My Dear Teacher
Lonely

Nine months and nine days. Just like other pregnant women, during that time Dita tried to keep her pregnancy. His first son with Damar. The child they so desperately wanted. Especially Dita, who was forced to go through everything with difficulty as much pain as she suffered.

During that time he had to undergo with the condition of bedres. Can't work, can't go anywhere. If only out for control. That condition makes Dita really bored. He was everyday at home. Damar who is busy with his work and education always leaves Dita alone.

Actually Damar has offered that during Damar kejra, Dita accompanied by his mother or sister. But he refused for various reasons. One of them is afraid of trouble. The reason that in the end makes Dita really lonely because her in-laws and in-laws only come to the house occasionally. It was also when Damar was at home because they were afraid to interfere with Dita's rest.

This morning, after whining to Damar to be given a little time, but when his request was rejected because Damar had already made an appointment even though it was a holiday. Maybe because she was pregnant, Dita became very sensitive. She cried so much to get the attention of her husband.

"Why should we cry? Quiet, darling. Later when all my business is done, we go out together. Yea?" tawar Damar's. Trying to negotiate.

"No. I want it now. Tomorrow-tomorrow may not be possible. What if I gave birth sooner, we might not get out. At most it can be together about two or three months, when the baby is older. That's also we will not be free because there are already children that we have to accompany." said Dita.

"Yes, the baby we're dropping. Mother or Nanda will not mind if we have to accompany our baby. Yeah." yeah."

"No, no!" Just like a child, Dita Tantrum. He couldn't take it if he had to buy more time. He wanted to spend more time with Damar. At home, it makes him very lonely.

"Don't be selfish, baby, I told you. I'm like this for our better lives. Moreover, we will have children who certainly need a lot of money later. There is an opportunity to use it well. Yea?"

Like what he said, Damar actually went to work. Dita who was so sad could only cry. He poured his sadness in. Writings. He feels really fragile.

Oh, is this life just about loneliness. If the friend you think will erase the loneliness is not really killing your sepimu, then why should there also be a friend if the loneliness is real and the same.

I was born alone, until I was always alone. There will never be happiness for me. Because lara is my friend.

Dita's crying apparently affects her content. He who has indeed received a warning from the doctor so as not to be too sad in the end must feel the pain in his stomach. Not only that, the blood flowed slowly, causing confusion.

As her eyes grew increasingly closed, Dita saw so many people at the other end. They laugh, share stories. There was also Danar, his mother-in-law and brother-in-law there. But no one was willing to call him. They just laugh at their neighbors. Like a neglected stranger. The condition made him retreat, slowly with tears.

***

The hospital area. Damar was walking back and forth with a feeling of worry. His mouth was incessantly saying Istighfar. Sometimes he apologized to his wife even though Dita was not on his side because she was now undergoing a Caesarean delivery in the operating room.

"Mar, relax. Sit here first." call Ms. Anis who accompanied. Ms. Anis immediately rushed to the hospital after being told by Damar.

"Will he survive? And our baby too? I don't know how long Dita's been lying on the floor in such a condition. It itself. I'm really guilty of letting it go like that!" Damar is possessing himself. He regretted that he had refused his wife's request this morning. If only he obeyed then Dita could not experience all this. Dita can also be fine now. Damar's heart was further broken because he read Dita's hand scratches accidentally.

"That's it. Don't regret what happened. Now pray that Dita and the baby are safe." Bu Anis said as he gently rubbed his son's back. Actually he was disappointed with what his son did, but the rice has become honest, if they only discuss something that has passed, will not produce anything. Now Dita and her future grandchildren are struggling. Ms. Anis just wanted to think positively that everything would be fine.

***

The little baby was finally born into the world. A very adorable baby boy. The first baby and the last baby to be born by Dita. The doctor has given a ban on her not to have children anymore because the condition of Dita's uterus is not possible to have more children. It would also endanger his own life.

Hearing that, Dita who was originally happy is now sad too. He daydreams more, ignoring the people who are crowded in his room in the care.

The sound of baby crying made Bu Anis take the initiative to give it to Dita to be given asi. But it turns out that Dita has not come out yet. Ms. Anis tried to calm down by saying such conditions were natural. Not all women can breastfeed when their child is newborn. Some people have to wait a while or even a few days. The condition is normal, but because Dita is not okay, the condition is a problem for her.

"I'm not a lucky woman, after not being able to make my husband happy, I also can't give my child rights. Oh I'm such a pathetic woman!" Dita crying.

"What are you talking about, honey? Who says I'm not happy? I am happy, very happy with you, and now this happiness is increasing because you have given birth to our child. I really owe you. If the problem of breast milk, does not the mother have said that such conditions are natural. What matters is that you are happy. Later also surely his ASI will come out." said Damar with a feeling not less haru. His heart was also broken hearing his wife's chatter. He also felt very sinful because so far less attention to his wife.