Broken Mind Eric's Diary
December 31st

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Today, the 6th day I had to walk on one leg.

Sitting pensively staring at Hoonie's photo drove me crazy, and couldn't come to the surface.

Hoonie~

I tried to take my attention away from you, but this is what happened.

After my first step out of the darkness, my left leg had to feel an injury that left me now locked in a dark trough.

At a time like this, again your pillow that I can hug on the chest.

Maybe I pushed myself out of this darkness too much, but maybe my sense of longing would be healed if I saw you in another version.

The avatar of one of the games we often play is also silent because the owner is no longer logged in to play it.

I smiled as I saw your avatar waving his hand, he seemed to be moved and was greeting me.

Wait!...he moves?

I checked back a few times, couldn't believe it but it wasn't wrong anymore. Someone's logged in your account.

We exchanged chats in the chat room, I know it wasn't you. Several times I threatened him to be blunt. But he was so ignorant and kept playing me.

Before revealing his identity, he gave me a clue that led to one person, Wooseok. But after I called Wooseok to make sure it wasn't him.

Then who?

Suddenly my heart was beating like never before, because Hyunjae and Juyeon were going shopping for the new year, and they would not have time to login in this game.

The way he called me, and the way he typed every word in the chat room was exactly like you Hoonie.

Out of nowhere she got any information that my leg was hurting, this time it was her attention that frightened me. He looks a lot like you. I'm afraid my wits are gone, hoping it's you.

"You almost made me cry, because it reminded me of my Hoonie. Who the hell are you?"

I wrote it like that so he could read it.

But almost 30 minutes passed he did not reply to my chat again. Ah I thought this was just a hallucination, because her avatar also stopped moving.

I started to sink my face in your pillow, my eyes closed for a while.

Maybe about 15 minutes I managed to fall asleep, suddenly my eyes became fresh and immediately returned to staring at the screen of the phone that was still at the game airport.

This time I rounded my eyes wide, the chat that I had thought there was going to be a reply turned out to have just appeared on the screen.

"I'm Haru, have you heard my name?"

Haru's?

I hurriedly replied to her chat, as I saw her sending a few minutes ago, probably still online.

I'm not sure of Haru's name, like I've heard it in one place. But if I see his face firsthand, maybe I can recognize him.

I didn't finish typing, a chat back he sent me.

"You want me to go see you there?"

Instantly, the sentence I was typing just erased. This time I was confused as to what it should look like.

But as you know Hoonie, my curiosity did not diminish in the least, I agreed to her offer that she come to show her true figure in front of me.

While waiting for him to come, I asked Brother Jihye about this person named Haru. Sister Jihye said she recognized this guy, because he used to come to see you before you went to London.

I became more and more curious about this guy, how close he was to you, until he found out that I really liked you, Hoonie.

I waited for his arrival, while continuing to be on the game's homepage earlier. I did wait for a chat from him because he didn't tell me the phone number I could call.

A few minutes later, we heard a chat notification from the game application. I hurriedly reached for the phone I had stored on the table.

I know, Brother Jihye was shocked when he saw me so enthusiastic about welcoming the chat. But I could only grin while drowning half my face in the pillow.

Sister Jihye just shook her head, seeing my spontaneous behavior and did not want to get off your pillow.

Then Haru and I exchanged messages in the game app. He offered me food, but there was nothing I wanted at the time, for some reason it suddenly became 'Dakkochi' in my mind.

Shit, it's still 12 in the afternoon.

The food I mentioned earlier, the seller only exists at night. Maybe at that time Haru thought I was working on it. I don't know, I'm just answering.

An hour later, he actually arrived.

That's fast.

"What's your house near here?"

He didn't answer.

All he did was smile warmly at me. For a while, I was fascinated by her smile.

Damn, his face was completely inhumane. His thick eyebrows made his eyes look sharper, yet he always looked at me with a glare.

Its sharp nose makes its oval face look like a masterpiece carving from a professional sculptor.

Crazy... Is he really human?

"Sorry. I didn't bring your order."

The first word he said to me was sorry. He came carrying a box of donuts from a well-known brand, with a large cut of 12 seeds inside.

But as hard as I can, I try to keep my facial expression balanced.

"If you want to see me, at least you bring me what I ordered!"

Maybe at that time he considered me spoiled or I don't know, which is clear I really want a lot hehe.

He gave me the donut box, then he turned around as if he was going to leave.

"Hey, where am I going?"

"I'll be back tonight, taking your order."

Haahh.

"I'm just kidding, come in!"

He smiled again, following me from behind.

Damn I haven't been able to walk properly, the only thing I can do is jump around. I'm sure, he's laughing like Jihye's sister.

But, he stopped me.

"You can't walk?"

"You think?"

I don't like to be asked in conditions that he can clearly see, a little irritated me and returned a box of doughnuts earlier, so he took it.

Our steps stopped in the middle room. I let him put the box on the table and let him sit down.

When you sit down, it is very similar to you. Swiping both knees before sitting down, after which his right hand holds his chest while bending over, and the left one palpates the sofa he will sit on.

The hoonie?

At first glance, as he bent his back, it was very similar to yours, and I began to notice his every other move.

Without further ado, I immediately asked her what I wanted to know about you. Where he knows you, and how often he sees you.

She answered him casually, her soft tone, her delicate language sounded as if she was talking to you.

Not to forget he also slipped a thin smile on the sidelines of his sentence. It makes me comfortable and easy to understand.

"Can't you remember me?"

One question that came out of his mouth made me nod.

Why did he ask like that, had we met before?

I answered him by shaking my head.

"Let's remember, we used to cross each other in front of the school."

That one sentence made my ears ring. It happens often, when I try to remember something out loud.

"What's your real name Haruto?"

He nodded slightly as he answered my question, We have indeed met. Not only that, but we also greeted each other as we passed by.

Ah, my memory is completely muddled after last year's accident.

I don't know if he's this close to you. Even your habits are very similar. Every time he laughs so politely as you, trying to keep his mouth shut despite his laughter.

Ah Hoonie~ I miss you even more.

Not really, our conversation took a few hours. Everything I wanted to know, he answered clearly.

What else should I ask.

"Do you have a boyfriend?"

My fucking mouth, it can't be braked. My question is too personal, I think he will be offended or refuse to answer. But unexpectedly, he answered as well.

He said he was empty at the moment but there was someone he liked.

Actually I'm not as curious as that, it's just that seeing Haru talk makes me feel at home. Even to forget time.

Time showed me at almost 5pm, he said goodbye and promised to bring me back Dakkochi.

"You... will really come back?"

It must be obvious in my face, if I don't want him to go that fast. Haru smiled and nodded.

"You said, if you want to see you, I have to bring you what you ordered."

"I'm just kidding, believe me!"

Again Haru just smiled and left while shuffling my hair.

Instantly, his behavior seemed to make my time stop spinning. My chest feels claustrophobic, she did what you always did to me, Hoonie.

You're the one who always treated me like a child, spoiling me like your own sibling. Suddenly someone else did that to me. What do you think?

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