Broken Mind Eric's Diary
January 5th

More and more, every day that person named Haru looks familiar in my eyes.

Hoonie~

The more I see it, the more I miss you. How could there be such a person like you Hoonie.

Did you send it to me on purpose, so that I wouldn't feel lonely. You know, no one can replace you with my life.

But Haru seemed to have really been sent for me.

Today I was rude to him. I don't know exactly why I did it, which is clear he was very hurt by my words.

"Haru, can you stop?"

"Stop, what do you mean Eric?"

"Stop as if you were Younghoon!"

Haru furrowed his brows, it was obvious that he was disturbed by my words.

Maybe he has the exact same nature as you, but I'm the one who can't accept it.

Receiving her excellent treatment, considerate and gentle like you.

"Eric, don't you want me here. Are you bothered by my presence?"

I could only shut up when he asked like that. I was too confused to answer the question as to what.

He's been so kind to me, it's like you've been here for a few days, like he's been trying to replace you, and I'm not comfortable with that.

But on the other hand, I don't want him to leave.

"Alright, since you're silent I assume the answer is yes. I just want to be friends. But if you're uncomfortable with my presence, I won't come back to see you again."

Haru's words were like rusty spikes that were deliberately plugged into my chest, and hammered slowly. So hurt.

We just got to know each other, but somehow it feels like we've been friends for a long time. Then he left saying he wasn't coming back, I thought it hurt.

Haru don't go. I'm happy to be friends with you, but I just don't want you coming to replace Hoonie.

I wanted to say it, but my mouth was locked.

I could only see his back, which just passed by.

The regret continues to haunt me. If only I had prevented him from leaving and said my head. But it's too late, Haru won't be back.

With the condition of my feet that still feels sore, I even forced myself to go to the bar with my favorite red minibus.

Wish alcohol could calm my mind, and erase my regret. I sipped a few glasses, but the hole in this chest was getting bigger.

Sick of missing you, sick of being left behind by someone similar to you. The two holes in my chest now became one, and grew.

The longer my head felt heavier, my ears started buzzing.

Before losing consciousness, I saw the hand carrying me out of the bar. His fingers were very familiar with the black ring that coiled around his index finger.

A juyeon?

I wish so. If the one who took me away was Juyeon, then I would have slept loosely after getting drunk.

The next morning I woke up in an unfamiliar room with a warm retro accent.

"You awake?"

"Thank God you don't have a fever."

She smiles.

"Juyeon, my legs hurt a lot."

I whine at people who've been looking after me all night. My legs are getting swollen as a result of forcing myself to drive a car alone.

Soon someone came into the room.

"Haru?"

"This is Haru's house. I can't take you to Younghoon's house drunk. I'm afraid big angry Jihye's brother."

Juyeon tried to explain last night's situation. He couldn't take me to his house at 3 a.m.

Only Haru's house can accommodate drunk people like me.

"But why are you here?"

I'm still looking for answers, but Juyeon explained it at length.

It turned out that Haru was the one who searched for my whereabouts overnight, he asked Juyeon for help until he finally found me in a sprawling state, like a whale stranded in a bar.

Juyeon and Haru took me to the clinic to treat my swollen legs. Full of drama and shouting that ends with the installation of gypsum.

"Eric I'm so busy, there's a brother in my house. Next week, I have to go back to college."

I can just sit down and be quiet. Now it feels like Juyeon's attention is lacking on me. He was busy with his world, and forgot his little friend who needed this attention.

"It's okay Juyeon, I'll take care of Eric."

So Haru said in front of Juyeon.

I was surprised because the day before he said he would not come back to see me. But his words didn't match his actions, he looked for me, he took care of me and he saw me again.

After arriving at your house, Juyeon actually left. I couldn't believe it, he left me with Haru again.

"You look upset. But I'm sorry I didn't go, I have to take care of you until you get well."

Haru's sweet smile came back to piss me off.

"For you, Juyeon paid less attention to me."

"Just blame me. If it's gonna make me feel relieved."

"That's not what I mean!"

"Then what. Clearly, Juyeon entrusted you to me. But you turned me on?"

This time my feelings were mixed, between the pleasure of him coming back but the annoyance that Juyeon did not accompany me because there was Haru.

I'm really confused Hoonie...

Actually why should Haru be the one. He's always present every time I need someone, as if sent to replace you.

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