Miss Antagonist
Fellin POVs

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That night without a second thought I jumped from the top floor, I did not know what to do, all I thought about was that I wanted to live with Azril. I feel Azril is my world. Azril was my first love, which I thought would be my last love as well.

So, since Azril said to love another woman, I can't accept it! Especially in front of my own eyes he kissed another girl's hand, I can't! I decided to jump without thinking. I just knew my Azril was gone and my life turned empty, there was no point in living, it was too painful.

I thought it was all over, but he, that person who was always there for me, from childhood until this moment, he caught my hand. I could see Erlan's face, he was handsome and I was just starting to notice, his eyes were so sharp, I just knew he could be that cool. He clasped my hand so tightly, as if he wouldn't let go even if an earthquake happened.

But, I've lost, my heart has been so broken, I don't think I have a reason to live. Until Erlan made me realize that my reason for living was Papa.

I remember it again, Papa! Right, papa everything for me. You knew? I never lack anything because papa, even my mother's affection, I am also not lacking. Even though my mom died,

Papa was a great man who was busy working, but since childhood he always had time for me. No matter how important the meeting was, resulting in whatever it was, if I was a child already crying, then papa will go home.

Maybe someone else saw me as a spoiled princess with a treasure. I was spoiled because I bought whatever I wanted, no! That's a big mistake! Not just a treasure, I'm covered in love! Papa's love has flooded my life until it feels like if you do not get love from others, I think it does not matter.

The one who loves me so much? The unconditional love he gave? Nah! I can't bear to leave that precious man behind. I asked Erlan to pull me over.

I cried in Erlan's arms at the time, not because of Azril and Sania. I was angry that night! Not to them, but to myself. I don't know since when, but I'm being so selfish, how can I leave papa? I hugged papa when I was downstairs. That warmth, I can feel it, his infinite compassion.

Erlan led me to my room, I said I wanted to be alone first, and they both walked out of my room.

I don't know how many times I slapped myself, I hate it, I'm angry I'm disappointed, not with anyone else. But with myself, I feel ashamed. Why am I so stupid?

I'm sorry, so sorry that I ever thought about leaving Papa. I was crying so much.

Although I will not live for myself, I can live for my father, and my father lives for me.

I don't know how much you love me, which obviously even you don't get angry in the morning, even when I almost killed myself last night.

Erlans! I sincerely thank you, you saved me and gave me enlightenment. But I won't say it directly to Erlan! His ears could go up.

I decided to quit school for a week, yes, I think I can calm down in that short time.

Indeed, sometimes I remember Azril, childhood memories and Junior High was so happy, unfortunately it did not run until High School.

First love is indeed very valuable, but if not blessed by the universe I can also what.

I used to think that the person Azril loved the most was me, even though he stayed away I thought there was a reason. If in retrospect at this time, whatever reason he stayed away I don't care. If he did believe me, he should have told me the problem and we could have solved it together.

I forced my heart to accept the fact that Sania had shifted my position. To urge Sania was also useless.

I know Sania and Azril love each other. I know that, Azril looked at Sania, the same as when she looked at me first. How did Azril treat Sania? Ah already.

Enough is enough, I don't want to be stupid anymore. Oh yes, while in Erlan's arms she whispered one thing, which was my consideration. "If you separate two people who love each other, you will be a real antagonist."

And.., damn! But I learned to accept it. The first thing I did was not to give Azril away, but to forget our childhood memories.

Although I still think about it, I already intend to forget about it, I think I can.

(Fellin POV finished)

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Fellin walked into his house, he saw his father who was angry with some of his men.

Do you want to teach the Maheswara family a lesson? Reluctant! Papa can't do that, I'm fine too.

Fellin walked over, he wanted to call his papa, but he suddenly stopped.

"It's hard to just find that boy! All these years whatever work you did to not be able to find the boy!! He's just a 17-year-old boy! Where's he running?!" Shouted Gerald in anger.

Hearing that Fellin immediately hid behind a pole, he undoes his intention to meet Gerald.

Papa doesn't want to disturb Maheswara's family. Papa want to find the boy? If it's not wrong papa is very angry because the boy, what until now the boy has not been found? Why is papa angry? Who's the kid you mean?

Fellin looked again, his papa's men are gone.

Brakk!!

Gerald throws the vase of flowers with emotion. "Fuck shit!! Why do you have to live in this world!! Die!!! You're just a burden and a burden in my life!!"

Fellin was horrified, he knew his papa was terrible. But he didn't know that his papa was that bad, because in front of Fellin, he said rudely Gerald couldn't.

Fellin's heart was beating so fast, he was trembling, he didn't know but the feeling was very uncomfortable. He looked like he had just seen the other side of his father.

Is papa going to kill people? What is the fault of that person until papa wants to act so extreme? Did I ask Papa? But papa ga will ngaku.

"Loh Fellin's? Hurry home? When's? How's school?"

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