Will I Fell Love Again?
POV LYLIA

The day shows at one o'clock in the afternoon. Samuel and Lylia were already preparing to head back to the city of Appenzell. Ever since the incident, Lylia had been feeling a little calm, now she really did not want to remember Jiordan anymore. for now Lylia focused on Samuel.

susana Samuel's heart was cheerful, before leaving Samuel bought a bouquet of white roses to give to Miss Diana. Miss Diana recalled the shocking incident this morning. Lylia is in love with Samuel and soon Samuel says he wants to propose to Lylia in front of a crowd. Samuel was eager to introduce Lylia to his colleagues.

On the other hand in a Villa in the hills where Jiordan was with his wife. Jiordan and his wife were getting ready to go back to the city of Appenzell.Jiordan's face looked bad and his wife realized there was something strange about Jiordan's behavior since this morning, moreover, there was a wound on the tip of his lips, when asked Jiordan reasoned to punch his friend when they practiced boxing.

"Are you really okay? looks like you've been feeling bad since this morning. Did something happen last night?" selena asked Jiordan who was cleaning things.

"Nothing happened last night I just drank too much" Jiordan replied as she continued to stuff her clothes into the suitcase.

"You know? yesterday afternoon I accidentally eavesdropped on your mother's conversation with your sister. Who is Lylia?" as soon as Jiordan's body freezes, a name that his wife Selena never expected would speak.

"Is he your acquaintance?" selena asked Jiordan.

"Contactments? of course, he is also a person from this village, indeed what are you hearing?" jiordan asks who wants to be sure what his wife Selena knows.

"Hmm. not much, I just heard that she was depressed because she was in a marriage residence by her boyfriend after waiting for more than four years, I felt sorry for him even though we didn't know each other, but it was a pity that he wasted his time only on unfaithful men, if I were him I would have had another man maybe not even until a month I was in the living I'd been dating someone else. Having a long distance relationship was indeed very vulnerable, indeed, what makes a woman faithful for four years?" said Selena who felt sorry for Lylia's life story. Jiordan was a little relieved that Selena did not know about herself and Lylia.

"Yaa... who knows it turns out he also has an affair here right? we never know, already than you think of things that are not important mending you take vitamins so as not to nausea." said Jiordan who feeds vitamins to his wife who is pregnant young.

On the other hand Lylia was already in the car, they had already started to make the journey home. Lylia sat down while looking at the scenery outside that showed the landscape of Grindelwad village that was never not beautiful.but the difference is that at this time Lylia just looked on without admiration, her mind kept spinning considering the events of last night.

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POV LYLIA

From so many places and times why do I have to meet him now? my whole body was trembling, my head was dizzy, the injured leg was making me feel so humiliating right now, why would I have to meet him with this look? though I had planned that if I met him I would be in my best situation, not even the weak and humiliating side like this.why did he come to me this time?

"Jiordan..!?" lylia was surprised.

B**what is this? I can't fall, I have to get up and go. But my legs can't move, why does my body keep shaking?

"Lilya? how are you doing!?" jiordan asked with a mature and mature face, Lylia recognized the face even though she had not met for four years, a mature and perfect handsome body and face, although different, but Lylia immediately recognized Jiordan, who had not met her, so did Jiordan who immediately knew if it was Lylia, who was, changes for four years make Lylia look very beautiful with a beautiful body and certainly more mature is very different from four years ago where they are still just a teenager but are now both adults. but for four years one thing that has not changed from Lylia is her love and loyalty to you Jiordan has never changed, but now all has been destroyed, jiordan's handsome face was unable to repair Lylia's heart that had been shattered into pieces.

What say? howareyou? is he crazy? after dumping me and now he's coming to ask me news? I want to feel like I hit him on the head with this stick, but my whole body is shaking so much, why is it like this? is it because I'm too shocked?

"You.. you. I don't want to see you go!" said Lylia who stuttered in shock.

I have to get out of here.fucking legs, why not move. My head is also very dizzy, I have to be strong in order to get out of this situation.

"Lylia. I don't know where to start, but I really want to apologize to you, I heard from my friends if you left the village not long ago, but why are you back now?" jiordan asked with a face that showed sadness, I don't know what Jiordan felt when he saw Lylia's current condition.

"It's none of your business!" I have to get out of here, this situation is so embarrassing, I don't want to be pityed by her, why doesn't my body stop shaking? ahh shit my tears are almost dripping, I don't want to cry anymore, my tears have been so much I spilled just for men like him. I had to force my legs to walk. Damn it looks like I'm going to fall, my eyes are starting to blur, my head is so dizzy. Samuel..where are you?

When Lylia will fall down Jiordan swiftly holding Lylia's body that will fall but ended up in the arms of Jiordan realized that Lylia was rebelling.

Nah! don't touch me, you better let me fall and pass out than be in your arms like this.

"Take me off.! don't touch me.!" with a trembling voice Lylia forced herself to ask to be released from Jiordan's embrace.

"Who said he was alone!? Untie her.! are you deaf? didn't he ask to be let go!?" samuel said with anger.

Samuel...why are you taking so long? I. I think I'm gonna faint right now.

"You!? aren't you the CEO of the Weissbad Hotel? what are you doing here? what's your relationship with Lylia?" jiordan asked who was surprised by the presence of Samuel who was also very close to Lylia as if they were lovers.

"I'm pretty sure that's none of your business! just take care of your wife.it looks like she needs you there more.!" samuel said, pointing out the direction where Jiordan's wife was nauseous across the street, seeing that Jiordan was panicking and leaving Lylia and Samuel.

Finally he left, did he bring his wife here? wife pregnant? ahh.. I can't stand it anymore, everything is very confusing and my energy feels drained. I heard the conversation of Samuel and Abisal but everything seems vague, vague, I couldn't hear clearly but one thing I could confirm, Samuel's voice was heavy, he looked very angry.

my heart hurts so much, is this trauma? can the liver store memories of pain? tomorrow I will finish everything with Jiordan, I will meet him, for now I will rest because there is nothing I can do with the current conditions.

the morning came my head hurt maybe because of the night wind that made me catch a cold, I seemed to wake up bad luck, no voice call from mother as usual, no voice call from mother as usual, probably because of last night's thing that made mom let me sleep through the day.

I must get ready to go to meet Jiordan, there is no time left.I will have to go back to Appenzell with Samuel, so I must hurry to see Jiordan, I must hurry to meet Jiordan, I want to continue to live without any sense of the past.I have decided to open my heart to Samuel, I do not want to disappoint people who have been very kind and sincere to me.

uh! I had to invite Lean to come with me to meet Jiordan. There was no time left, I had to hurry. But before that I had to contact Lean first, first, I don't know why I was so excited this morning, my legs don't hurt as much as they're okay.

Lean was waiting for me in the usual place I had to hurry up, I would immediately finish this all. So that the pain that was in my heart would soon disappear, she said, because of the cause of the pain in my heart because of the feeling of unwillingness, not willing to be thrown away, at least this must be resolved with four eyes.

Because I was so excited I kept running until I didn't realize my leg was in pain and also blisters until Samuel finally realized me.

"Liila! you why? what's up?" Samuel asked with worry.

"Samuel let me go, I have to go somewhere" said Lylia who wanted to throw Samuel's hand tightly clasped her hand, of course, Samuel's hand was not that easy to take off.

"Li!! sober up!! your legs are bleeding! for God's sake Lylia said what's wrong? what are you going to do!?" Samuel shouted in frustration at Lylia's behavior.

*Samuel.. This is the first time you've shouted to me, what have I done? instantly my body collapsed and the tears that I have endured since last night finally overflowed. my guilt for Samuel has not been able to fully open my heart to him, but I have promised and again I have done things that I should not have done just because of my loneliness, my longing is not fulfilled, and also my shame on Jiordan. My weak side that I do not want to show him, I do not want to look pitiful in front of him, I do not want to look pitiful in front of him, but it's all beyond my control, it seems like my misfortune isn't over.

I who fell and cried brought into the house by Samuel.why people as good as him should be involved in my misfortune and difficulties.

inside, as usual, my mother was hysterical when she saw something happen, but as if she understood that she was not asking strange things, she waited until I calmed down. but not long after Lean came, it seems usual that Lean was always there when I was in trouble. Seeing Lean who was crying because I made me sadder, you all this sadness should I stop immediately, want to until when I keep like this? I have to forget everything.I will really marry Samuel and make everything all right.Mommy no longer needs to worry about me being alone and mom can focus on sending Abisal to school. and also Samuel, a very kind and sincere man.from the beginning of our introductions to this day he continues to be by my side, patiently and sincerely helping me in many ways, he continued to help me in many ways, as if his love continued to overflow only for me. I would accept Samuel wholeheartedly, I was sure, over time my love would grow to his*.

"Lilya? what happened to you?" lean asked who hugged Lylia when he saw that Lylia had calmed down a little.

"I'm fine Lean, I just fell over, sorry I made you wait a long time" Lylia said with a faint smile.

"Ah.. Lean introduce this Samuel, he's my fiancee." said Lylia who introduced Samuel as her fiance.

"What!?" Lean was shocked to hear Lylia's confession.

"Yes Lean, Samuel is my fiancee, I'm getting married to him, Samuel has proposed to me not long ago" Lylia said. Miss Diana was so happy, so was Samuel.

*finally I revealed something I did not want to reveal. At first I did not want my relationship with Samuel to be known by anyone, especially by my mother. but today I realized that all this time I was holding myself back, and closed my heart to Samuel because I still wanted Jiordan, but after an accidental meeting last night, I can assure myself that there is no place for Jiordan in my heart, only hatred and disgust.

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