Professor Ling I Love You
Despondent

I just kept smiling and holding as much pleasure as possible inside me back then, it was truly a great blessing for me to be carried by a professor Ling and to be carried straight into his car at the time, even when I was sitting in his car he kept watching me until he put on his seatbelt, which reminded him.

I was too focused on looking at Professor Ling's very handsome face and was so baper at that moment, that I forgot his seatbelt.

"Hey, stop looking at me and put on your seat belt." Said to me at that time.

"Well, I'll wear it." I replied while smiling at him.

Unfortunately when I was about to pull the belt, it was very difficult and I always failed to wear it, until professor Ling, who was ready to drive, might be a little upset with me for taking too long to put his seatbelt on, which made him stifled by me, he just told me to shut up and help me put it on, even though he yelled at me but I still felt happy and did not mind him at all, there was precisely I felt very happy because he even helped me to attach the seat belt.

"Aishh.Why did you take so long, get out there, let me just put it on, you son of a bitch, put on a seatbelt you're not a dick!" Snapped professor Ling to me at that moment.

"That's because there's you, everyone would be misfocused and nervous in front of people in their tribe." I said slowly while keeping my head down.

Actually I was very embarrassed to speak openly like that to him, but how else could I not help myself not to speak honestly to him, he said, and professor Ling himself just immediately cleared his throat slowly while immediately away from me after he finished putting his seat belt on me at that time.

"Ekhm.... Hey, I'm warning you, next time you don't dare speak so plainly about how you feel about me." Professor Ling said to me with her face looking quite nervous.

He also immediately started his car and quickly drove the car slowly, leaving the laboratory yard area and immediately went to his residence at that time while I myself continued to feel astonished and confused.

"Eumm...but professor Ling why can't I say it, I'm just being honest, that I like you, what's wrong?" I asked him again.

And to my surprise, professor Ling instead yelled at me even louder than before back then, I also did not expect that he could yell at me that hard, either, maybe he was really very angry with me, when I just talked about something with facts that happened with the feelings I felt for him.

"Aishh .why are you so chatty, if I said no, no! The point is you don't talk like that! Anyway, I already knew you liked me and kept getting your head after me, so you don't have to say it anymore, it's just embarrassing!" Reply he made me a little hurt by his words.

But compared to the heartache I feel more desperate to pursue professor Ling, because there have been so many ways that I have done so far, he said, but no one has succeeded in getting love or reciprocation from him, he has always ignored me, the turn now just wants to get a reply from him, he said, uh even yelled like this and it turns out that I was the one who was too confident with him, when in fact this Ling professor just kept on kissing me, making me feel even more desperate to pursue him.

"Heumm...Well, I won't talk to you like that, but that means you forbid me from going after you?" I replied while asking him again.

"Yes. That's you know, why else you're still talking about it, just shut up and don't think of anything else, I'm taking you home to my house because I can't bear to let women stay in the lab alone, I'm still a human being with a conscience, if this were to happen to another woman I'd do the same." Reply he confirmed to me.

I just let out a lethargic breath, and really feeling really sad right now, I think I'm one step ahead to approach professor Ling, in fact even more minus.

"Hmmm.iya professor Ling." My reply bowed languidly to him.

I kept quiet on the way until I got to his residence, there was no mood for me to talk, even though I wanted me to remember something that he warned me so hard that he yelled at me so hard, maybe professor Ling was feeling uneasy and irritated because I kept telling everyone that I liked Professor Ling, until everyone in the lab knew about it, but I didn't really mean to do any of that either.

Everything just happened and I couldn't stop, so I couldn't do anything, dodging wasn't the right thing either.

For I could not lie to them all about my feelings and I could not answer them at all, so that I kept quiet when they all asked me that I liked Professor Ling, so they all concluded that my silence was the correct answer, but everything they thought was true.

So how can I avoid saying from them.

Until I when I was about to enter Professor Ling's room instead pulled my hand and held me quite firmly back then.

"What's the matter professor Ling, why hold my hand?" I asked him while staring at my hand which he was holding back at that moment.

Professor Ling quickly let go of his hand grip to my hand quickly and immediately looked a bit nervous as well.

"Well.aaahh.... Where are you going to eat first?" Ask him at that time.

"No professor, I want to sleep in the room, and anyway you only provide a room for me to stay in, not with dinner, I don't respond to you, either, if I'm gonna have dinner, we're gonna have to go outside." My reply to him was still with a lethargic face back then.

As soon as I went to the guest room and closed the door quickly, I really felt desperate and did not want to have much excessive expectations of professor Ling anymore, for I do not want to be too in love with him, and then I too am sick and bear it all myself, and he would definitely blame myself for it being me who had high hopes on him from the beginning, even though Xinxin and Yimin had also told me to give up on Professor Ling, but I myself am stubborn and still want to keep chasing after him despite several times feeling failure and until now my brain still wants to pursue him and continue to have a strong desire to approach him.

I think maybe it's time I gave up and stopped so as not to continue to force myself on a will that I can't determine for sure.

While on the other hand Ling professor actually widened his eyes in surprise, he felt unacceptable because Zhan Tao actually refused an offer from him, because apparently at that time professor Ling was not really just asking questions, but he did want to have dinner with Zhan Tao, he said, it was just that Zhan Tao who had already answered his words first and cut off his conversation from the beginning so that he did not have time to say his initial intention.

Even though professor Ling had even bought a lot of food supplies in his fridge back then.

"Aaahh.I've bought a lot of food because I'm afraid you're starving, but she's turning me down like this, aishh, for whatever reason before I even bought a lot of food supplies, I can't cook either!" Grumpily professor Ling who was feeling a little disappointed at that moment.

Irritated at failing to take Zhan Tao to dinner, professor Ling immediately returned to his room with a rough breath and tried not to care about all the things he was thinking at the time.

"Aaaaahhhh, never mind, why am I thinking of such an insignificant matter like this, so it's not me once." Immediately close the room door tightly.

In the morning I woke up a little afternoon, after all this day off I immediately tidied up the bed I used last night, I also helped professor Ling to clean up the entire house, after I had just finished mopping the floor and wiping the table, professor Ling had just walked out of his room with his hair still half wet back then.

And to my surprise, he suddenly told me to help him dry his hair.

"Hey, what are you doing wiping my desk, come here and don't just wipe the stuff in this house." Say him to me.

Immediately I got up and approached him closer.

"I just want to clean up all your houses in thanks for taking me in and letting me sleep here twice, I don't have money to pay rent so I'll just clean your house." Reply to him.

Professor Ling continued to hold back a laugh when she heard the answer from Zhan Tao who was famous for being very funny to her. However, because he did not want to be considered close-up and was considered like laughing at Zhan Tao, he held a smile with all his strength at that time.

"Ffftt.he's really very silly, there's-there's that thought." Inner professor Ling at that time.

"Hey.you don't have to do any of that, you I consider a guest in my house not a maid, so stop cleaning up all my contents, please, I'm gonna pay a blind salary to the waitress who used to clean my house." Reply to me again.

I nodded obediently to him, and immediately apologized for not doing that again.

"You're so sorry, I I thought you didn't have a waitress." Reply to him.

"I have, that's my servant." Reply to him while pointing towards a cleaning robot there.

Seeing that I immediately opened my eyes wide and raised both of my eyebrows upwards, feeling very astonished by what a genius like him thought, where professor Ling instead pointed towards a cleaning robot that continued to go by turning and moving to and fro continuously sweeping everything.

I don't think there's such a robot in his house because the last time I saw just a small robot, apparently there was a new robot that was bigger than before.

"Wahh...it seems like your robot is indeed better at cleaning the house, compared to me, haha.iya, I shouldn't have to bother doing all this." Reply to him.

I immediately put the washcloth and other cleaning tools to where I had gotten them before, and then I said goodbye to him to go home.

"Then I go, it's already noon, professor Ling thanks for the ride." I said to him.

But he called me when I turned around and was about to leave at that moment, he kept telling me to go back to him, when I no longer wanted to face him, since I realized that I would not be able to reach it, it made me even more sick and continued to like professor Ling, it would be hard for me to move on from him if I lingered on his face like I am doing right now, and it would all be very annoying if I really could not let go of him in my mind.

"Heh wait for Zhan Tao!" Shouts he held me back then.

"AA...aaa...aaahhh..yes what is Professor Ling?" I asked him at that time.

"Come here, you can't just leave, help me first." Reply to me.

I went up to him and he gave me a hairdryer.

"What do I need to help?" I ask him again.

"Take this!" Reply to him while giving the hairdryer to me.

"Eehh...this is what, my hair is dry why did you give me this tool?" I asked for confusion while continuing to refuse behind the hairdryer.

"Stupid! Who gave it to dry your hair, of course it was for me, quickly you helped me dry my hair." Reply to me while directly sitting on the sofa at that time.

I continued to be flabbergasted and stared in astonishment at professor Ling at that time, because all of this looked like it was not the Ling professor I knew before, let alone the way he had me dry his hair, all of this seems very strange and awkward to me.

"Why are you quiet, let's hurry." He urged me again.

Although I was flabbergasted by the astonishment and confusion, but I still did it even though I was a little hesitant, because professor Ling himself kept urging me relentlessly and told me to do it quickly right then and there.