ABOUT YOU
SARAH

Again my phone rang with a fairly loud volume. When I look at the phone screen, I am getting lazy to pick up the phone from him. This is the problem of my life that has nothing to stop. The phone really interrupted my night.

After almost 2 weeks of never calling, now he's back to calling me again.

“What's up?” answer me ketus, “where? Okay, wait 15 minutes.”

After ending our conversation, I immediately took my jacket and motorcycle keys. I used to be so lazy to go out at night like this. But, because in an emergency I have to go outside tonight as well.

I stopped my bike in the town hall area. When I opened the helmet, I had seen a woman in her 30s wearing high heels, sexy clothes and thick makeup do not forget her red lipstick, glancing at me with her sissy look.

“Why? I don't have much time. It's late at night, my mother will worry if she knows at this hour her son is not at home.”

“This,” said as he thrust out a brown envelope that seemed to contain money.

“What is this?”

“Money for you, Arfan.”

“Money for what? I don't need aunt's money. My mother is still able to give me money,” replied I ketus.

“This is pocket money for you, Fan. Take it, I sincerely give this money to you,” he said a little pushy.

“I don't need aunt money. If no one wants to talk about it anymore, I want to go home.”

I rushed over and put on the helmet in a hurry. However, the woman ran towards me and pulled my hand to make me surprised by her treatment just now.

“What else is it?” ask me cynics.

“Can't you call me sister? Anyway, I'm still your big brother, Fan. Not a date!”

I turned my face. It is true that he is my older brother, my first brother, a brother who has been missing for a long time and I have missed.

Sarah, the sister who has been rumored people are my mistress and lover who said aunt with red lipstick.

“I've never had an older sister who looks bad like you,” said I might sound rude.

“Fan, don't want me to look like this. Me . .”

“Tante looks like a mistress, has thick makeup and sexy clothes. Didn't you ever think that your parents were both educators? Was aunty never taught to be a well-behaved human by both aunt's parents?” my screams were starting to get emotional with the chest starting to go up and down.

The woman I once thought of as my sister shed her tears. He seemed to cry and made me hate the most when I saw a woman crying like that.

“Remove your fake tears,” said I again said rudely.

“You don't know what kind of suffering I'm going through like this, Fan. I like this there is also a reason.”

“How can I know that aunty never told me and my family anything!!”

“I know I'm wrong, I'm a bad boy, Fan. But, I . . . I . .”

“Already, I want to go home. It's night, better aunt also go home,” said I who then left.

“I'm sick, Fan!” it was her who made my steps stop. “I'm sick Leukeumia and I never married Edo. We didn't get married because Edo was cheating. My life is ruined, Fan. Abandoned by a boyfriend, did not get married, in the verdict of Leukeumia and the last in the expulsion of father and mother. My life has been destroyed,” tears that make me also shed tears when I heard the story from him.

“My life has been meaningless, I am just an ungodly boy who dared to go against the orders of his parents. Actually, I came to my father's funeral. But, I dare not show my face in front of my mother and my sisters. I was too embarrassed and I felt humiliated. Even though it's too late, I want to fix everything now. I miss my mom, dad and all of you.

“I look like this because I want to forget my sadness. I know my way is wrong, but yeah this is how I am now, Fan. I have failed to become a woman, failed to be a father and also a mother, also I failed to be a good sister for her sisters.

"I feel guilty, I want to apologize and make amends for all my mistakes. I need you Arfan, I need your help, Dek,” he said softly.

I shed tears again. I never thought the same time, my brother's life has been like that. Now I am confused, confused how to deal with it in a situation like this?

“Sorry that I've been bothering you, Dek. I hope you'll take my allowance. It's halal, I work in one of the supermarkets as a cashier. Say hello to my miss for mom, Ayu and also Arini,” he said slowly, then left.

I had time to look back and see the departure of Sarah's sister whom I have always called aunty. His back seemed to be carrying such a heavy burden. Empty and empty too.

“Gue also misses lo very much, Teh.”

Today was really mixed. My mind is floating everywhere. Why should today's events come together? Being frustrated myself, I was riding my bike at a very high speed.

“Arggghhh!!” I scream emotion.