I Think, I Love You
Ill

It has been a week since the incident, Shania always felt there was an empty space in her life.It is not easy to accept the reality of a loved one for many years turned out to play behind her, betray her, betray her, piercing sembilu into his heart leaves a grievous wound that no matter when it will heal.

But she's Shania, she can always carry herself in the company, cover her wounds and go through the days as usual, if Tom can without her, then he should also be able to without the man, she thought.

It's been a week now, Tom has been coming to his apartment and even to his office, but Shania has never wanted to see him. It feels like Shania no longer wants to deal with Tom, let him be considered ungrateful, or a woman who does not know herself because she just rejected Tom's presence, but who cares? even the man who made a liver disease that Shania had never felt, so easily he wanted to meet again? wh-wh-what for?

"hmm why else would he see me?" Shania murmured with relief after sitting in the passenger seat of the bus, she slipped out of the apartment when she saw Tom walking into her apartment area towards his unit,

He wanted to forget, even forget all the feelings he had ever given Tom, buried him deeply, threw him away. Tom already has a lover who he loves more than Shania, and Shania can watch it from the look of Tom's eyes, that's a strong reason Shania does not want to disturb their relationship again, although from his small heart he wanted to demand this heartache, but the sincerity of Tom's gaze on Stella made him collapse and collapse and then succumb to them.

The bus slowly leaves the stop, Shania looks up at the towering tower of her apartment, perhaps Tom is currently knocking on the door and shouting her name to open the door, perhaps also calling Shania's number many times, but Shania had changed her number.

It breathed deeply, turned its gaze to the green foliage and water basins by the roadside, the air this morning was very cool and fresh last night dense testing along with lightning, he said,

30 Minutes passed, Shania arrived at her office, it was still morning.her friends had not yet come, with regular steps she headed to her desk, took out her drinking bottle and lunchbox and then breakfast, After he finished his activities, today he will work on a sketch of clothes that will be released as a finished product in a few months by the company, calm down, focus that is what Shania does, she said, he was very proficient in this field, so that he could make money with this ability that was not necessarily owned by others, and that was the thing he was most grateful for.

"Shan, you're in the morning" said one of her friends as she entered the room, Shania smiled and resumed her activities.

The clock ticks, now the whole room is busy with their respective tasks, as well as with Shania, even he missed his lunch hour because the picture is not finished, usually he easily finished it, he easily finished it, but this time his mind is disturbed by Tom sending a letter through his friend, in the letter he wants to meet once again with Shania, later tonight, at the usual place they meet.

"What does he really want to say again? so guilty does it feel like a debt collector comes every day to see me?" Shania kept struggling with her thoughts, but fine. To end it all, Shania responded to the call.

Shania massaged her throbbing temple, then placed her head on the table with her hands together. Tom still has his mind.

"Shan's? are you okay?" seno asked from the table behind him,

"Hmm, im fine, just a little sleepy" he replied, Seno nodded, he felt so in the daytime hours like now.

"Ehemmmm..." A slightly raucous voice rattled near Shania's ears, making her reflectively lift her face, fearing if it was her boss Mr. Dave.

"Well, are you here?" Shania sighed lazily looking at the figure of the man in front of her, nothing, this would be a new rumor if she was approached and turned out to be close to the subsidiary owner of this company, he said, moreover, some pairs of eyes are currently not separated from them.

"I have a photo shoot, so stop by here" he said casually as he sat down at Shania's work desk, but Shania hit the man's ass to stand back up immediately.

"Jer, this is my office. This is my place of work. Go before becoming the gossip of the people" said Shania brought her face closer and a little whisper of emphasis.

"They all know me" he replied, "Hey, you guys focus on working and I'll eat at the restaurant across the street" he told everyone, and everyone in the room cheered.

"You can't be reached, but my mom told you to come yesterday" she said later, turning to Shania's annoyed face.

Shania frowned, "Tante Eve why?"

"Year reading. There's Yura coming and you know what's worse? Yura refuses to break up and asks to continue the relationship until marriage" Jeremy holds his hands and tells a story without paying attention around.

Shania is nervous, she doesn't listen well to what Jeremy says, she really feels bad to her office friends, she said, moreover, Rara's sharp gaze in the corner of the room seemed to pay attention to them and did not accept.

"Jer, come out. I don't feel good about them" Pinta Shania pushed Jeremy's body away.

"Yes, Come on..!" Jere took Shania's hand "Guys I'm taking Shania for a minute huh," Jeremy pulled Shania's hand and left the room,

"Where do you know that boy?" shania's other friends started to whisper.

"Hoki, it turns out to be an insider acquaintance"

"You're hot Shan?" jeremy asked when he arrived at the Shania boss' room he took off his hand, then checked Shania's forehead temperature, yes hot

Shania shook her head, then hung up the room, no boss. "Where is Mr Dave?"

"He has a business" replied the man, opening a large curtain that hung in the room for light to enter. "You haven't answered, why didn't you realize you were sick? your body temperature is even hot"

Hearing Jere's reply, Shania let out a rough breath and walked over to the sofa.

"I'll see Tom later tonight" Shania sits limp ignoring Jeremy's questions and concerns about her,

"Then?" Jeremy sat down next to him,

"I want to hear what she's going to say so that I don't continue to be disturbed" Shania leaned on the sofa and closed her eyes, her head growing heavier.

"O.. Okee" Jeremy nodded understanding "You haven't let go yet right? a guy like him you still think, a waste of time"

"You won't understand, because you don't know what it's like to love.it's useless to talk to you" said Shania with a lazy face,

"Ok, I don't know what it's like. I'm quiet" Jeremy said to Shania, after all, Shania's feelings are deep for Tom, and Jeremy knows it.

"My head is so dizzy," Shania looked up at the back of the sofa and kneaded her eel slowly. He still imagined what explanation he would hear later that night, whatever he wished his heart was calmer.

"You haven't had a drink yet?, just a minute I'm looking for Dave's cure here" Jeremy's looking for a cure in Dave's drawer, the man who became the right hand of his father and as the boss of Shania usually always keep the medicine in his drawer,

then the man who works as a model took a glass of water and gave it to Shania.

"If we don't get better we go to the doctor" he said after taking a glass of water from Shania's hand.

"I was going to tell you a lot of things, uh but you're running low" Jere's grunt propped up his hand looking at Shania, and the woman didn't answer even though she heard it.

Long time later, Shania was silent, her eyes were still closed, Jeremy played his phone to drive away boredom. He just hopes that Shania can rest to recover quickly, he had come to want to tell her about his story and Yura, but instead Shania was sick.

Suddenly Shania opens her voice, delirious to be exact, as Jeremy used to see, but this time it's not about her parents, about the jerk guy who cheated on Shania.

"I'm alone now without Tom, what do you think my life would be?"

"Shhht, I'm lazy you're talking about this, Tom keeps Tom again, it's obvious he's hurting you. Forget about what's hard!" jeremy's grumpy look at Shania's condition is sick but still thinking about Tom.

"Isn't there still me? mom and dad are ready to take you if there's anything?"

Not answering anymore, Shania opened her eyes slowly staring at Jeremy with a savage look, looking dazed but her eyes looked strange..

"Why it's so hot" he said, not taking his eyes off Jeremy.

"Why?" the look on Jeremy's face that was upset turned confused and panicked,

Shania continued to look at Jere, difficult to interpret, even the fur of Jere's neck felt goosebumps got that look, Jere immediately took the attitude of bringing her to the hospital, just afraid that Shania was mentally disturbed, psychic until he turned weird like now.

"We go to the doctor now, it looks like your pain is getting worse" Invite him while holding Shania's hand to get up, of course, nothing has happened to Shania, because this is strange and even very strange.

Shania did not say anything, she pushed Jeremy to the other side of the sofa, then he pulled the buttons of his shirt forcibly because it felt so hot, so his clothes did not fall apart and....

"Shan, why are you, hey?"

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