Will I Fell Love Again?
LONGING

Samuel did not believe what he had said just now, how could he have been careless to say the reason, inevitably he had to explain what he meant by that.

"Hmmm actually Miss Diana was very similar to my birth mother, when I came to this village for the first time with my father, and for the first time also I saw my mother, I could not believe what I saw, how there could be people like this in the world, at that time I really did not believe what I saw, my father had realized that a long time ago, but chose not to care about it, especially now that he had a new wife, but to me this was a very extraordinary thing, he said, a feeling that reminded me of my birth mother, after which I found out about Mother Diana, who was, and for the first time I came to the store where my mother worked by carrying clothes that I accidentally broke so I had a reason to come to the store mom, I felt my longing for my biological mother was taken care of at the time, and when I felt so missed for my mother, I would come here for the same reason, she said, until a few months ago I could not come because of a very busy job, and until now I am here still for the same reason, I miss my mother". Samuel told Miss Diana.

Samuel explained the reason at length to Miss Diana and Lylia who were also in front of him would mean coming to this small village with teary eyes, Miss Diana and Lylia did not realize that her cheeks were wet with tears, hearing the reason Samuel had always come to this small village was heartwarming as well as sad.

Diana approached Samuel and hugged him, stroking Samuel's back gently.

"From now on I am your mother, there is no need to break your expensive clothes just to come see mom, come anytime nak”.

Hearing the words of Miss Diana instantly made the tears that had been blocked now flow unbearably, Samuel's defense completely collapsed and was in sorrow for the longing for the figure of his mother, who was still alive, Lylia who saw Samuel crying in the arms of her mother also cried, she did not expect that the man who had looked handsome and strong could also cry sobbing like that.

"Thank you ma'am, I'm sorry it's so embarrassing, I'm showing my weak side like this".

Samuel replied that feeling embarrassed, while wiping his cheek Samuel improved his appearance, he realized that in front of him was Lylia sitting down and crying, too, this was something Samuel did not want to show anyone, but he could not control his feelings when it came to his mother.

Lylia improved her appearance as well and started to melt the atmosphere to get out of this blue hariu zone, and started to open up the conversation.

"mother.there's something I want to say about what I said earlier"

Lylia opened the conversation to break the blue atmosphere earlier.

"Yes, say it" replied diana.

"Mother, I have previously expressed my intention to work in the city of Appenzel, and as you know next week I will start working, so I will leave in two days, monday I have to go to work, and this is Wednesday about where I live I have taken care of it, the mother is worried, and luckily samuel helped me in finding a place to live, so it's all done, I hope you support me and pray for me to start over.

Hearing that her mother did not respond much, Miss Diana understood Lylia's condition, if she continued here there was no hope for her to start her new life, she said, there are too many memories of Jiordan in this village.

"Well, if that's your decision, I always pray for you my son, and Samuel, don't you live in Appenzel? I'm asking you to take care of Lylia like your own sister, as you know Lylia has an older brother there, but she lives in a military barracks, Lylia if you see Jonathan introduce your brother to Samuel,

“Yes mom, I would be happy to take care of her like my own sister” Samuel said with a happy smile because he felt relied on by Miss Diana.

Feeling too long at the house of Miss Diana Samuel also said goodbye, the day began to dark and the sky looks cloudy, “it looks like rain will fall heavily”. Inner Samuel.

"Well Mom, I have to go now, my mini-mala will visit my relatives, maybe I will go back to the city of Appenzel tomorrow morning, this is my business card, there is my phone number, there is my phone number, Lylia.. call me when I want to go to the city of Appenzel, I will take the time to pick you up" explained Samuel.

"Ahh, no I don't want to trouble you anymore, I've already troubled you a lot today" replied Lylia who looked presumptuous.

"No.. It's not at all troublesome, haven't you been to the city of Appenzel? you can get lost there if you're alone, so please call me when you're leaving or when you get to the bus terminal, or can I just ask for your phone number?"

Samuel asked who felt it would be faster if he had Lylia's phone number, Lylia might not call him because she felt awkward.

"phone number? Of course" Lylia wrote her phone number on a piece of paper because Samuel's phone ran out of battery.

"Well, I was looking forward to that day, mother, Lylia, I left first"., said samuel, and hurried out to his car parked under an oak tree across the street from Lylia's house.

"Yes, be careful on the road, come again another time". Said Miss Diana waving her hands back from Samuel with a smile and walked to her car.

“why did he park his car so far? I'm sure our home page is fit to park the car even if only one car”. Lylia said to Samuel.

"Lylia... Since when did you get close to Samuel?"

Ask Miss Diana who was curious about the closeness of Lylia and Samuel, even though they were just getting acquainted.

"I don't know mom either, it just flows, Samuel is very friendly and nice, talking to him feels comfortable maybe because it makes us easy to interact, it's easy to interact, and also Samuel said that he used to see me at Uncle Will's flower shop do you know that? almost every time she came to this village she saw me at the uncle's flower shop" Lylia told her mother.

"really?? there seems to be another reason why she comes to this village so often, and mother seeing that she feels comfortable talking to you, maybe she is interested in you Lylia".

ma'am diana replied jokingly, who was smiling back in disbelief by Lylia.

Lylia and Miss Diana entered the house while continuing the conversation.

"but I'm not surprised if it's you, because you always feel comfortable when talking to anyone, maybe because your job when selling flowers is easy to interact with anyone, he said, but as Samuel's mother remembered was different, as long as she knew him she didn't seem to interact much with others, when Samuel came to the mother's shop too she just looked at the mother who was busy fixing her clothes, and the new mother knows today the reason why she looks at the mother like that, the mother is also sad about losing her, but the mother is also happy if the mother can be the cure for her longing, she said, that most painful longing when we miss someone who is no longer in this world, I understand that longing". Said Miss Diana while remembering her late husband who died in the battlefield.

lylia replied looking sad, Miss Diana understood what Lylia meant, it could not be denied that Lylia still missed Jiordan.

"My mother went into the room first, it seemed like my head was a little dizzy".

Lylia went into her room, Miss Diana seemed to understand with Lylia's feelings.

"alright, take a break, son, I will deliver medicine to your room" said Miss Diana.

“It's okay mom, I'll take it myself, mom rest too” Lylia told her mother.

In Lylia's room immediately dropped her body onto the mattress, while hugging the pillow on her small face, Lylia cried because her longing for Jiordan was still not faded, there were times where Lylia missed Jiordan so much, and at the same time she also felt her heart break unceasingly, she hated the moment her tears fell just from remembering the man, she said, but at the same time he was also unable to control his feelings, with the music in the room making Lylia's mood more mellow, with the music in the room, in addition, outside it looks raining down with a rush to wet the window curtain of her room, with heavy Lylia wake up to close the room window so as not to wet the floor, with heavy Lylia wake up to close the window so as not to wet the floor, when about to close the window Lylia let the rain water drench her face, she extended her hand out the window to feel the cold rain, Lylia closed her eyes and let her tears flow along with the rainwater, half her body was already wet, Lylia had not intended to move out of the window, she continued to let herself get wet in the rain, she said, and at the same time his music player played his favorite song that somehow fits his current state.

~music~

Don't hide

Please, don't hide

Hide from what is happening

Your heart shouldn't be the key

Inquired

Try asking everyone

Here I try to survive

Express everything I feel

You need me

You shut me up

You left me

Disable my memory

Write about him

Blot out my memories of him

Eliminate my memories

If it's about him

I want to forget it

Stall my memory

Write about him

I want to forget it

Hearing this song makes Lylia unable to stand up and immediately Lylia fell on the floor, crying sobbing, her crying voice covered by the swift sound of rain, and, no one heard her cries of sadness.