It's Not My fault, Sir!
Chapter 23. Forgive Shei
Sheilla Jannes lowered her head not daring to answer Elfa's enraged question. His mouth was faint because it was the first time he saw Elfa get angry. Almost two years friends Elfa always friendly and understanding especially with close friends.
Sheilla Jannes recalls some time ago being asked to help Doctor Yohan Garnett to call Elfa. The doctor had been unable to see Elfa in the hospital for nearly two months. Besides Elfa always avoids too because Elfa often looks for reasons not to meet with Doctor Yohan Garnett.
With the lure of good grades for campus assignments. With little threat, Sheilla Jannes was forced to call Elfa to come. There are patients who need help.
"Why did Shei have the same El, what was El's fault?" tanya Elfa lowered her emotions, but teary eyes wanted to cry.
Not yet Sheilla Jannes replied, came Doctor Yohan Garnett while running to Elfa, "Don't blame Seilla, I forced him to call you. Frankly I'm desperate because you're having a hard time approaching."
Elfa took a deep breath and exhaled violently. Her heart grew even more upset to hear the doctor who liked her coming again. Very visible to force the will of the heart.
"What's my fault, El. Why do you keep avoiding and refusing?" ask Doctor Yohan Garnett back.
Elfa turned around unwilling to see the face of the doctor who still wanted to struggle, "Sorry yes, Doc. You're innocent, but the heart can't be forced."
Elfa walked out of the room with an erratic feeling. No one dared to catch up with Elfa who was walking towards the car park. They stood looking at Elfa until they were invisible.
Elfa got in the car and sat at the wheel beating the steering wheel while crying sobbing. It hurts so much to feel forced just out of love. The coercion made Elfa remember the precious event almost two years ago.
Everyone wants to feel loved and in love. I also want to feel her name in love. However, want everything to go according to your heart and not by forcing yourself.
Elfa repeatedly hit her own chest. The tightness in the heart that is felt is now increasingly mutilated. Somehow love can not grow quickly like friends who experience since the time of High School.
Maybe because of Mami Mitha and Teteh Rania's bitter experience. As if the heart immediately fortifies itself unnoticed. Difficult heart anchored to the opposite sex who always want to get closer.
It was as if love was only for Papi Alfarizi and Abang Alfian alone. Can't add to the love that grows. His first love was only for his beloved papi.
For almost a week Elfa worked on the thesis in the apartment. Contacting the supervisor using only online. With the support of tegnology all can be done because by utilizing technology like the word world is in the grip.
Sheilla Jannes's apology message was never responded to. There is still a sense of annoyance because the best friend he has known betrayed. Tega just because college grades sacrifice friends themselves.
Saturday morning Sheilla Jannes pressed the doorbell of Elfa's apacement many times. Aunt Suti who opened the door, "Neng Shei, please come in!"
"There's El, Auntie?"
"There it is, Neng. It's just that Neng El rarely leaves the room, Auntie doesn't dare to go in if she's not called."
Sheilla Jannes enters Elfa's apartment hesitantly. Still afraid Elfa would not forgive. However, all must be quickly resolved because he was the guilty one, "It's okay, Auntie. Shei herself will knock on the door."
"Please, Neng!"
Sheilla Jannes knocked on the door. Not wanting to be rejected when Elfa heard her voice. It's better to shut up and think that's knocking on Auntie Suti's door.
"Just go in, Bi!" elfa shouted from within.
"Sorry El, this is Shei not Auntie" Sheilla Jannes said as she opened the door.
Elfa remained silent without answering Sheilla Jannes. Just looking at his best friend's face that looks sad and bent. The look of regret and guilt was in his eyes.
"El's been sorry." Not yet Sheilla Jannes continued her words directly answered by Elfa.
"Thank you, hug dong!" Seilla Jannes spread her arms while smiling.
Elfa hugged her best friend tightly. I am not angry anymore because it happened. The most important thing is not to repeat.
"Shei promised not to repeat again. El's right love can't be forced."
"El has always given a code if El does not like the doctor, which El does not like why by lying to be able to express the intent."
"The doctor was so desperate for love, he was so infatuated with El."
Sheilla tells me that Doctor Yohan Carnett is still looking for information why Elfa does not return love. Still often contact Sheilla Jannes to look for flaws in order to be accepted. It was as if the doctor had not given up on fighting for Elfa's love.
Until Doctor Yohan Carnett suspected it because of differences in belief. The Australian native is now searching for information about the Elfa family. Until willing to learn the beliefs of most Indonesian people.
"Until now he hasn't given up, Shei?"
"Not at all, El. He is now learning about the beliefs you hold."
"Have it, hopefully one day he can understand if love can't be forced."
"Later if the doctor asks, Shei can explain again so she understands."
"Thank you."
On Monday Elfa and Sheilla went to campus together to meet with the supervisor. When meeting other students, there are still remnants of stories about handsome CEOs who filled the business economics lecture yesterday.
Sheilla Jannes also idolized Juan Mahardika. Yesterday even though Sheilla Jannes didn't attend economy and business class. As the famous businessman bailed out of campus, Sheilla caught a glimpse of the businessman's handsome face.
"Unfortunately El came home first yesterday, the businessman was very handsome," Sheilla Jannes said with admiration.
Elfa only smiled wryly while shaking her head. Handsome is not accompanied by a person and a good heart. Including bad and not to be idolized in Elfa's creteria.
"If El had seen it for himself, perhaps such a man would have entered the El creteria, handsome, tyrant, CEO and full of charm?"
"No, El has never looked upon a man from mere riches."
"So what was El's Creteria about men."
"The first one is kind, faithful and the most important one can thrill El."
"Suit El, the guest lecturer yesterday was able to thrill all students in our campus!"
Elfa chuckled and shook her head again, "Did Shei not know the lunge from Juan Mahardika?"
"Elfa knows the guest lecturer?"