My Dear Teacher
Nanda Failed

"So where's the money? When taken? Now, just so that tomorrow you can pay for the registration. Mommy does not want to go to school with debt fees like when you were in Elementary School, Junior High School" said Bu Anis in his eldest. But no one answered. "Where? Why shut up, Mar? Let's take it now. Don't be pushed back so your heart is calm. Or maybe you change your mind? Aye, so? Duhhh Damar, as the eldest son who said he wanted to take over the responsibility as the head of the family, you have an obligation to send Nanda to school. Understand right?"

"Bun," Damar motioned to his mother to shut up because he saw his sister's paled face. This is the first time Nanda has failed, he must have been devastated. He who is not as bright as Nanda alone first experienced not graduating completely destroyed, until lazy to do nothing, let alone Nanda who had been in the academic field undefeated, he was the general champion, he was the champion, the smart one who has always been the pride of mothers and teachers in school. But this time it has to face the fact that he failed to enter a public college for first or second choice.

What's wrong? Damar doesn't understand. As a child who is diligent in learning and has a high IQ, Nanda has always been earnest for education because he has high ideals as a doctor. Nanda knew the state of the family economy that could hinder him to become his doctor, so he always sought as much information as possible how to go to college with limitations. One of them by relying on scholarships and to get it must have a high value. That is also the reason why Nanda so expect that Damar to be paired with Rana because Nanda is expected to be helped by tuition fees if he becomes his sister-in-law. An offer that Nanda will never miss, because being a doctor is her biggest obsession.

"Why Mar?" Bu Anis was still curious, not understanding the cue from his eldest until Nanda's tears finally dripped. "Ehh, why Nan? Why crying? It's okay, mother will find a way out so you can be a doctor. Mother will force your brother to fulfill his promise. You can definitely pay the registration fee at the beginning!" firmly mother.

"Bun, the money is there. It's been collected at Dita's ATM" Damar said.

"Then what else, take it there!" his mother began to lose patience. Confused mixed with annoyance at the slow motion of Damar and Nanda who suddenly cried when his daughter was usually very strong, can even be said to be a hard type.

"Nanda didn't graduate, Bun" Damar said in a soft voice after earlier inviting his mother to speak inside but her mother refused. Damar who was out of words was forced to explain everything about his sister's non-graduates.

"Not graduated how? Don't make you Damar. O, you know you must be upset about not graduating from school so say the same thing about Nanda. About education, you and Nanda are very different. Nanda's smart, you slacker. So don't be likened to that!" his mother was angry.

His mother's gaze turned pushy when what her son said was true. The daughter who was always proud of education was a failure. But how could this happen. Bu Anis face immediately paled, he was afraid to imagine. His heart was completely broken, hope to change still the family felt extinct. The fate of his family cannot be changed. His children would only be ordinary people or could possibly be worse than him. Suddenly it felt like Bu Anis' body was limp. He who has already said everywhere that his daughter will become a doctor now feels very embarrassed.

"Why did this happen? Why Nan!" Now the anger of Bu Anis is directed at Nanda, the child who has never been in conflict with him, always he is proud of everywhere, also being his right hand for all matters because they are truly one thought, because they are truly one thought, one goal and the most clop among his brothers. "Nanda Jawab! Why can't you graduate? You're why the hell? Mommy has forced my brother to find funds but you wasted this opportunity, you don't be so Nanda!" irritated, Bu Anis hits her daughter on the back, causing Nanda to grow even more weeping.

"Mom, stop!" Damar Pinta. He tried to mediate.

"Ahhhh, move aside you Damar!" Shouted Bu Anis. "This kid .. I've pinned my hopes on him, but he's messing around. It just shatters my hope. Think my life is just a game? Didn't she realize, I've raised the four of you with great difficulty, how many times I've committed suicide, almost crazy because of the weight of my life. But I survived because of him. I thought he could really change my fate, it turned out that he was the same as his father! It can only be a burden on your family only Nan. During this time you are only assigned to study, you are not given any responsibility but this is your reply. You are the bad!" like an infidelity person, Ms. Anis continued to fumble, even when her emotions rose again, she tried to reach Nanda to grab her or hit her as a form of emotional outlet.

"Darling, please take Nanda out!" pinta Damar to his wife. After they came out, Damar invited his mother to talk, of course, after letting his mother vent all her emotions.

"You know, it's not easy for me to go through this. Married to your father, I was expelled by my family. Even now they don't care about me. I also gave up my future, to serve a man I hoped would be the best priest for me. But it turns out that my hope has never been fulfilled because in addition to his age under me, he is also not a man who wants to hold a commitment. He just wants to play around. But I stayed, once my parents asked me to come home but with no trace of him. I was offered to start my life from scratch, but I refused because other than that I care about you, I still hope, there's a little happiness I can be proud of, which I hope for, if I don't get it from your father, at least from one of you. On Nanda that wish I hung. He's been seen as a boy I think is a genius since he was two. His development was so rapid, even compared to people who were a few years older than him. Day after day, not for no, year after year, I kept on knitting, one day I would go back to my big family and show what I was proud of. That my choice was not wrong. His children can be proud of me. Can treat this too much injury. But everything is now extinct Damar, extinct. I will never get my happiness again. I won't be able to go home with my head held high because I'm fucking forever, damn shit!" Ms. Anis roared again, lamenting her own fate.