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As soon as my confession of love, I immediately went running away from them all because I thought this was very embarrassing. This is really the first time I've confessed my feelings to a man who is none other than my own girlfriend. It felt strange, but I was quite happy to have confessed my feelings all this time to him.

Since the fight in the Fleksi park this morning, I became afraid that at any time Arfan met again with Sakti who was said to be his sworn enemy during his school in the past. Just hearing the story about Sakti I got scared myself.

In fact, Jeni and Dhea who I told about Sakti and the incident this morning were very worried that Arfan would be in trouble with her again. I don't know in the future how it will be, I hope that Arfan does not have any problems with his name Sakti. If you can, don't see him forever.

Time is rolling so fast. When the break went off, I was going to the cafeteria with Jeni and Dhea. But, it seems like I have to confine my intentions to the cafeteria with my two friends. Because it seems, there is already a kang Abi approaching me in front of the class. Not wanting to interrupt our meeting, Jeni and Dhea decided to go to the cafeteria first and leave us alone for a moment.

“What's up, Kang?” many confused.

“Ris, break up Arfan!” he said suddenly to make me surprised when I heard his words just now which I think is very inappropriate to say.

“Kang Abi said what, anyway? On what basis does Abi talk rich like me? Kang Abi has no right to ask me to break up with my own boyfriend!” yells annoyed.

“Arfan is not a good man for you, Ris. So, you better break him up,” he said who knows it.

“Kang Abi know what about Arfan? Who knows Arfan it's just me and the closest people.”

“See this photo. After viewing this photo, you can comment.”

Kang Abi handed me her phone. At first I hesitated to take it. But, out of curiosity, I took his cell phone and saw for myself what photo he meant, until asked me to sever my relationship with Arfan unilaterally.

Upon seeing the photo, both balls of my eyes widened like they were about to come out of their petals. It felt like my heart ached to see it, my two eyeballs were heating up, instantly my whole body was sweating coldly.

I was so surprised because the photo was a photo of Arfan kissing with Asti who was none other than Arfan's ex-lover before dating me.

A photo of a kiss is like being in a nightclub. Why .. . . Why is this personal photo so widespread?

“One more thing. You should see this video.”

Kang Abi showed me a video. The video turned out to be a video of Arfan who was fighting with Sakti at his previous school which caused Arfan to be expelled from his school. The video also shows Arfan injuring Sakti until he falls down the school steps.

My mind is currently very messed up. I don't know who to trust about these photos and videos. But, this is real evidence. Evidence of where I was so disappointed in my own lover.

“Now, these photos and videos have become widespread in our schools. You need to stay away from Arfan, Ris. He doesn't deserve you.”

“So, kang Abi thought, kang Abi that matches me than Arfan?” Finally, only that sentence came out of my mouth.

“That's not what I mean, Ris. I just wanted to tell you something you don't deserve to keep.”

“So, according to kang Abi, Arfan is inappropriate for me to keep?” ask me to come back with both eyes that have been flushed.

“Ris, that's not what I meant. I just . . . . “

“Already, Kang. Thank you for waking me up and showing me all this.”

After finishing my sentence, I immediately rushed off to look for Arfan. I was trying to get Arfan into his class, but he didn't seem to be there. In the cafeteria, I didn't see him at all. In fact, his own friends don't know where Arfan is.

“Arfan was leaving so soon when he saw his video and photos that spread widely in sosmed,” Erwin said as I asked where Arfan was.

“Try the phone, Ris,” advice Mbul who was given another nod.

“Maybe he nyariin elo earlier. You see, when he saw this photo and video, he immediately called your name,” Tatang said.

“Yes, thank you so much for the information. If you meet Arfan, call me as soon as possible.”

Where is Arfan really? I was so worried about him. There are so many questions I want to ask her about all this. Arfan, where are you?

“Karisa!” someone shouted as I was about to enter my classroom.

I turned the body. As soon as I saw Arfan's face calling my name, I immediately ran up to him.

“Elo to where, anyway? From that moment I started lo, your phone is also not active. Where to go?” I shouted with a face full of emotion.

“Gue nyariin lo too, Ris. I want to explain all the things you may have seen before.”

“About the photos and videos?” I try to be softer.

Arfan nodded slowly. He clasped my hands together while looking at both balls of my eyes with a serious look on his face.

“The video is true,” he said opened his voice, as soon as we were both sitting together near the school library area.

“Elo itself already knows clearly the story, how the actual incident of the fight. But, I have proof that Sakti was not at all a concussion like what he said to make me expelled from school.

“Only, I do not want to prolong this problem. I just let it all happen and tried to forget it. If it's about the photo, I'd be honest with you, Ris. The photo is a fact. Elo know for myself my association since bokap died 2 years ago what is it like?

“Gue is like a child who is shrewd in his direction and identity. I'm a jerk, badass and not worth fighting for. Because ever since I knew and dated Asti, my life is chaotic and know the night world as you see in the photo. About kissing, that's true. I kissed Asti maybe because she was my boyfriend. But now we're breaking up. There's no relationship anymore.

“Gue does not know how the photo can be spread outside like this. If you want to be angry with me about the video and the photo is not a problem. But what you have to know is that I repent. I never went to a nightclub again. Ris, you know that I love you so much, Lo?”

I'm speechless. As soon as I heard all of Arfan's explanations, my heart and mind were completely muddled. Wanted to yell rudely, cursing at him, but what was it all for? That's no use. It was his dark past.

I want to meet him and I want to hear all the explanations from him. After I heard all the explanations, now I am confused about what this is like and how. I trusted him so much, I knew that Arfan didn't want to lie to me or betray me.

In a relationship, trust is absolute and must exist. If we don't believe it, then the relationship is over. But, do I have to keep believing it after seeing things I don't want to see?

“Give me time to think, Fan. I want to be alone first. Thank you for explaining everything honestly.”

“Elo believes in me, right, Ris?” arfan asked which made me speechless and looked at his face for a few seconds.

“Gue trust the same lo. Hence, I want to hear all your honest explanations. But, now I need some time to myself first, Fan. I need time to think about a lot of things that have happened lately so quickly. You can understand, right?”

“Iya, I understand,” he said slowly while lowering his head.

“Gue go.”

After finishing my sentence, I immediately left Arfan alone. It doesn't seem fair. But I don't want my relationship with Arfan to get hotter and chaotic just because of a photo and video that circulates quickly on social media.

This may have been my first experience with such a complicated relationship. I don't even know, is Arfan worth fighting for? Does Arfan deserve me to love with all my heart? Does Arfan deserve to be my lover?