Broken Mind Eric's Diary
November Rain

Eric Sohn

They knew me by that name, but someone called me different and caught my attention.

That someone was the only person who could make me laugh, making me forget the loneliness of a child, who lived far away from his parents.

Hoonie~

As soon as I called him. I don't know why it feels so bad to show him my side. It's because he always makes me comfortable and warm when around him.

I have an older brother who is very far from me, it makes our relationship unlike a brother in general.

But when I met Hoonie, I felt like I was a real sister.

He also had a twin, but was called the Creator a few years ago. Hoonie said, I look a lot like her late twin, maybe that's one of the reasons she treated me like her sister.

"You have to be my friend! My name is Younghoon."

The first word he said, when we first met. It was when I became a new student in her class, what an unforgettable memory.

Unexpectedly, we got this close after that magic phrase came out of his mouth. Not just being his friend. I also got into the circle of his friendship with Hyunjae and Juyeon the delinquent.

At first they didn't want to accept me being by Hoonie's side, but she never gave up and always included me wherever they went.

I remember one day not going to karaoke to celebrate Juyeon's birthday. Suddenly Hyunjae came to my house and took me away, when he was the badmoodiest when I stuck to Hoonie.

But now it's different, we're very close. So close we dare to dismantle each other's secrets without feeling awkward, of course it's all thanks to the efforts of Hoonie, so that his friends get used to and accept me.

Over time, our friendship based on mutual trust has now become an extraordinary friendship. It was like a cypress family.

We reprimand each other when one makes trouble, of course harsh words and swear are always flavoring. But a few hours later, our naruli who was like this family got back together as if nothing had ever happened.

Among them, of course I was closer to Hoonie. We almost never cheated on each other, even though I once hurt her heart with this savage mouth of mine. Hoonie continued to forgive me, with a sweet smile drowning her eyes.

Everything I said above was one of the memories I had left in my mind, even I would not be able to forget for the rest of my life.

We are living in three this November. Me, Juyeon and Hyunjae.

The story of the four friends we wrote together is over. The wheel of human life that we describe is now shaky and unbalanced, because one of the wheels has stopped turning. And our life rate is slowing down.

Where's Younghoon?

The question seemed to be a sharp weapon that pierced into the heart. The wound that was slowly drying out reopened just because someone called his name.

One of the three of us, no one can answer that question. Not unwilling, but to just open the mouth it feels heavy and so stifling the chest.

We are tired of crying, because remembering it will never end. Even I was unconscious so washed away while diving into the memories of him.

"Eric, relax!"

Juyeon and Hyunjae's cries faintly rang out, as I cried as I could. In the end, they understood that Younghoon's departure traumatized me.

Just keep Younghoon and all the memories of him, in your heart.

At first I thought everything was going as smoothly as before, but it was too much for me. To smile, I don't think I deserve to.

This wound is too deep, man.

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