In the Name of a Mate
Chapter 11: Not wanting to hurt

The sun is covered in gray clouds that are like ready to spill water at any time, the wind blows cold, enough to make the hands clench themselves to feel warm

Layla was forced to stop her bike at an empty patrol post by the road, not because it broke down but because the gray cloud had dropped the load it contained. He could have broken through the rain, but his books would have gotten wet. In addition, he began to feel unwell since waking up this morning, if exposed to rain now, it was certain he would be sick

A black moge stopped at the patrol station, the man in a black jacket opened the full face helmet that covered his face until Layla could recognize the man, the man who made his two cousins feel love

It seems that the man does not recognize him or indeed he has shown his original attitude to women like the story of Zara and Yasmin. To be sure the man immediately sat down and was seen rubbing his wet hair without greeting Layla

Layla was grateful for that, he advanced his body slightly to the middle because of the rain that fell soaking the edges

Silent, both of them were just enjoying the sound of rain with no talk at all, it had been about fifteen minutes and there had been no sign of rain going to stop

"Why?" Layla immediately tiptoed in shock when she heard Qais's voice that turned out to be in front of her

"What's the reason?" He was surprised to hear someone ask like that, he thought why only for one question?

"Why am I being rejected?"

"Reject what? Can you ask not half?!" Spraying Layla with an annoyed voice, the cold air did not turn her heart cold enough to answer such a question

"Why did you refuse to be my partner?"

"The courtship is sin, it is near adultery" Layla replied, whereas what she heard from Zara was that the man's principle was not to ask for a date

"Well, let's get married"

"You're crazy, aren't you?! I'm still in school" Layla doesn't think about the guy, he doesn't want to date but that doesn't mean he wants to get married now

"If so after you graduate High School" while enjoying the increasingly heavy rainwater, Qais casually said that

"What made you so close to me? Though from the story I heard you anti with women"

"Because I gave you my heart thirteen years ago. I don't want to take it for someone else to give it, but I want to make it come together with half the heart that's on me"

"Children's love story, doesn't it sound too silly?" Kekeh Layla, he could remember now, the boy in the red and white uniform who looked down in front of him gave candy

"For some people it may be, but for me it's not"

"We can't be together" Layla murmured, but it could still be heard by Qais. He believed that if God could turn back his servant's heart, he could probably like Qais even though he seemed to dislike the man now. But to hurt the feelings of his two cousins he would never have been able to do that

"Why? You don't like me? Do you not believe that the human heart can be turned back by the creator" Qais smoothly calls the creator, even though to face him five times a day sometimes he does not do

"No, but because there's another heart I have to take care of"

"Do you like other people?" Qais's tone sounded changed disliked. Layla shook her head in response

"The heart of the woman who likes you" Layla's reply made Qais laugh

"Like me a lot, it's definitely not your fault"

"You're not my type either" Layla replied so that the man wouldn't soar too confidently

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While Bilal on the other hand also suffered the same fate, he was forced to take shelter because the right heavy rain flushed after returning home from school while the distance of his house was still quite far and more annoying, he said, he forgot to bring a raincoat, but usually it never came out of the motorcycle seat

A girl in the same batik outfit as herself ran a little and used her bag as a head protector from the rainwater. The girl regulated her breathing and stopped at the place Bilal occupied

"YOU!" The two men spoke in unison, with eyes equally in disbelief

"Friends girl?"

"Ustadz cocky?" say the two again in unison with different calls

"What?" The two people instantly fell silent, again they said the same word

"It turns out you're in school" Bilal did not mean to insinuate but the girl seemed insinuated to hear that

"Yes, let pinter count the robbers" Bela replied casually

Bilal spoke no more, afraid of hurting the girl who was squeezing the wet tip of her shirt at this time. His gaze was distorted on the girl's left hand, precisely on the bandaged wrist. It was true that what he saw in the hospital three days ago was the girl sitting next to him right now

"Only a fool would kill himself" he murmured but was still slightly heard due to the shrinking volume of rainwater

"What is the same thing with you? It's my life, it's up to when I end it"

"You are not the God who begins and ends, as hard as you hurt yourself to be lost from this world, if God still wants your breath and dhikr from your mouth, you will not die" replied Bilal staring at the rain that returned heavy, but had shrunk earlier

"Do you believe he exists? You believe that God exists" Bilal said in his heart

"If you don't believe in God, why did you believe in heaven and hell a few days ago when we met" now the girl who was silent, was silent, Bela also remembered she said that to her parents three days ago

"One of his most fair things, why is he not fair to me? That's why I doubt it" Bela chuckled a little

"You're not the only human being who thinks he's unfair, but all humans think that doesn't mean he's fair?" Bilal asked back, he once thought His Lord was unfair, when his parents left and he could only resist the longing to see other children who gave their mothers special gifts on December 22. While he and his sister can only give a prayer and a flower, but prayer is greater than everything.

"Have you ever considered him unfair?" Bela asked, he thought men like Bilal never thought that way

"Of course I have"

"But if he exists why did he stay away from me? Is it because I'm a bad, bad boy? Shouldn't he forgive all that?"

"He will forgive the sins of his repentant servant. He's never far away, he's always close, so close to us that we can't see him" Bilal recalled his parents' words when he asked about the creator

"Only sometimes we as his servants are too arrogant, thinking we can solve everything ourselves until we get away from him. We are not him" continued Bilal made Bela speechless