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The Tiatus Family Home

seeing me go Indra did not seem to chase me, until I finally came home with a sick heart and tears that always escaped wet my cheeks.

at home I called the office to ask permission not to enter because of illness after previously sending a short message to Bunga and Rega.

my body feels weak and my heart breaks apart considering what Indra did to me. But why can't I hate it?? when meeting me was like losing his mind, whatever he did there was always an apology for him, even if it hurt me.

for two years together, I seemed hard to reach his heart, too many secrets that he kept. I always felt I was the only one who loved myself and not vice versa.

this time, I was hurt but still missed him,...

today I spent just lying in bed, playing mobile phone watching social media.I decided to upload one of my photos that were on vacation in Bali at that time, my photo faces the sea and turns my back to the camera, suddenly there is a notification coming in.. Someone commented on "No caption?? beautiful sea and beautiful women" so the contents in the comment column, I was curious and looking for who the owner of this account... Candra Dirgantara Yudhistira.

"Candra?? how can I find my sosmed? so many photos of his face that looks only one photo is also a family photo, many photos of clouds, sunset, shoes, hahhaha random anyway did he never have a girl?" *i didn't realize I was sitting down and started to open one photo at a time on his social media.

the sun started to set and the night came, my stomach was hungry and I decided to order pizza and chocolate milkshakes.

after my food order came I hurriedly ate it in front of the TV while watching a new movie that was going viral at this time.365 days, it turns out that this film has erotic scenes... it makes me feel a little bit creepy and then laugh.

after I'm full I then pick up the guitar and start strumming it, I sing a sad song that represents my heart at this moment.

I only have a heart - Myta

When I was ready to die for you

You never thought I was alive

It was when everyone wanted me to bet

You never believed in my true love

I just have a heart

But you may not use your heart

You lied I believed

You hurt me not caring

Try to think where there is such love

You and the others I remain faithful

Don't ask me why I only have a heart

I just have a heart

But you may not use your heart

You lied I believed

You hurt me not caring

Try to think where there is such love

You and the others I remain faithful

Don't ask me why I only have a heart

Ohhhh

You lied I believed

You hurt me not caring

Try to think where there is such love

You and the others I remain faithful

Don't ask why oh

Don't ask me why I only have a heart...

my voice became hoarse because it held tightness in my chest.

tok.tok.tok.tok the sound of knocking on the door, I hurriedly wiped my tears and opened the door.

"want you come here?!" I said to the man in front of me.

"i'm sorry bi.." said Indra, I saw a regretful expression on his face.

"let's talk inside!"

Indra came in and sat down, I left him and made him a drink.

"what are you talking about? I told you I didn't need to be paid, yesterday it was free service, and I'm not saying don't have to see you again don't bother me!" I said give Indra a drink.

"i'm wrong! I'm too angry and jealous, I'm afraid your body has been touched by others.bi, don't go again!"

"sorry mas Indra, all this time you consider me a cheap woman but do not want my body touched by others, which is true! and yes! always for two years, you never catch up and calm me down when I'm sad or hurt by you! after having a very rough intimate that you always go and avoid me, then I realized I was just a mistress of a DIRADJA INDRA no different from a satisfied woman out there"

Indra was silent for a long time we were silent in each other's daydreams later,

"do you want to know why?? because I knew from the beginning that you didn't want my son, every time you had a relationship, you always told me to throw him out, and you didn't think I knew you were always taking the Pill?!!"

"i did that to protect myself and my heart, is it after I conceive your child that you will marry me? didn't you?? many times I have asked that you marry me you always refuse.I am tired of being a talker, living together but not married, almost everyone considers me your mistress!!" I screamed and cried.

"you.you always apologize when things are like this! I hate you!!!" again, I could not hold back my tears.