Ex Sucks!
Refusing

“Shen... Would you like to be my lover?”

A sentence that was avoided by the girl named Shenina Anastasya for several years now has filled her eardrum to make the beautiful girl freeze in place with a look of disbelief.

“Since the first time I met you, my heart has been fixed on you Shenina.” The follow-up sentence of the sturdy man who was walking towards Shenina further made Shenina sculpt and closed her eyes.

It's a public place, in front of a lot of people... Shenina tried to inhale as much air as possible so that the oxygen supply in her lungs was full.

But what Shenina felt was Pain…

Shenina's heart suddenly felt a great pain as the current events instantly drew her soul back to the past where a fondest memory was etched but left such a deep wound to this day. Old wounds that have not healed.

As much as she could, Shenina tried to bring her soul back to her current life and forget those bad memories.

“Please, thank you Shen.. I love you Shenina very much. I cannot promise to keep you happy and laughing, because in this world there is no perfect relationship.

But I promise I will try my best and as much as I can to make you happy, I promise to be loyal to you and always be by your side under any circumstances, Shenina Anastasya.”

Hearing the long sentence that her co-worker said, Shenina ventured to open her eyes.

And it would be a shock for Shenina to find Dhani kneeling before her with a bouquet of red roses in her right hand that was dedicated especially to Shenina.

Shenina swallowed her saliva so much that Shenina realized that she and Dhani were in the limelight right now. Attention of all of his co-workers.

“Dhani... stand.. elo what the hell?” Shenina asked softly. Not forgetting Shenina's annoyed face that the beautiful girl couldn't hide anymore because of Dhani's expression.

“Jawab used to question me Shen.. Please..” Say a handsome man named Dhani that with no less subtle so that it is not heard by others who have been excited about Dhani's action tonight.

“Nggak Dhan. You know it.” Reject Shenina slowly.

“You can humiliate me with your rejection in front of everyone?” Dhani asked softly with a pleading look.

Shenina closed her eyes again.

“Receive..”.

“Receive..”.

“Ayo... thank Dhani Shen.. kasian Dhani later kneel.”.

“Receive.”

“Receive..”.

The voice of Shenina's co-workers telling each other to create a rhythm atmosphere in the cold of the night. Shenina shook her head slowly.

No, Shenina was unwilling to just use her feelings in making up her mind. Shenina should put her logic first. Because Shenina once relied only on feelings but ended up painful.

“Please Shen,,, don't drop my pride with your rejection.” Please Dhani with a witty look.

Dhani actually does not mind her pride because everyone already knows how she feels about Shenina. Dhani is afraid that Shenina will reject her declaration of love while she loves and expects Shenina to be her lover and companion.

“Shenina... Will you be my lover?” Dhani asked once again in a loud voice as Shenina still appeared silent.

Not only Dhani who thumped at Shenina's answer but all of Dhani and Shenina's coworkers also immediately fell silent because they were very curious about the answer of the beautiful girl who was notoriously quiet during the office.

“Shen... don't make us we wait for your answer dong!” The impatient chirps of Iqbal made Shenina even more furious.

“Dhani..” Call Shenina looking down at Dhani's faithful face kneeling before her, in front of his office friends who are currently doing a three-day and two-night Gathering at a Villa in the Puncak area. And this is the last night of the Gathering.

“Sorry I can not accept your love Dhan..” Shenina replied softly because she felt guilty to her co-workers for feeling that Shenina could not reply. Dhani is a kind and gentle man and patient.

“Why Shen?” Dhani asked with a gaze that demanded an explanation to the girl he had known for two years. Though Dhani already knew for sure the reason Shenina rejected him.

“Sorry,, I can't Dhan.. I haven't thought of being in a relationship with anyone.” Said Shenina again who immediately ran into the Villa rented by the company where she worked.

Dhani's teary eyes stared at Shenina's back, which was getting further away from her reach until it was lost behind Villa's door.

Everyone in the courtyard of the Villa fell silent to Shenina's refusal. Shenina's co-workers thought that Shenina would receive Dhani's love statement considering that while in the office Shenina had never been close to any opposite sex except Dhani.

But in fact, the introverted girl without thinking long refused and ignored Dhani's feelings. The look of pity from his co-workers could not be avoided anymore. Not a few also give encouragement to Dhani so as not to give up pursuing Shenina's love because they think Shenina is only surprised by Dhani's sudden action.

...***...

“Gue did not expect you will reject Dhani, Shen.. Muka Dhani joked Shen, kasian really know him. Well,, other children's predictions are wrong.” Said Manda, the one-room Finance division child with Shenina during the Gathering.

Shenina who was standing there staring at the window looked back at the source of the sound. It turned out that his roommates Manda, Desti and Alula had already caught up with him to the room.

“Mending refuse rather than accept due to pity.” It was not Shenina who answered, but Alula, Shenina's co-worker during these two months in the Marketing division along with Desti and Dhani as well. Alula is a new child, but Alula's friendly and fun personality makes Alula quickly familiar with the others.

“Bener also anyway Lul.. more painful anyway it's the fall.” Said Manda who was sitting on her bed. While Shenina was still faithfully standing by the large window that displayed the darkness of the night.

“But I'm curious... Why did you reject Dhani She? Have you not been close to him all this time? Though the words of the children, you guys are suitable loh... mutual support and complement.” Alula the chatty girl can no longer stem the sense of her pussy. Alula does not yet know very well how the real relationship between Dhani and Shenina considering that she has only two months working at this company.

“To be friends and coworkers, I'm the same he does fit La, but not if the relationship is more, I'm not ready for the relationship La…” Shenina replied with a thin smile but able to create very beautiful dimples.

Alula nodded in understanding.

“It is fitting, Dhani who is the most handsome employee in the office can fall in love with Shenina, it turns out when Shenina's smile is very beautiful and sweet not to mention she is very good again despite being very quiet.” Inner Alula.

“Until when did you fail to move on from the former who has humiliated you anyway Shen? You should have received Dhani who has been kind and your same attention so far. You didn't waste him! not necessarily you will get a better guy than Dhani. You don't think how Dhani's self-esteem you dropped in front of the office kids?" Desti's chirps in an annoyed tone made Shenina's smile disappear instantly.

Shenina chose silence and was reluctant to create a debate.

“Mantan?” Alula frowning.

“Mantan? Who is your ex Shen?” Ask Manda curious. Shenina who is irritable and rarely hang out even keep a distance with the opposite sex turns out to have an ex?

“Refal, the name of his ex Shenina in college. Back then Shenina and Refal were couple goals on campus but who would have thought, Refal betrayed Shenina to make Shenina reluctant to open her heart to anyone. Shenina anyway, so the pretentious girl selling expensive Obviously Desti because Shenina was just silent with teary eyes.

"You shouldn't have told my past to the Des! You don't have a right to that." Said Shenina looking at Desti with a look of disbelief.

"Lupain Refal Shen's... Lupain's! Dhani is in love with you." Said Desti again with excitement.

I don't know, hearing that name back it felt like Shenina was having trouble breathing. His first love, his first lover was also the one who had inflicted such a huge wound on him to this day.

Suddenly the energy of Shenina felt sucked out, wanted to feel like Shenina chimed in Desti speech but felt useless considering Desti was a person who likes to lose and not want to give up.

“Shen.. are you okay?” Alula asked who seemed more sensitive than Desti, Shenina's friend for a long time.

“Gue is okay La.” Shenina replied trying to hold back her tears from falling.

“Gue rest first yes..” Shenina said to her three friends before laying herself on a soft mattress.

“Shenina is your friend from lama Des, you shouldn't say that.” Tegur Alula who followed upset on Desti.

...to be continued...