the hospital.

I hugged her back, grateful to understand that lunch with Stacey was the only thing I needed right now. There will be so much laughter tucking in between the chatter. "Hey..."

I haven't told anything about Paul to any of my other friends. But Stacey, as always, she was always the first person I looked up to whenever I needed a sharing friend. So, he already knows about my relationship with Paul. He also knew Paul left me over a week ago.

Stacey gave me one smile that implied support once our embrace was released. "You look amazing" he said.

I let out a small laugh while tucking my hair child behind my ear, then we sat down opposite.

"Oh, yes, I've ordered food for us." she snored lightly. "How was your day? Fun or sickening?"

"Well, everything's going normal. Dr. Grey is sick, so I went around checking on the patient with Travis. I have to admit, he's a lovely friend." I muttered to him with a gentle smile.

"You and Travis? Is there something between you, or?.." guess Stacey, making me laugh and shaking my head.

"No, say. I'm not interested in a relationship with anyone now, it's better to focus on my studies and work." I'm honest, that's what I had in mind.

"Good, I support you."

We had a casual conversation and I'm grateful Stacey didn't ask me anything about Paul. I told you, he understands my feelings better than anyone.

The one thing I just found out is that Stacey is officially in a relationship with Elise. It made me happy, hearing her talk about their relationship was a most efficacious diversion for me.

After finishing lunch, she went to the toilet while I ordered coffee for the two of us. Then, suddenly my phone vibrated on the table.

From: Valerie: Hey! Do you mind if I stay at your house tonight? xx

To: Valerie: Absolutely not. Wait, you're okay, right?

From: Valerie: Yes. We haven't seen each other since Russia. I miss you :) x

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"Paul confided to Carl, and Carl told me everything." Valerie explained slowly as our chat landed on the third wine glass.

"Oh. Uhm... Val, I really appreciate your intention to cheer me up and make me feel better, but I really don't want to talk about Paul." I muttered deliberately tucking in a tone pleading for him to understand.

Valerie nodded in understanding as she raised the corner of her lips. "Alright, I understand" he said.

He disappeared from circulation again. There's no news about it. Many people are curious and wonder what made him hide for too long. Various speculations have sprung up in the media, but no answer comes close to the truth.

I also heard Paul was back in training with his club after the World Cup.

I had played a random and casual playlist in the spotify shuffle to accompany our chat, then a sweet Chris Martin voice echoed through the loudspeakers in my house.

"Do you like Coldplay?" valerie asked as the song 'A Sky Full Of Stars' entered its first refrain.

"I love Coldplay," I replied with a grin, enjoying the sudden bright change in her expression.

"Me too!"

The next few hours, after finishing the glass of wine, Valerie and I were already lying on my bed. I've been feeling lonely since my relationship with Paul ended, so whether Valerie is conscious or not, but her presence is quite happy for me. Of course I still have Frosty, but there's no way I'm going to ask him to chat over wine. Uh!

I glanced at the wall clock that showed the number three in the morning, then I saw Valerie who had been sleeping next to me since then while my eyes were still fresh. Then I decided to go down for a glass of warm milk and take my laptop with me.

I threw my ass at one of the chairs on the kitchen table, then opened the student loan website. I already paid the installment yesterday and was about to check how much loan I had to repay. While waiting for the site to open, I poured milk into a glass. The only source of illumination in my kitchen was the light from my laptop screen.

I froze until I realized the glass had slid out of my hand and hit the floor, making a very loud clinking sound as I watched the screen of my laptop closely.

I read one sentence 'You don't have a loan at the moment'.

I spent ten minutes refreshing my loan page. When I realized that I really did not have any more loans, I stepped through the glass and milk that were scattered on the floor and ran up the stairs to wake Valerie up.

Unfortunately for Valerie, she had to help me clean up the mess I made by accident. Then he sat down and watched my laptop screen. "I'm sure there's something wrong with this. My loan is still very much, I just paid it a few times, Val.

"It's about money, Bianka. There's no way they're doing anything wrong" Valerie said, "It's written you've paid everything off in one payment. Two days ago."

"No way..." I really can't believe this. I stepped beside Valerie and she showed me what she read to me. "No, this must be wrong. I have to call the bank."

"Now? You insane? Which bank opens in the morning blind like this?" He yawned and turned towards me.

I felt sad because I disturbed his sleep. "I'm sorry I woke you up. Now, go back upstairs and continue with your severed dreams." I muttered, slightly joking.

He chuckles. "Are you sure?" ask her with a tired tone.

While thinking of the one possibility that flashed through my mind, I nodded. "Yes, yeah. Thank you for helping me."

"Ah, that's nothing. You have to sleep too, so don't stay here too long, okay? I love you, good night."

"Good night."

When Valerie disappeared from my sight, I grabbed my phone and texted the only person I could accuse of this.

To: Paul: What are you doing to me, Goddamn guy?!