Muara Kasih Single Mother
Make Peace with the Past
Pandu was relieved, although his heart as a man and as a father was very easily touched by the figure of Indi. The confusion felt by Indi was also felt by her. Even after Firhan left, Pandu also said that he was not willing if Indi called the title of father to another man. The affection that makes Pandu do not want to share the call of the father. For him, the call of Yamah from Indi meant a lot to him.
"Aja aja who is still a child can feel confusion, Nda," said Pandu slowly.
Until finally, Ervita nodded her head slowly. "Yes, Mas. In my view, what Indi experienced was also natural. From the little one he saw as Jayah was you. So, when another man shows up and asks Indi to call him Dad."
Ervita tries to explain, though what Firhan asks doesn't mean much to her. Firhan only fertilized it, but the role of dana's father was not done by him at all. Though the figure called the father is those who not only plant the seeds, but also responsible materially, to the psychic for the baby. Giving his love for the baby from the womb until his child grows up later.
"Actually to me, he's just a biological father. Just plant the seeds. However, in the end who loves Indi, meeting his physiological and psychological needs is you, Mas," replied Ervita.
Not to compare, but that's how it is. What it means to plant seeds. Just like a farmer when they want to plant seeds, they will nourish them, provide the best fertilizer, make sure there are no pests, until finally when the baby is born will provide the best love and fulfillment of needs.
"However, his blood ties with Firhan, Nda," Pandu replied.
More sad when Pandu remembered one thing that has become his sadness since now. "I'm more sad, when Indi grows up and someone asks for it later, I don't have the right to be his marriage guardian" said Pandu.
The man's face instantly became lethargic. He is very hopeful that he can be a guardian for Indi when Indi gets married later. However, Pandu also knows very well that Indi is not the nasabnya. Just to remember for the time to come, Pandu is already sad.
"His biological father also cannot be his marriage guardian, Mas," replied Ervita.
Not that Ervita is fine, but indeed when Indi married later even his own Biological Father could not be his guardian. As a mother, Ervita's heart was also very painful. However, surely one day Ervita will explain everything to Indi. Hopefully Indi can accept his origins. Indi was not hurt by the hidden mysteries when Indi was born.
"Indi was a daughter born without her father's niqab. So, the guardian of the marriage will be the judge."
Ervita's heart was very sliced. The bitter reality that used to be experienced, will still be carried away until Indi grows up. In fact, even decades passed, Indi will be remembered as a girl without nasab.
"Imagining it just makes my heart hurt. However, as I now make peace with my past. I hope Indi will also make peace with his origins. Although sore. However, sometimes from a painful reality, are we not asked to remember that human life is so. And so does Allah, who extends His hand to His fallen servant."
Hearing what Ervita said, Pandu nodded his head. Is it possible that the bitterness of life makes Ervita this fresh? In fact, when speaking everything was a smile on Ervita's face.
"Your past is bitter, Nda. Even bitter. However, just saying everything, you can still smile."
Ervita nodded her head. "I learned the meaning of life from you, Mommy. Accept the past, don't blame it anymore. I'm sincere with everything" Ervita replied.
There is nothing better than making peace with the past. Go with everything. When the heart is sincere, Allah will give His servant fortitude. The rocky road, can Allah turn into a green valley full of coolness. The wilderness is full of shrubs, God can also replace it with a flowering field.
"For now, let Indi know what she knows now, Mas. However, later we will tell the truth, about its origin," said Ervita again.
"I followed your decision, Nda. Hopefully, our way forward is always good. Also, with the lack of Firhan now there is no desire to seize Indi. Because, I will always defend Indi" Indi replied.
Yes, hearing that Firhan has e-rection Dysfunction, makes Pandu a little worried if the man could just seize Indi. Therefore, Pandu will continue to defend Indi. Will not release Indi, even if it is for his own biological father.