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my phone rang... made me wake up and I looked at the clock, huuhh this even just at 05.00 am why someone is idly calling him so early.

"hallo.." My voice is hoarse typical of people who just wake up

"hallo... bi.. Where are you?"

"Your senses are awake, how are you doing his body? eat the porridge first. Sorry I can not nemenin because it has to work this morning" I replied so I hope Indra quickly hang up his phone because I am still very sleepy.

"can you have lunch today? please, I want to speak directly"

"okedeh I close first yes, the spirit is healed yaa ndra" without waiting for an answer from her I hung up the phone, lost again deh again I took the decision in a hurry to agree Indra, Indra, basic bucin.. brain wants to move on but heart misses half dead *I curse myself so early so sad.

at 07.00 am I was already in the office. Even OB just came.. all this because the ex who made me can not sleep again this morning even though it is still sleepy! *again this morning I was very upset.

"bianta... once in the morning" said someone behind me while I was in the office pantry. startled and immediately turned to Rega, cool big boss has come so early "good morning sir... I just happen to leave in the morning hehe... would you like me to make coffee sir?" ask pleasantries.

"can, without sugar yes.thank you"

I just smiled clumsyly, which was really early this morning drinking coffee without sugar. "this is the coffee pack, I go first to the room first excuse me"

"i think we can talk a little bit, it's still very early in the morning there's nothing we can do"

"eehhh yes sir" I sat in the chair opposite Rega.

"how much are you comfortable working here?"

"yes sir I am at home, good friends and willing to help teach me"

"don't call sir, call Rega just like the others"

"ahh don't sir I'm not good"

Rega laughs "I look old? Iyasih there's some gray hair hehe"

it seems I mispronounced hopefully not to offend sir bos*I said in my heart.

huuuufftt finally, somehow after everything I've been through I don't want to get close to men, anyone... either because it has started to feel comfortable on its own or because of this still injured heart.

time passed until it was not time for lunch break, I remember my promise to Indra but he did not also tell, I decided to leave the office to find the nearest lunch... then my phone rings.

"hallo bi. I'm in front of your office" Indra said across the street.

"yes I'm your samperin, wait ya" why just ngabarin anyway, fortunately have not bought a meal!

immediately after seeing Indra's car I immediately ran and sat sweetly next to the driver's front seat.

"where do you eat?" ask pleasantries.

"let's look for udon, we haven't eaten it in a long time" Indra said with a smile.

I was just him and tried to convince myself to no longer be tempted and melt, even though Indra's attitude is very sweet now.

after arriving at a Japanese restaurant we ordered a meal and began to eat, without any further talk we drifted into each other's thoughts and feelings, it doesn't seem like us but it's just me.

"are you working at WO now?" Indra opened the conversation.

"heemm..so"

"bi.. I'm sorry..."

deg... No, not now I don't want to hear those words, I've been so hard at it, limped into this position, why did he just come with that apology now? it's too late darling

"i'm sure whatever you do has a reason, I've been very receptive, we've had a life of each and I hope you're happy, don't get sick again, spirit!!" again I could cover my grief.I stood up from my chair and left.

"i have to go back to the office, this problem we don't need anymore ndra, and I'm sorry that for almost two years it's always been troublesome, well... I can't change what you've done or love me, slowly I take a little, let there's no guilt in my heart, I'm back ya ndra" I immediately stepped away.

"bi.. bentar bi.. I have not finished.." Indra's screams are still very clearly heard, no I can not be weak and give up, it is difficult for me to survive in this position. this was the beginning of a turning point in my life the beginning of my new day.