Love Raka
chapter 12

Pov Raka's

"So about Raka should how sir?" I asked that the responsibility was already known by the father.

"What's the matter, don't you know where the problem is?"

"So, sir, when I took Devina for a walk to the night market, she was very happy because she was playing there for the first time. Seeing him who was happy finally Raka decided to shoot him directly. But dear sir, the words that have been strung together as beautifully as possible, such as a poet who is drunk with love is lost instantly, like dust in the wind."

"Hahaha, Normal, that's normal, even that's perfectly normal, because How not to be nervous or at a loss for words if the woman is as pretty as Papa had seen in the photo. in the past when papa expressed the same feeling mamah you, it feels like to defecate, cold sweat began to pour, even the heart feels like a run down miles of meters."

"Right sir, Raka now feels it, How do you keep it?"

"What's the way" asked papa while linking an eyebrow.

"Well, Father...., did you overcome nervousness when you wanted to express the same feelings of the woman we love?"

"Because your mother's love is greater than anything else, than anyone else, that love overcomes all doubts, fears and anxieties, as I said earlier, because if there are other people who want you will regret for a lifetime, then the nervousness will disappear instantly."

"When you used to express your same feelings, did you have any doubts about being rejected?"

"All those doubts must be Raka, because it is a form of self-defense of a human being who does not want to get sick, who does not want to get hurt, but if we just stay in place, if we just stay in place, then our lives will not progress, will not develop, we just walk in place."

"How to deal with the fear of rejection?"

"Everything, yes If we are refused more hard work, because the woman there is a description like a rib, while the ribs are not straight, everything is crooked. if we force it all at once, the bone will break, but if we keep trying slowly, patiently, painstakingly, then the bent bone will slowly become straight, just like your mother."

"That means you used to be rejected by your mother?"

"Often, Look at the Father now as it is, If you say bad appearance later You are said not to know how to be grateful, but with a struggle that is so persistent with so earnest, really, finally your mother's twisted heart can be straightened, so that it will accept the Father and give birth to profit that is you and Miss Vira, the result of the seed of love that we plant."

"Huh," I murmured deeply, amazed by what was conveyed by the Father, even though the Father did not deserve to be called handsome, but I could see his success conquering a mother who still looks beautiful, but I could see his success, even at 45 years old .

"Remember the message you have now or regret or you have to intervene."

Finally, we continue to discuss the past of the Father, when he got the love of the mother.he is a persistent man good in fighting for his love, maintaining his family so that there is not the slightest quarrel in the family, and there is no quarrel in the family, only ordinary misunderstandings do not result in very big fights.

I am more and more convinced that Father is a very extraordinary figure in my life, he is a teacher and is the person who loves me most sincerely, with all the love he has.

The next morning, thanks to the advice given by my Father, I had made up my mind, united my mind to the goal, that I would express my love for Devina, because I'm afraid that what you're worried about becomes reality.

That afternoon, the sun was leaning to the east, the bright light gave a sense of sultry according to the air of Jakarta City, I stood near my motorbike while waiting for Devina to come over, he said, this morning we promised to go home together.

In every corner of the school were my classmates and schoolmates, they kept walking towards the school gate, there were also people like me taking the motor first. they continued to chat with friends who were on the way home, occasionally heard a booming laugh, because High School time is a time to enjoy life where there is no anxiety, no hardship, no hardship, all we have in mind is money and play.

I paced around the motorbike, sometimes sitting up sometimes also asking with classmates Devina, who had been seen out of class.all replied that Devina was behind them.

"I must express my feelings, I must....! It's right to have to, because otherwise I'll regret it, "that's the only word I repeat in my heart, as the soul's motivation to be able to express feelings.

Long wait filled with anxiety, Devina finally came. As usual She looks very sweet, but her face is a little different, although this morning she had returned as usual, as usual, it's as if we've forgotten what happened last night that made us fall silent to each other.

Immediately I took the helmet, and handed it over to Devina, but she refused to make me frown, my heart pounding more and more, fearing that Devina would not speak to me again.

"Why...?" only that word came out which represented Tanya's full feeling, as Devina did not want to be brought home together.

"Sir Raka....!" he said a little restrained like he was filled with anxiety. "I'm sorry I can't go home with my sister" Devina continued, making my Heart Stop Tearing for a moment, the fear that had been imagined might become a reality.

"Why, you're still angry about what happened last night," I asked to try to vent.

"Didn't you know, kak, I didn't think last night we did anything. Even last night I was so happy, because I could play at the night market."

"So what keeps you from going home together?"

"Once again I'm sorry, because there was a sudden family event.I had not had time to tell my sister, because I wanted to meet her person directly. is it okay if we don't go home together?" said Devina makes me a little sigh of relief, because my fear is not proven, but I am still confused how to express my feelings, I originally wanted to invite Devina to lunch while expressing feelings, I was still confused, let it be like the novels that I read and I fantasize about, but hearing the explanation from Devina at once the Hope fell apart instantly.