My Dear Teacher
Confiscated by Another

Everyone was still standing looking at Dita roaring while carrying her son in a crib. It was as if they were seeing another Dita. It's a different story than usual. All they know is that Dita is a gentle, delicate woman, she said. But this time, they saw the other side. I don't know what it is, everyone was speechless in shock.

Ms. Anis immediately gestured for the guests to return home because the event had ended until the stay of the extended family members only.

"Maybe he ...." Damar has not continued his words, he believes something is wrong with his wife. Some shadows about the writing he had read had sprung up in Damar's mind like presentation slides. So he hurriedly entered the room.

Only a few seconds later, if Damar is late maybe something bad will happen to their baby. Damar couldn't believe what he saw. But it's real. When Dita was standing in front of her crying baby on the bed. Dita held a pillow, with tears in her eyes. Damar was very sure from his movements the woman wanted to cover their child's face with a pillow. He'll smother her.

"Yes Allah ... It's up!" with a swift Damar jump, pulling Dita to stay away from their baby. He took his wife in his arms. Dita rebelled, roared with all her might while clawing Damar, but Damar did not let go. Until Dita's energy feels exhausted. Now, Dita's crying voice and the baby are racing, who's louder.

From outside, there was a knock on the door. But Damar did not care, he was still focused on his wife who was roaring. Her mother's call was ignored. He even told them to go home soon. Damar was very confident that the current whereabouts of his mother and younger siblings would only worsen the situation.

"Cry. Crying is hard. Spill everything, baby. Spill pain. You're not wrong anything. I was wrong. I made you like this!" damar said, without letting go of his embrace. "Just get your emotions out on me, not on that innocent baby. That child is our biggest dream. It is the heart that we long for its presence. You have to remember that we love him very much. So don't hurt him, baby!"

Dita's crying voice grew longer and more subsided. Now there is only sobbing. While their baby was still crying on the bed because no one was holding it.

"You're calm?" ask Damar, be careful.

"Hmm, Daffa is crying." Dita said, wiping the rest of her tears. He was about to get up but was arrested by Damar. "Why? I just wanted to calm Daffa down. Looks like he wants a drink, or maybe there's something?"

"Yes. Let me win. You stay here first." ask Damar.

"No, I'm just. It's a woman's job!"

"Who said? This is also a men's job. As the ustadz said. So you recite yes, because I want to be an exemplary husband."

After believing Dita would be nothing, Damar immediately calmed her baby. Apparently the diaper is wet. Although not yet skilled, Damar tried to finish on his own until the baby fell asleep after his diaper was changed and put in a short time.

After putting the baby on the bed, Damar came out for a while. He made two cups of tea. Then go back to the room. The house is empty. Her mother and sisters had already left after Damar asked for her.

"Drink" said Damar.

"Thank you." Dita. "I'm a bad mother."

"There is no bad mother on this earth. They've been fighting pregnancy and giving birth to their children betting their lives. How can you say yourself bad? Daffa owes you a debt and until now he will not be able to repay your sacrifice."

Damar hugged his wife. He let the woman he loved so much vent emotions yes greetings hugs.

"If he finds out, Daffa will hate me!"

"Would never. Daffa would understand that his mother was too tired."

"Yes. I'm tired of Damar. I'm tired of all this. I'm tired of this loneliness."

"I'm sorry, baby."

"Now I can't breastfeed Daffa. I'm a really bad mother!"

"Who said? I told you, there are no bad mothers on this earth. You are the best women!"

Dita looked at her husband's pair of eyes that exuded sincerity. Although she was already very tired of this situation, in the end tonight she could feel comfortable because her husband could understand her.

"Room ... Thanks." Said Dita. Her eyes that had been very sleepy were finally closed in her husband's arms.

***

The night is getting late. The clock's needle shows at eleven o'clock in the evening. Damar is awake. This time not his job. I read a book about the baby blues. He suspected that Dita was exposed to the baby blues. Of course after looking for information and consultation online with doctors who help Dita give birth.

As a husband, not only fulfilling the obligations of birth and inner living, Damar also felt obliged to take care of the mental health of his wife and child. He realized that he had made a big mistake by ignoring Dita so that during his pregnancy, for nine months the woman he married was struggling in loneliness. Though it was a frightening specter that was always avoided by Dita because since childhood it was what he passed.

I have to pay attention to Dita. So determined Damar. He had to set a strategy so that his work and college remained smooth but still could pay attention to his wife. Because now is a very troublesome moment for a woman.

After giving birth, female hormones are usually chaotic. Dita who had originally planned to give birth normally but in the end had to give birth Caesar actually already feel discouraged. Plus he was sentenced to no longer have children. She was not able to breastfeed Daffa. The incident had made Damar sure that his wife was not okay. He had to do something, I don't know what. But Damar felt he had to move fast.

"Morning to afternoon work. College night. That compact, then what about Dita and Daffa?" Damar tried to rack his brains, thinking of a way out without sacrificing anything. But the result was deadlocked. He has not found a way out. If you have to stop working, Damar is not sure he can pedal this boat sampan. They could be shipwrecked. But right now they are in need of a big cost. In addition to the needs of a large enough baby, Dita also still has to undergo treatment. Also the cost of living is certainly not small.

"Oh God!" Damar can only be.

Not even finding a way out, he finally decided to ablution. Put everything into the owner of this universe. Damar is very sure, whatever the problem will definitely find a way out. He just has to be patient, praying and trying.