My Stepmom My First Love
Chapter 30 Still holding back feelings

Arman and Alana return to their home after spending a day shopping and changing Arman's appearance.

When they arrived Arman immediately asked Mr. Tono, his gardener took out many of their extraordinary items.

There are at least fifteen paper bags containing various clothes and shoes belonging to Arman and Alana.

Upon entering the house the assistants who work at the house were surprised and amazed by Arman's drastic changes.

Even Bi Siti rubbed her eyes as if she could not believe that it was her employer.

"What's bi? See ghosts?" Arman who teased Bi Siti by bringing her face closer just in front of the middle-aged woman.

"Oh Jeez..." Instantly Bi Siti was aghast and almost staggered.

Arman just laughed at the behavior of his assistant. A very rare sight during this time. Seeing Arman laughing freely without showing his serious face.

Bi Siti who has worked for Arman also smiled. The first time I saw the master looked so human. There is absolutely no cruel side that usually makes everyone tense.

"Mas ih, not good old man's godain tablets" Alana said.

"Oh sorry Bi, the end of Bi Siti was dumbfounded from earlier." Arman still reflects on his smile.

"nothin' sir, I'm just surprised to see you look so handsome and young" bi siti's smile bashfully.

"My husband is handsome Bi" said Alana while hugging Arman's waist.

Bi Siti nodded immediately. Apparently not only Arman but Alana also looks cheerful. I don't know what they're doing today but for sure everyone in the house seems happy to see their harmonious employer.

Alana who looked exhausted immediately escorted Arman to her room. He did not want his wife to have any problems with her pregnancy.

"Rest yes, sorry today troubles you." said Arman while laying Alana on her bed.

Alana was stunned to see Arman's gentle treatment. Especially with his new appearance Arman is really charming. It is true said his friends that the mature man is more sexy.

Alana unconsciously smiled to herself while watching Arman.

"Hey.." Arman's call immediately broke Alana's daydream.

"Eh.. Yes, mas, handsome." chirped Alana.

Arman was even more astonished by his wife's behavior.

"Easy-after.. Rest gih. You're getting worse at this." grumbled Arman.

Arman moved out of Alana's room. He still limits himself. Actually Arman misses Alana touch so much but she is still afraid if it will endanger her pregnancy.

Arman is self-conscious if he will not be able to give offspring to Alana if something happens to her pregnancy. She also would not willing Alana to be touched by another man again.

While Alana can only grunt slowly to see the departure of Arman. She wants to be close to Arman but she can't force him. Perhaps the pain of his heart was so deep to him that he had been pregnant with another man's child.

But that makes him wonder why Arman so keep Alana's pregnancy. In fact, he was always critical of something that concerned about his content.

Alana is still confused by her own feelings. She can't be sure if she's starting to love Arman yet when she's with him she feels calmer and more secure.

The comfort provided by Arman is indeed a big impact. The sight of Alana who used to be so scared and hated slowly began to disappear from her mind.

Alana's tears flowed back. His guilt kept making him so low.

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The night changed in the morning, sunlight began to radiate through the glass window and white curtains in Alana's room.

Slowly Alana started to blink her eyes. The drowsiness that was still left made him so lazy to wake up.

But the knock on the door of his room continued to sound making him inevitably have to open his eyes immediately.

"Yiya Bi.. Just sec. I'm still sleepy." whined Alana who was about to close her eyes. He doesn't care what time it is.

It was hard to sleep last night. There was a sense of uneasiness that continued to cloud his mind. So now he is late to wake up in the morning.

But not long after he heard the door open with heavy footsteps approaching him.

"Alana, wake.. What time is it? We'll have an appointment with the doctor." The man's heavy voice immediately disturbed him.

Arman is now sitting on the edge of the bed while gently rubbing Alana's cheeks.

"Mas.. I'm still sleepy." muttered Alana still closing her eyes.

"Darling... Come onl. It's eight in the morning" Arman said.

Alana instantly slid. He doesn't usually wake up this late. He immediately sat down in a quick movement.

"Hey slowly" said Arman holding Alana's shoulder.

"Mas.. How not to wake me up from earlier." protested Alana.

"From now Bi Siti called you but there was no response. Must have stayed up last night again yes" said Arman.

Alana nodded slowly. He grunted softly. But when he saw Arman's face he was stunned. How this guy is getting more and more handsome. With plain white t-shirt plated plaid flannel shirt as well as black jeans.

"Wake up, take a shower before we continue to eat breakfast" said Arman. Alana obeyed him.

After a while, Alana finished her shower. He simply wrapped the towel around his body while running towards the room. It was unexpected that Arman was waiting for him in the room with a tray of food and milk complete with fruits.

"Alana don't run." cried Arman.

Alana who was surprised immediately stopped but she lost balance until her body almost slammed.

Luckily, Arman caught him. The incident did not hurt him.

Unexpectedly, the towel worn by Alana was actually released until part of her body was exposed.

Arman was stunned to see the beautiful scenery in front of him. He swallowed his saliva. But as if consciously and quickly Arman covered Alana's body and lifted her towards her bed.

Arman instantly averted his gaze while desperately holding back his desires.

"I'm sorry." said Alana Lirih.

Arman just nodded slowly. Then walk to the balcony.

"Quick get dressed and eat your breakfast" Arman said briefly.

Why is Alana feeling so mixed up. Moreover, Arman's attitude that seemed so cold increasingly convinced Alana that Arman now really does not want it.

Because of the influence of her pregnancy hormone Alana was not able to withstand her sadness. Secretly he began to sob. He cursed himself in the heart.

While Arman who was waiting on the balcony accidentally heard the sound of sobs.

Immediately Arman approached Alana. He saw his wife crying while covering her face with both palms.

"Alana, what's wrong? Why crying?" Arman's voice was so soft as he rubbed Alana's hair which was still half wet.

"Am I so despicable in Mas Arman's eyes that Mas's disgust doesn't want to see me?" alana said with her sobs.

"N-not so Alana. L'm.. I just can't do it yet. I'm afraid of hurting you. Sorry" said Arman.

Alana could only stare disappointedly at the man in front of her. His passionate feelings actually increasingly get rejection from Arman.

It was as if fate was punishing him. If in the past Alana always tried to avoid Arman now it is Alana who continues to pursue Arman.