My Stepmom My First Love
Chapter 25 Living in Memories

Three days passed, Alana was finally allowed to go home. I don't know why when he heard that he was going home it felt like Alana was very reluctant.

Returning to that house would only add to his longing for Andra. Especially now that she is pregnant with her child.

Helaan rough breathing many times Alana exhaled while she was in the car. The journey home was very heavy.

Arman who was sitting next to him was aware of Alana's destruction.

"Alana, are you okay?" ask Arman.

Alana nodded slowly. Trying to look ordinary when his heart is raging.

"Want to buy something? Or go somewhere?" ask Arman slowly.

Alana was silent for a moment. Then he tried to say yes to Arman.

"What can.. I went to that port. I-I just wanted to remember Andra for a moment" Alana said hesitantly.

Arman also nodded. Then instruct the driver to go to the port.

But before that they stopped by the flower shop. Alana wants to bring flowers to commemorate Andra. She chose the white lilies that were her favorite.

Arman bought her a bouquet of white lilies.

Until they were in the port where Andra experienced the tragic incident. Even at that location there is still a police line to mark the TKP.

Alana's gaze became nanar when remembering the terrible incident. His chest was rumbling and his heart was beating hard.

Still ringing in his ear how the sound of the bang of the firearm that muttered each other to topple Andra.

Alana had no power to endure her grief. His body felt increasingly limp and finally sat on the ground. Alana cried as she hugged the lily she was carrying.

Arman immediately went to support Alana's body. But the woman refused to stand up, finally Arman hugged her from behind. Trying to strengthen Alana.

The sound of sobs sounded so bitter. Such a deep sorrow had inflicted a great wound on Alana's heart. There were no more words he could say.

His heart was too grievous and that cry could represent how he was now.

The sobbing of Alana's cries even made her body tremble. His faint wheezing breath made his body even more limp.

Arman began to realize that something was starting to happen to Alana and indeed not long ago Alana immediately drooped.

"Alana, let's go back" Arman said, holding Alana.

"I want to put this flower" said Alana.

Finally, Alana was helped by Arman to throw the bouquet into the sea where Andra fell.

'Andra, wherever you are I miss you so much right now. I want to meet you. I want to tell you that I am pregnant with your child. I wish she had a face similar to yours so that I could always remember you.'

The expression of a heart full of longing was reflected in Alana's mind. Relax, obviously not ready. Even the stack of hopes he had devised with Andra had now been for naught.

Fate is sometimes cruel enough to play tricks on them. But how will no one know at last.

Although it is difficult Alana tries to stay strong. At least he has to take good care of his body. Because that's the most beautiful memento Andra gave her.

Arman asked Alana to get back in the car. His still weak state makes Arman worried if too long outside. Moreover, the place has incised wounds to create a deep trauma for Alana.

Alana just nodded. For some reason in this pregnancy she felt easily tired and often sleepy. So that when they were in the car shortly afterwards Alana started to fall asleep.

Arman let Alana lean on his shoulder. The woman's sad face really made Arman's heart pound.

Arman rubbed Alana's head gently. Look at every curve of her pretty face. So calm and shady. But sometimes there is still a stuffing that adorns his sleep. Realize how complicated the situation is currently facing.

Unknowingly Arman was again overwhelmed with guilt. The body of Alana was then embraced and held meaningfully.

A brief kiss landed on the woman's forehead. Now Arman is totally made to fall in love with that woman.

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After a long journey they finally got home. Alana who was sleeping started to wake up.

He was a little surprised when he found his head was on Arman's thigh. Alana immediately got up because she felt awkward.

Upon entering the house Alana was immediately greeted by several assistants who used to serve her. Alana smiled at them and then continued to enter the house on Arman's papah.

While passing through Andra's room, Alana stopped. He looked at the door of the room and remembered himself spending time with Andra.

"Alana let's rest first" said Arman softly.

Alana also left. He entered the room and laid his weak body on the bed.

Arman watched the frail body curl up behind him while holding the still flat stomach.

"What do you want to eat? Let Bi Siti prepare later." asked Arman.

Alana just kept quiet and didn't answer at all. Then with a single breath he began to open his mouth.

"Why is Mas Arman still defending me? I have betrayed you. I'm not a good wife. It's okay if you kick me out, I accept" the voice sounded cold and desperate.

Arman did not answer. He also laid his body beside Alana and gently rubbed the woman's shoulder.

"There's no reason to throw you out. You're my wife, and whatever you've done for me won't change my decision."

Alana was fixated on Arman's answer. Then he turned to look at the mature man who had a firm face with those sharp eyes.

"Why? And how long are you gonna do this?" alana lirih protest.

"Until you accept our marriage" replied Arman briefly.

Alana who was initially stunned now started to close her mouth and bitterly laugh.

"Well, don't waste your time. It's free because I won't accept this wedding. Arman knows who has filled my heart. Andra, only Andra is in my heart." those words were so sharp that they made Arman feel jealous.

"But she's gone Alana." protested Arman.

"Then let me live with those memories." Alana's gaze was no less sharp. This time he no longer wants to be trampled by Arman like before.

An irritated Arman grabbed Alana's chin and gripped her slightly. Alana's breath seems to be getting intimidated. Even his lips seemed to tremble when he saw Arman who was already like this.

"Whatever you want to do. But remember Alana. Right now you only have me. And I only have you. Think carefully before you do anything." Arman's sharp gaze now began to soften. He gently rubbed the woman's cheeks which began to sob. Arman kissed Alana's rivet slowly and then grabbed her in his arms.

Again, Arman must be patient. He will still try to win Alana's heart. Although now the woman's heart has hardened like a reef, Arman will be a wave that slowly breaks it.