I Think, I Love You
Candour

Now Shania is lying weakly under a blanket patterned box, allowed to be attached to a medical device dehumidifiers, he has been unconscious for 3 hours.

"Ma, is Shania conscious?" Jere poked his head behind the door, Eve turned to the source of the voice and shook her head.

"She kept delirious from earlier, why are you like that? Comein..!!" eve asked frowning in wonder at Jere's behavior as if reluctant to enter.

"Papa prevented me from entering this room" he answered frankly, and Eve only sighed at the answer.

"Why don't you look into what drugs you gave Shania, why are you always so careless?" eve asked protesting against Jere's ever-shuttering nature.

"I thought it was paracetamol, anyway why the Dave kept the drug in the office. Strange" his grunts annoyed Dave, if the guy didn't keep it there it wouldn't be like this.

"It has. Forget it!, now that the heat has gone down it might be waking up soon. You go back to your room" Tell Eve to drive out the delicate Jere, push her child's body towards the door and let Jere out.

And sure enough, a few minutes after Jere came out Shania woke up.

"Aunty? I'm at aunt's, right?" Shania wants to make sure that she's at Eve's house now, she doesn't remember anything, lastly she only remembers taking medicine and having sex on the office couch.

"Yes Shan, how are you?" Eve helps Shania sit down and gives her a glass of water.

"Jere brought me here?" Shania asked after gulping down the water to wet her dry throat, ah fresh.

"You're sick, so Jere and aunt brought it here" Eve took the empty glass and put it back on the nightstand.

"Sorry to bother aunty, but what time is it?"

"Hour 7, why?"

"I have to go. I have an aunt's appointment" Shania grabs the blanket and gets off the bed, but her hand is held by Eve.

"Are you all right? not feeling hot anymore?" tanya Eve made sure of Shania's situation.

"I'm a good aunt, look I can stand up and walk. I'm going auntie"

"Jeremy will drive you" Eve said following Shania out of the room, in the living room, Jere grabbed the car keys to hear her mother say.

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"I'm waiting in the car" Jere parked the car in front of the restaurant where Tom was waiting. He let Shania down.

"Remember, don't want to be brought back" he said again, Shania just kept quiet, she came out without saying anything.

Now, Tom has ordered two glasses of orange juice for him and Shania, Shania's favorite healthy drink.

"Talk Tom, what you want to say!" It feels awkward to linger with Tom, as soon as possible Shania wants to know what Tom wants to say to him.

"First of all, I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done to you" he said seriously, taking a deep breath, Shania just silently trying to listen well.

"Before dying, Mirna always told me about you, your favorite, your favorite, your sadness, and the things you hate. Everything didn't go away he told me. Even I'm the only one who knows that he has cancer, I always help him to seek treatment but God says otherwise" Tom looked down, he looked sad

Tom paused his words, he looked at Shania who was holding back tears, her eyes dewy. Tom reached out his hand about to hold Shania's hand, but the woman quickly withdrew her hand.

"But, it turns out that my feelings are nothing more than a brother's affection for his sister.I realized that when I met Stella. I feel a real, different love when I'm with you"

"Quite Tom, I understand"

Tom was speechless, he wanted to continue but Shania interrupted his explanation.

"I'm too innocent, I'm too stupid to realize it too late" Shania held tight, the conversation this time successfully touched her deepest trough of heart, she said, how could the relationship that he had hoped for all this time only Tom considered limited to the feelings of a brother to his sister.

Shania's chest is deflated, she feels ashamed of herself and the world, if she can just want to disappear from the world this second too.how sad her fate, even love problems she is loved.

"Shan, nothing has changed between us. I still love you, you're my sister" Tom looked back at Shania, trying to give her understanding of what she believed.

"Alright, that's enough, thank you for your kindness all along" Without saying anything more, Shania got up and left Tom without saying goodbye.

He ran out of the restaurant without noticing people passing by who looked at him in wonder, he wanted to shout.he wanted to protest at the world, he wanted a quiet place.

"Let me go home" Shania got into the car in a hurry to surprise Jere who was playing her phone.

"Have you?" Jere asked as he confirmed his sitting position and started the car engine, Shania nodded. She cried.

Jere sees Shania crying, but he does not want to ask and discuss it, let Shania with herself first, she needs time.

"Where is this? this isn't the way to my apartment?" shania asked after noticing the quiet street they were passing through, only one or two street lights were visible.

"To somewhere"

Shania didn't ask any more questions, she threw a glance at the night sky and here in this place there are many stars, very different from the sky in her apartment. He doesn't care where Jere will take him, his mind is still filled with regret for his feelings that coveted Tom too much.

"We're up" Jere took off his seatbelt. Shania was silent, he stared at the scenery in front there, a reservoir behind the city.The water was calm, and on the edge there were skyscrapers complete with flickering lights, decorating it, beautiful blend of the work of God and man combined like this.

"Come, the outside is more exciting" Shania was aghast when Jere had opened the car door next to her. He said, get out of the car and walk to the edge of the reservoir, there are several seats there.

"I always come here, it's calming" Jere stood beside Shania, circulating his gaze enjoying the atmosphere.

"What brings you here?" shania asked, staring at Jere, His hair is blown by the night breeze, he is handsome. Shania turned her eyes away, waking up to what she was thinking just now.

"I'm not the one with a lot of friends. I've never trusted anyone, if I'm tired, I'm here" Shania nodded at Jere's words.

"Whatever Tom said to you, accept it with grace. It'll all be easy if you provide a container for everything that hurts you, later, you'll be as calm as the water in this reservoir" Shania bowed, just what Jeremy said. He needs peace to contemplate and accept all, he must also expand his heart so that all he can go through.

"I hope you're always smiling" Jere put a jacket on Shania, the denim jacket she was wearing.

"Jer, am I so pathetic?"

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