My teacher is my soul mate
Dilemmas

While in solitude Alexa tried to cool his heart and mind to walk out of the room to the park not far from his room. Alexa's eyes were fixed on seeing people who were passing by walking towards the hospital canteen that was not far from the room. Alexa sat pensively on her own while squeezing the end of her shirt, thinking about her fate ahead. With his spirit that is almost lost Alexa has pretty much lost his confidence. Maybe over time whether Alexa can make peace with him, because almost every minute he has to fight against his own mind. In the end he himself who must learn is how to be strong bear the burden of his life alone, because being a wasted person is not a life choice that he wants.

Someone from a distance was seen staring at Alexa, slowly he tried to ascertain the figure who was pensive himself on a park bench.

Alexa.., turns out this is true you..," said Dr. Siska who accidentally saw Alexa, while walking towards the canteen. Alexa looked at Doctor Siska's nano with her face looking puffy.

Alexa you're sick ?,....Why are you here alone?..," said Doctor Siska worried. Alexa just silently lowered her face she simply replied by shaking her head.

My doctor was confused how to ?...," said Alexa who immediately sobbed bitterly. So that Doctor Siska also immediately hugged Alexa rubbed the back of Alexa which at that time looked so fragile. Doctor Siska saw the condition of Alexa he accidentally saw a scratch on Alexa's hand that was quite alarming.

Alexa did you do it." asked Dr. Siska while examining the wound on Alexa's hand. Alexa just nodded resignedly she did not realize how her hand could end up like that due to her own actions.

Alexa let me visit your room later yaa.!!..,"I will check your condition further..," said Dr. Siska, but Alexa was surprised and immediately refused by shaking her head.

Don't Doc.. Not now, I beg you !!! I do not want my husband's family to know my condition now, because.because..," said Alexa so dilemma.

Because what is Alexa....?Want to until when you postpone keeping your condition a secret like this ?..,"Alexa your condition is quite alarming... I am here to advise not as a Doctor but as a friend who cares about you." said Dr. Siska.

I beg Doc I promise after my return from the hospital, I will see Doctor Siska as soon as possible." said Alexa pleading. Doctor Siska exhales, he tries to understand the condition of Alexa because forcing Alexa is also not a good solution that will cause pressure for Alexa.

On top of the water that was soaking her body, Ryuga looked at the face behind the mirror that looked so frustrating. He was so troubled that the two people present simultaneously in his heart really managed to mess with Ryuga at this time. The presence of Alexa almost makes Ryuga forget the figure of Sita who once filled his heart. When he starts to forget about Sita and starts to open his heart little by little to Alexa even though he was trying to deny his own feelings, but now Sita appears unexpectedly until Ryuga is now confused. Ryuga said his head was trying to cool his head in the water.

In his pajamas Ryuga walks towards his bed he tries to check the CCTV footage, following the advice of his Papah earlier. His hand is seen shrewdly operating the mouse open the files that record every activity in the corner of the room. Not all rooms in his apartment are installed hide camare, only certain spaces that he thinks are important as in the room downstairs. Ryuga scrooled the files where Alexa first lived in her apartment. His sympathetic smile began to expand when he saw the random behavior of Alexa that looks quite entertaining his feelings are in a frenzy. Alexa looks a little different if there is no Ryuga in the apartment as if she looks natural expressing her feelings. Ryuga can clearly see the silly behavior of Alexa while dancing, and singing is recorded clearly in CCTV that Alexa herself is not aware of. Ryuga yesterday opened a camera hide recording that highlighted the main door in his apartment

Hmmm...it looks like this one camera is a little problematic..," Ryuga said while checking the main camera that highlights directly towards the door of his apartment. Though the main camera footage is a position that highlights directly the event where when Ferdy came to see Alexa without his knowledge. Ryuga is so frustrated that he cannot find anything that causes Alexa to go to the hospital. But he was quite sure there was no thief entering his apartment like his Mamah said yesterday. Ryuga re-open the file after the CCTV recording file now the camera installed in the corner of the kitchen did not escape he traced.

It's so dark..,"What was he sitting in the middle of the night alone in the kitchen, looking at the time and the date it seems like this was the case when I had a fight with him that night, but after that I don't remember anything." said Ryuga who continued to see Alexa activity was sitting in a dark atmosphere. Ryuga is very adjustment arrived just his eyes rounded perfectly while a few minutes waiting.

What...? It turns out that Alexa had been smoking like I thought." Ryuga said with a face turned cold, his eyes so sharp staring at the laptop screen in front of him. Ryuga immediately focused on moving the mouse on his hand he tried to zoom the recording to clarify Alexa's activities. Although in the dark but the CCTV has been equipped with infrared, and HD cameras that can display activities clearly even in the dark. Ryuga continues to observe Alexa's activity until it looks bright Ryuga staring focus until when one incident that makes Ryuga freeze squeezed rough hair, Ryuga, now he realized what actions made Alexa continue to avoid it at that time. And stupidly again he actually accused Dimas who did all his actions on Alexa.

Errghghhh..!!! How do I explain it, I feel like a fool." Ryuga yelled.

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Alexa returned to bed after meeting with Doctor Siska, she took her phone in the nightstand drawer. Various chats and calls Rena and Kifli continue to appear who asked his whereabouts while studying together yesterday. Since a few days a lot of foreign phone calls that continue to terrorize him so Alexa often deactivate his phone, because he was disturbed. Alexa opens the music player inside her phone listening to her favorite song break the silence in her bed in the room which is enough to make her a little bored and stuffy.

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in

Sometimes I feel like giving up

No medicine is strong enough

Someone help me

I'm crawling in my skin

Sometimes I feel like giving up

Shawn Mendes's In My Blood song is a perfect representation of what he feels. Alexa put her phone next to her face and drowned her entire body under the covers, closing her eyes as her tears did not stop flowing. Sayup-sayup forced the eyes to fall asleep but his efforts were diverted when he heard the sound of knocking on Alexa's door just wiped hurriedly the rest of his tears.

Dear...How do you feel good yet ?..Mama heard Ryuga said that Papah with Mamah you came ? Where are they now?." asked Mamah Retno as she placed her things on the sofa. Mamah Retno approached Alexa trying to check the condition of Alexa.

Alexa is better than Mah...Mamah same Papah Alexa had come home earlier.", said Alexa smiling.

Dear..How are your eyes red..., surely you are crying huh? Why are you trying to tell me come with Mamah ?..," said Mama Retno sitting next to Alexa

Gpp mah Alexa just suddenly to mind Mamah Sarah may be Alexa again kangen aja times, so blow innannya..," said Alexa lying while displaying a warm smile.

Ehmmmm.sini Mamah hugged. cepet healed yes dear after coming home from the hospital you will stay with Mamah.kamah you do not mind, right.," said Mama Retno while hugging Alexa and rubbing Alexa hair. There was a feeling of pleasure in Alexa's heart to hear that she would be living together again with Mamah Retno. Maybe Mamah Retno's affection can slightly treat her longing for her Mom.

Thanks to Mah... Alexa actually really lives with Mah..," said Alexa felt calm in the arms of Mamah Retno.

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In the afternoon Ryuga looks unsettled whatever he does is always a mess. Ryuga always remembered the CCTV footage that managed to make him fail to focus like a fool. How he should behave in front of Alexa later, after knowing all his own actions. Ryuga takes his jacket and car keys away from the apartment, along the way Ryuga continues to throw his breath violently thinking about how to behave in front of Alexa, whether he should pretend as if nothing happened. Shortly after arriving at the hospital Ryuga walked down the aisle at the hospital.

Loh Mamah went where..," asked Ryuga who accidentally met his Mom.

Mamah wants to go to the room of Doctor Alvin, Mamah wants to ask the condition of Alexa, whether tomorrow he can go home..,"Oh yes you quickly there again Alexa..," said Mamah Retno. Ryuga walked back and his steps stopped when someone greeted him.

Hey bro..!!..," Wow it's really Luh Ga..Kirain the cave was wrong...Hello Aunt how are you?, Aunt is getting more beautiful!!!..," said Andry's doctor and immediately greeted kindly.

Are you Andry ?...Geez Auntie didn't recognize you!!.., "You work here apparently..," said Mama Retno.

Yes dong Aunt.. How am I getting handsome yak?.., 'Aunty and Ryuga by the way how can I be here.." Ask Doctor Andry curious.

Oh this is his wife Ryuga being treated here."tap Mama Retno keceplosan. Sontak made Ryuga directly look at Mamahnya sharply. Rice has become porridge Doctor Andry is now directly staring also full of question marks.

Wife!!..," Ryuga has a wife.." said Doctor Andry incredulously looked at Ryuga as if asking for an explanation. Mama Retno immediately closed her mouth with both hands realizing her words that escaped just like that. Ryuga immediately looked at Mamahnya with a look of horror. But Mama Retno only smiled stiffly and immediately left Ryuga after looking at him as if holding him accountable for his words earlier.

Yes aunty first yes!!..," said Mamah Retno trying to avoid Ryuga.

Yes aunty..," replied Dr. Andry with a friendly smile.

Wah kaga thought I..,"Luh already married it turns out, kok ngabari ngabarin anyway.." said Doctor Andry so curious.

Ah kepo loh.udah there mending luh unplug... I saw Siska again mojok noh there." replied Ryuga trying to avoid Dr. Andry.

Hah.serius luh...Lo tetep debt explanation Ga...Yes, I've pulled it out first, keep your wife a good husband bro.." said Doctor Andry to Ryuga while patting Ryuga's shoulder and giggling trying to hold back laughter.

Noisy loh.. bucin base acute.cepet there go.."whisper Ryuga while throwing a look of annoyance to his best friend.

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