Loving My Husband's Son
Being my Beloved Mama

"Speak Nilam what exactly is your purpose? Why are you doing all this to me?"

My body was pushed towards the wall that felt so cold by a man with eyes filled with anger. I felt a great pain in my hand that he held so tightly. I wanted to cry because of the pain and told him that the pain hurt me so much. The tight grip of his hand made the words I wanted to get out of my throat feel choked. But this pain she caused in my hand was not as painful as the feeling I felt in my heart right now.

The pain was just as miserable and my tears felt so hot as poison that it could hurt my eyes.

"Have you lost your tongue or what? Tell me what your goal is to be Erfandi's wife!"

He screamed with anger and his grip grew stronger and more painful. I was grateful that his grip did not reach my neck or that he could make me unable to breathe.

"Have you been so greedy and shameless that you could sleep with a man who was worthy enough to be your Papa just because you wanted to live a life of wealth with him?"

He shouted again and this time his grasp grew stronger and made me groan in pain. But he seemed to ignore the pain I felt as if everything I did did did not make him feel disturbed in the slightest.

"Talk to me Nilam." He shouted and made me look straight at him.

I really wanted to tell him a lot of things. But my lips are so heavy, my heart is so heavy and I could cry. Crying because I really love this guy in front of me. But now he's gonna be my son. But I'm legally married to her Papa and have become her Mama under applicable law.

'really ironic.'

"Damn you Nilam." Shouted Aldi and released his hand from me. "You're making me so hurt. I regret the day I met you. I regret the day I let you take my whole heart. I hate you Nilam Yuniarta Widuri or now I should call you Mama." He said with a mocking smile.

'Mr....' That's what I am for him now. A Mama that he hated and was also very disgusting to him. I was nothing in her eyes but a cheap woman and a traitorous woman who left her for her rich Papa.

My legs felt weak and I fell on the floor in pain. Pain that he might not be able to understand. I wasn't given any choice. But would she be able to trust me if I told her that I still love her just like three years ago.

Three years ago everything went so perfectly and if I said that my happy day with him would be a nightmare at this time. I wouldn't be able to live with something like that. I want to die right now, but because of little Leon, I have to face all of this in silence.

I walked towards the bed and looked towards my son who was soundly asleep. He is the only light that can make me live in this world.

I am now in the present. But my heart still lives in the past. All the problems when I was still with Aldi I could get through so easily. The time we spent with each other was so wonderful. But all of them suddenly separated.

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PoV Aldi's

I closed the door loudly behind me as I left Nilam in his room. That damn woman was still my lover 3 years ago. We had no problems and I even wanted to propose to her in order to marry her. But he suddenly sent a message and said that we should break up and stop connecting.

He did not even dare to tell me everything directly. I felt so hurt that I couldn't breathe properly. I thought that I would die right now after knowing everything.

In the past, I even tried to give him a chance. But somehow he refused whatever I did to improve our relationship. I finally decided to go away from this country to finish my college instead of being here and always seeing her who was no longer my lover.

I isolated myself from everyone. I don't even want to attend my Papa's wedding. And now I regret all my decisions. Why should I do it and not attend Papa's wedding.

Because when I returned after 3 years of studying abroad, my ex-boyfriend turned into my Mom and unfortunately again, he gave me a stepbrother instead.

Once again I felt a familiar feeling where it made me so miserable. When my Papa showed me and introduced me that Nilam was my new Mama. Before I left the country, my relationship with Papa was not good. But with Nilam's presence as the wife of Erfandi, my Papa, it made things even worse.

After what we called a family dinner, I met him in the corridor and tried to talk to him and try to understand why he was doing all that to me. But he said nothing to me and kept looking at me with his watery eyes.

I hate to say this. But her tears always made me weak. I hate to see the pain in him. But he deserves it, for what he did to me 3 years ago.

What exactly was the main reason until she wanted to be my Papa's wife? Did he not think about how I felt a little?

We've been in a relationship so good and even so romantic. Even all of our friends said we were a very compatible couple.

I really don't know why he could do all this to me. Is the wealth that Papa has more important to him than love? Or maybe all this time he just pretended to love me to be close to Papa?

Seriate....