LIFE (Han, Ian, Dina, Ute & Pras)
Ep. 9 Rejection (Han & Ute)
...~ HAN ~...
After Wasana Praja, I just felt that there was something lacking in my life.. But come to think of it, all the needs and what a young man wants to have are already with me.
Handsome face, intelligent brain, athletic body and large pouch (thanks to the shipment of amang/father who is again good harvest of palm, rubber, durian and mangosteen in his village there).. Living Narcissism.;p.
But recently I felt a sense of lack that demanded fulfillment, especially when seeing how happy his friends who came home from a cruise with their respective lovers.
He also wanted to feel it, not because of envy or jealousy in the happiness of his friends, but rather the feeling of emptiness and loneliness that began to eat away at his heart.
If only I were a proud and easy-going person, I would be able to easily use my fan club to rotate the girls to go on a cruise with me.
But it does not feel this pleasant.
Since the beginning of the fan club was formed I have rejected it, I feel not a celebrity who needs the support of fans to still be able to exis. Hence, every fan of my club is making an event and inviting my presence, as much as possible I refused and made a thousand and one excuses for not being present.
I need to feel what it is to fall in love in the real sense.
I prayed to God to let me feel it.
Feel that thump.. Tasting the unstoppable desire to be a real man, protecting and loving a woman who needs me. Being a knight-looking love slave..
My prayers were answered immediately, albeit with 2 choices that were both interesting and confusing. I was met with 2 women who can thrill and warm this heart. somehow and how, my heart felt bubbling faster just by thinking about the figure of both.
I felt that Dina and Ute caught my attention and was the answer to my prayers. I believe God is never a fad, so when I ask it will certainly be given Him.
Before choosing, I should get to know both of them personally first. Is it the mysterious and challenging Dina or the cheerful and spoiled Ute?
Pucuk dikinta ulam arrive. I already had a chance to make an appointment with the quiet Dina, now I will try to approach the blunt-looking Ute. Maybe not through someone else, but with a direct approach? Hm...
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That afternoon, I was walking alone from the Menza Post to return to the guesthouse, I saw the line of Young Praja moving towards the top, I saw the line, ‘maybe after the lesson in class they continue the training in the training ground above.’ my inner self while stopping the step, paying more careful attention to the line.
Once the lyrics alone, one of the figures who had stolen my attention some time lately has been clearly seen, the line in the front position, flanked by 2 other young people.
"Good day ka.." Danton, who was none other than Ian, greeted while giving ppm as his line approached my standing location.
"Siang.. Please stop your troops" I replied quickly after replying ppm with a short nod.
"Stop grak!" Ian also gave a warning to the troops he led.
"Danton to the rear of the army, the troops rested" I ordered as I walked away from the rear of the line.
"Ready ka. rest in the grak spot!" ian answered aloud and immediately ran to line up Han's steps.
"You're okay, aren't you de'?" ask me then when we're facing.
"Ready ka, well ka. thanks.." replied Ian aga surprised by the simple question I threw. Perhaps he felt unusual about my concern, a senior who was notoriously firm and indifferent to his juniors.
"Good.. Where are you going?" I asked back.
"Ready ka, now our classroom land training hours. It's heading to the above land training lab".he replied again, while looking to guess what exactly I meant to stop the movement of his troops.
After a moment of hesitation, I finally said: "Please continue your journey. Please, his name is Ute out of line and face me."
"Sorry, this is training time, I'm afraid it will be too late" Ian replied as if realizing what he meant, his friend Ute..
'Damn, this young man is smart as well' My inner self is a bit coxed.
"Yes, you guys please just continue the road, just Ute who lives in the place." Without hesitation I showed annoyance that Ian seemed to start bidding for orders and obstructing my desires.
"Ready ka, but please don't hold Ute for long, could be dangerous if he is late in class, our coach today Mr Bidin" finally Ian self-conscious as a junior, but it is quite brave because it reminded me of how famous the killer of their coach today.
Ian immediately returned to his squad after giving ppm.
"Ready grak.. Young Praja Ute please get out of line. Front bolt of the grak!" Ian gave me a cue.
After Ute exited the army with a confused face and the young king behind Ute advanced to the position of Ute before, as well as the personnel behind him, the troops seemed to have been neatly returned, Ian also gave a warning: "Upright grak.. Move forward."
The troops walked back to leave Ute who still did not understand why he was removed from the line.
"Good day de Ute" said I from behind Ute's body that looked shocked and confused.
Ute stuttered in reply: "Good day ka.." with a face still confused.
'Maybe he didn't think there was Wasana Praja as brave as I smiled at him' My mind again, back a little narcissistic.
"Sorry you, I have to go to land training immediately, permission to join our class ranks again!" Ute back to the.
'Damn, why do beautiful girls always sell expensive?' I went back in silence, then immediately realized "Ehm, walk with me, I'll take you upstairs.."
"Ready ka" Ute replied later while glancing at her signboard.
"When don't you know me on deck?" with a slightly disappointed feeling the sentence involuntarily popped out.
"Ready ka'Han, I am indeed a sling, long lapping forget.. hehehe.." replied Ute without guilt, while covering her mouth holding a laugh.
"What's the big deal at the menza table?" I asked again, feeling a little amused by Ute's jokes and somehow feeling happy just because I heard my name coming out of those tiny lips.
"A very big problem ka.. makes me a junior call in rotation to the senior guesthouse" said Ute again.
"Will sadness take away the root of the problem?" replied Ute while glancing boldly at me, this time it seemed a change in the look of that beautiful face, from a smile to a sad mixed curiosity.
I looked at her beautiful face for a long time, we also had a moment to look at it. The eyeballs were beautiful.but Ute looked unperturbed and instead turned his eyes back to the front, and looked back, the line of classmates began to be far away from us. We did walk slowly compared to the row steps.
After we were silent for a while, I went back to saying: "Who are the seniors who often ngisengin you?" my need to protect started to get distracted.
"Senior-senior who can't see his junior doesn't feel depressed. Almost all of them don't." replied Ute after seeming speechless thinking for a while.
"Is there anything I can help the deck?" ask me with a forward-looking view. I saw that beautiful face staring at my face.
"There is a ka." he said softly.
Looking back, I asked: "What?"
"By letting me stay in line." he said with a big smile: "It's been imagined how many questions and calls I'll receive by just walking next to the ka'Han like this"
'What irony, he said the potential problem with a face still full of smiles, as if all just a joke for him' my inner heart was confused but increasingly feeling interested.
"You can meet me whenever you feel like you need help or protection. I guarantee I will protect you as much as I can." I said unknowingly.
Ute looked silent and stopped her steps.
When I turned towards him in silence, he smiled back and stepped his feet again, then said: "Ka'Han is a good senior, so be it, if you can go to all your juniors, don't just go to me, so there's no misunderstanding.."
Glek, this spit was accidentally swallowed as my heart rate grew stronger.. 'That smile is so sweet (sweeter than the sweet test made by omak), no matter how touched I am by the sentence of his insinuation, can not be long annoyed with the owner of the smile' my inner self again.
I took his hand as he walked beside me, we faced each other, and I said with all my heart: "So that there is no misunderstanding, I am indeed attracted to you, I don't feel this sense of protection to other juniors, only to you.. Is that wrong?"
We were silent while looking at him for a while.
"Sorry ka, I don't feel the same way" replied Ute Lirih, looking puffy as she pulled her hand and lowered her head, no more smiles on that pretty face.
"Do you have a boyfriend?" I was stiff, offended and could not resist the bitter taste of this rejection.
"Does having a girlfriend mean being in love with the opposite sex? Comfortable and want to be together? Happy, love and love him? Iyah ka, I already have it" replied Ute looking heartless.
"Who is he? Praja too? Is he better than me? Can he protect you?" I said furiously, my emotions peaking without being held back.
Pointing his head back up, Ute replied firmly: "Yes ka, otherwise I might have chosen it right?"
This face felt increasingly hard stiffened and shrouded in grief and anger. But Ute's eyes still dared to challenge my burning hot eyes.
"If I may follow the line of my friends" he said again, bowing his head a little, looking sorry, perhaps seeing my darkened face, perhaps he began to fear me.
I felt as if there was a powerful thunderbolt covered in thick black clouds in the midst of this blistering sunny weather. Disappointed, angry, sad, embarrassed, disappointed again and angry again who approached wrath alternately clutching this chest, as if to blow it up.
"Go away." I said at last, looking for a moment at the figure of Ute who gave ppm and immediately ran without waiting for a reply ppm from me, he was seen approaching the troops of his friends who were already far away from us, he was seen approaching, get into the rows on the empty back.
I look around me. It looks like no one, but why is the immense shame enveloping this self. The confidence I had seemed to be slammed into the deepest hole of the earth, lost without a trace? Be ill..
Falling in Love.My prayers are answered again, I feel falling in love with the real meaning.fall where ever good, on this chest..
Valuable learning for me, for a Han..
In order to be even more careful in making requests to God, be very careful with what u wish 4. couse it just may happen. (translation: be careful with your expectations, because it might happen)
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...~ UTE ~...
'Aish.. What other problems will I face, suddenly a senior shot me in the middle of this road? Hadeuh will add runyam neh my life in this knight.' My mind while running away from the source of the problem.
In the distance seemed my classmates were almost at the courtyard of the training ground building. I immediately slipped myself into an empty rear position and a moment later Ian, the class danton today, appeared to stop the troops and disperse the troops to enter the training building.
In the midst of the difficulty remembering the faces of others (even their own faces like to forget if not often), the, for some reason Ute could always recognize Ian's figure and recognize the aura emanating from him, the forage's dark blue aura.
Since their first meeting at the PKD gate, that sad face was always easy to recognize, especially after it turned out we were in class. Not a day goes by without us together. Ian has become my protector and my solder.
The difficulty of living in this knight a little less burden when he could talk to him. I don't know why..
Many accused us of being a couple, but there was never any commitment between us. Ute only felt Ian could understand himself and accept what he was, not as a friend or girlfriend, but more as a soulmate, but somehow we can complement each other.comfortably can be with Ian..
"Hi.. What was that problem?" asked Ian to see me approach him.
"Biasalah, the fans have misfortune" I replied trying to fix the problem, trying not to involve Ian in this matter. It's pretty much the violence he bears when he hears the stories of his classmates.
"Don't give hope if you don't like it, there's no hurt that produces good.." Ian answered straightforwardly and briefly fell silent to see the frown on my face, not his words that made me frown, but that gushing aura, a hint of purpleness, like doubting me to solve my own problems.
"I'm sorry Mr. Danton, I never gave any hope to anyone, that's what drove me out of line, not the responsibility of even the victim!" I said with an increasingly sullen look and folded my hands while stepping into the training ground building. The schedule is until today we will learn how to make sweet soy sauce.
"Hey sorry princess, don't sulk ya. later I buy chocolate deh. peace ya.." said Ian again while showing his pinky finger a sign of wanting to make peace, again issued a distinctive blue-greenish aura that is calm and soothing.
"Okey, forgiven by the size of the big chocolate.." I said with a smile and linked my little finger with his finger in order to seal the chocolate handover agreement with our thumbs.
Buy chocolate of any size, even to buy the factories all of you is also really not a problem for me, 2 pieces of unlimited credit cards given by mama and papa, it is still well stored in the pocket of this wallet. My savings account book will also never run out even though it is often spent, well materially I have never lacked. but the small concerns of an Ian, who was able to cheer the day, was able to, why not use it as much as possible, right?
'Ian is indeed my best friend' inwardly again.
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