Miss Antagonist
Azril POV's

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Recalling back to the events before Fellin's accident, yes that day for the first time I knew I wasn't Maheswara's son. With the provision of the name of the grandmother that Mama Anya gave me I managed to find my grandmother. He's old, and senile. Anya's mother adopted me from her.

I was very angry, but I don't know who I was angry with? Mama Anya? What papa Wira? Those who adopted me and took care of me until I was this adult. They even treated me like a prince in this house, so I never thought that I was not their flesh and blood. With their overflowing affection, I was absolutely certain that I was his biological child. But... 

That fact is indeed very bitter, in order to accept this fact, it took me a very long time. I decided to look for my biological parents, I left at that moment. Armed with my grandmother's name, I can find out who my parents are.

Yes, it was Riana Praswina and Gerald Skylira. Rianna? She's not Fellin's birth mother, but it's true, we have the same biological father. That's him, old fucking jackass, Gerald Skylira.

From then on I began to know that Gerald was secretly searching for my whereabouts, and wanted to eliminate me. But the good thing is, I can manipulate everything.

To accept the fact that I'm not the Maheswara family's only child it took me months, especially now? I was forced to abandon my first love - the girl I loved so much was a sister, a biological father.

How's it feel? You knew? No, you will never know how it feels to fall in love with all tastes, but be separated by destiny and the universe.

I really hate the universe. He's not fair to me! Of so many people, why? Why would Fellin be my sister? The girl I love, I always wanted to be a wife later on, accompany me to old age.  The fantasy is gone.

I was hurt, very hurt. My soul could not even accept that horrible fact. I don't know how the old man and my mother are related! Clearly, I was born not of a sacred bond of marriage! Right, I'm a bastard. Is this a punishment for me? That's what I always thought.

It feels so painful. I stared at the photo of Fellin on my phone, I still can't believe that girl is my sister, and I can't marry her. It felt so very painful, that I who felt strong alone could not accept this fact, let alone the spoiled Fellin who was so weak?

That's what I thought, until I finally came to the decision to end our relationship, because it was forbidden. I don't want Fellin to know the truth, or anyone to know the truth, if I'm Gerald Wijaya's illegitimate son, Fellin's older brother.

Not only that, I know Fellin loved his father more than his own life. I can't imagine how broken the little girl's heart would have been, knowing that the man she loved so much was her older brother, and the father she had believed in had a dark and dark secret, Gerald betrayed his mother's trust all along. Even the relationship was very far away, giving birth to traces of this illegitimate child.

I knew I was selfish, I decided Fellin was one-sided, being rude and unnatural. I just want her to forget her feelings for me, and move on without knowing the truth. That's very good, he won't get hurt.

Several times I had faltered and wanted to explain everything, but no! It would only damage Fellin's already tidy life order.

After some consideration, and scrutiny, I'm sure Erlan can take care of Fellin. And I gave my sister and my first love to Erlan. I know Erlan will take good care of him.

But I was so lucky, Sania finally came as an angel for me, at least with her by my side I could slowly forget that Fellin was my first love. Slowly but surely, I managed to shift Fellin's position with Sania. I'm really grateful Sania came, or I'll divulge all the reasons.

Although in terms of love, I've already handed it over to Sania. But still, the woman I love the most in this world, is Fellin. She is my world. I don't know what good I'd live if he wasn't around.

At that time I was very afraid Fellin would plunge to suicide, but fortunately there was Erlan, yes he could be relied on. And more importantly, all my plans from the beginning worked then. I don't know what happened to Fellin, because of the incident that night he started to stay away from me. I was hurt, it was painful, but I was still happy. Yes, from the beginning this was the plan. Even though I hated myself at that time, because Fellin was going to die because of me. I want to protect him and his happiness? Am I the one who ruined her life? I'm really grateful to you Erlan!

Finally what I feared has arrived. Just before I decided to go away and settle down abroad. And this is worse than expected. Fellin had a terrible accident, and Erlan and I knew clearly that the cause was because Fellin wanted to save Sania.

Though I have sacrificed, why must Fellin also sacrifice. In front of my own eyes, I saw this girl of mine, she was hit and covered in blood. Universe, I hate you. Is it not enough to sacrifice only me? And why Fellin too?

But I'm happy in one thing, Erlan's love! Yes, the love Erlan had made me even more confident that Fellin would be fine in the future, even without me by her side.

And right now the doctor says Fellin needs a heart and blood donor, it's clear Gerald will be looking for me more. But that's enough. I won't let him bother.

In front of everyone I tell the truth. That I'm the kid he's got, and also the big brother of Fellerin Skylira. No, take it easy, I'm not gonna make my sacrifice all this time go to waste. I'll keep asking them to keep their mouths shut on this case when Fellin wakes up. Unfortunately I won't be able to confirm it myself, when Fellin has opened his eyes, then I have also gone far. Ahahaha!! Universe, your jokes are funny too.

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