Nanny And Duda
Chapters 87. Rafa's Grief

Dilla immediately followed Rafa upstairs. Dilla found Rafa who was pura pura sleeping on the bed. Dilla pulled out the blanket she was wearing with Rafa.

"Rafa," call Dilla.

Rafa quiet.

"Rafa forgive Mommy if Mommy makes Rafa mad ya."

Rafa was silent.

"Will Rafa never see Mommy again" Dilla said.

Rafa began to wake up, he looked at Dilla with tears on his cheeks.

"Why Rafa is crying baby, if Rafa is hurt or sick, here tell Sam Mommy to let Mommy take medicine," said Dilla worried.

Dilla immediately checked Rafa's body, Rafa instead hugged Dilla's neck tightly with tears that kept coming out. Dilla stopped checking Rafa's body and patted Rafa's shoulder slowly. 

"Whether Rafa wants to tell Mommy the same story, Mommy will always hear what Rafa wants to tell the story" said Dilla softly.

Rafa still hugged Dilla tightly. Dilla will wait until Rafa tells her story.

"Mommy," call Rafa slowly.

"Yes dear" said Dilla.

"Mommy will never leave Rafa, right?" ask Rafa.

Dilla is silent, Dilla can't promise because she doesn't know how fate will bring her later. If Dilla can choose she wants to always be in this house. Dilla was comfortable in this house. But Dilla's self-conscious that she's not ready for who in this house. He will someday have his own family. Unless he and Ryan can be together. 

"Mommy can't promise Rafa, but Mommy promises to always love you both now and later" Dilla replied honestly. 

Dilla did not want to give Rafa false hope because it was only to please Rafa for a moment..

Rafa let go of his embrace hearing Dilla's reply. Rafa was not satisfied with Dilla's answer.

"Did Mommy not care about Rafa anymore" said Rafa sadly.

Rafa's tears flowed back, Dilla gently wiped those tears away.

"I mean Mommy is not so dear, Mommy means like this, Rafa know if when we grow up, later we will become Daddy and Mommy?" ask Dilla heart.

Rafa nodded his head understanding. Rafa who is basically good at understanding Dilla's words.

"So someday Mommy will be like that too. Mommy will also have Daddy Mommy herself" Dilla said.

"Why not be a Mommy Daddy Rafa aja," proposed Rafa.

"Rafa also knows that his Daddy Rafa has Mommy Jelita."

"Rafa wants Mommy to be Mommy Rafa," Rafa asked.

"Rafa must not be so dear, however Mommy Jelita is her Mommy Rafa, Rafa must be devoted to Mommy Jelita. Rafa must also know that we can't be a bad boy" advises Dilla.

Rafa was silent again.

"Does Rafa now want to tell Mommy why Rafa still won't forgive Mommy Jelita?" Dilla asked the original topic again.

Rafa looked at Dilla in focus, Rafa could see the face of Mommy Dilla who patiently faced them. Rafa hugged Dilla.

" Rafa, Rafa is afraid of Mommy" said Rafa quietly with a trembling tone.

Even though Dilla could hear it slowly.

"Fear why emm."

Dilla knew which Mommy meant Rafa.

"But Mommy Rafa has started to change baby, why fear, let's tell Mommy."

"Rafa is afraid that if Mommy leaves Rafa again like he used to be, Rafa does not want to be left alone anymore. It hurts here, Mommy," said Rafa, squeezing his chest.

"When Rafa really wants to play with Mommy but Mommy says he's always busy. Mommy never had time for Rafa. Even when Rafa was sick Mommy never cared for and cared for Rafa, just like Mommy took care of Rio first. Rafa also wants to be spoiled by Mommy," said Rafa told his uncle.

Dilla felt sorry for Rafa, she also felt sad. Dilla had indeed lost her parents but there were still Uncle and Aunt who were paying attention to her.

"So what, Rafa won't forgive Mommy Jelita?" ask Dilla.

"Rafa doesn't want to see him anymore. Rafa hopes he never shows up in Rafa's life again. Now Rafa has a new mommy," replied Rafa angrily.

"Rafa must not speak so dearly, words are a prayer what if Mommy really went later" Dilla said.

"Rafa doesn't want to be here sick again for the second time Mommy, it feels tight," pointed Rafa in his chest.

"Rafa, can't Rafa give Mommy Jelita a second chance. Everyone who wants to change for the better needs to be given a second chance. And Mommy hopes Rafa can give Mommy Jelita a second chance."

"Now try Rafa imagine if Mommy made a mistake, does Rafa also not want to forgive Mommy?" tanya Dilla fishing Rafa.

"Rafa will always forgive Mommy anyway" Rafa replied quickly.

"Well then try Rafa to forgive and give Mommy Jelita a second chance. If Rafa cannot forgive immediately, Rafa could start from trying to accept the presence of Mommy Jelita next to Rafa. If if Mommy Rafa can change, Rafa must be able to forgive Mommy Jelita yes," said Dilla long bushy.

"But Rafa is afraid of Mommy."

"Rafa need not be afraid, there is Mommy beside Rafa, Mommy Jelita is also trying to get better again."

"How will Rafa try to forgive Mommy Jelita?" 

Rafa nodded his head doubtfully.

"Well this is the new Rafa that Mommy knows, Rafa should just sleep first yes, Rafa must be tired."

Dilla helps Rafa fall.

"Look down, there's Mommy next to Rafa, Mommy will always help Rafa" Dilla said.

Rafa started to close his eyes because he was tired. After making sure Rafa sleeps, Dilla immediately comes out.

***

Jelita who is worried about Rafa also follows Rafa. Jelita leaves Reza and Rio to Mina. Jelita wants to take a peek at Rafa's conversation with Dilla. He did not dare to enter, but his intention was to undo it because he heard Rafa's words.

"Rafa doesn't want to see him anymore. Rafa hopes he never shows up in Rafa's life again. Now Rafa's got a new Mommy."

Jelita is shocked, Jelita never imagined that Rafa wants her out of Rafa's life. With Jelita's limp steps away from the place, he was no longer able to hear the continued conversation of Rafa and Dilla.

Jelita was convinced that this was the karma she had to accept. Rafa had to leave him. While walking Jelita patted hard chest that hurt.

'I must stay away from Rafa so that Rafa will forgive me, Lord this hurts so much. Maybe all this time, this is what Rafa has been feeling. I can't forgive myself like this. If Rafa does want me to stay away then I will go far away as Rafa can be happy.'

Jelita who only heard a piece of talk misunderstood.

Dafa who happened to pass by prevented Jelita from hitting her chest. Jelita immediately embraced Dafa tightly while crying silently. Dafa won't ask first, Jelita will definitely need some time. Dafa led her to their room. Dafa did not want others to see this weak beauty. His wife is a strong man.

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