EL NATH (Glorious Regrets)
BonChap - Nair (10)

That afternoon Nair immediately left the park after making sure Naira was picked up by his regular taxi driver. Ohek lady who is one of the neighbors and mothers who are active in the study.

Nair went into the room. He immediately took a shower to refresh his body and mind. Nair stands under the water radiating from the shower attached to the bathroom wall.

Nair stood. Every word Naira had stuck in her memory. A girl who had high hopes for him. The girl he was after and is waiting for him to fight.

A month ago, he had planned to immediately carry out the ta'aruf process with Naira. He even said that to his father. Akhtar also told his twin, Nath. The words Nath congratulated him on voicemail have not even been removed.

His intention will do the process of ta'aruf mumpung Naira's parents are in Jakarta extinct in an instant because suddenly Abi Rahardi had to go home to the village.

Plus the sentence Abi Rahardi who was talking with Pakde Rahman at the mosque at the time made Nair who accidentally heard so undo his intentions.

"I haven't found the right man for Naira, Mas."

"Of all those who have proposed, I haven't done anything yet."

"Is it because I haven't been willing to take it off with another man, yes..."

"Haha.... When are you gonna hold on to your grown daughter, Di?" Pakde Rahman laughed at the agitated speech of Rahardi.

From there Nair can conclude he has not been included in the criteria of prospective mother-in-law Abi Rahardi. Especially when the sentence of all who are sleeping, I have no one sreg. Nair is not included in it.

And now Abinya Naira seems to have found the right one. A son of a boarding house owner.

Nair finished his bath immediately. His body had begun to shiver because it had somehow litres of water flowing from his head and continued to descend through his body.

Nair who had changed clothes immediately threw himself into bed. "If there's Nath here, it's gonna be rame. I'll be teased until the dower's lips touch the floor" muttered Nair at a glance remembering and longing for his twin who had been married since four years ago.

"CV ta'aruf." Nair closed his eyes and closed with his arm. "Do you have to?"

"Sunday." Nair calculated his holiday schedule.

"ah! I got stabbed!" Nair broke his hair because his head felt almost exploded.

Nair sat at his study table. He started typing on his laptop. Start making CV. He filled in his data, his educational history, his achievements, his profile and family, daily activities and the vision of the mission of marriage.

Nair read over and over again what he typed. He does not want any shortage.

He also listed his income from 20 kosan units that were given to him since he planned to send CV ta'aruf last month. Akhtar just wanted to be fair to his two sons. Nath had even accepted it four years ago.

Almost at the time of the magrib prayer, Nair had finished typing and checked it repeatedly. And the data was ready to send to Abinya Naira.

"Astaghfirullah, I don't know, the email" Nair murmured as he realized he didn't have Abinya Naira's email address.

Nair finally sends a message to Naira asking for Abinya's email address.

***

Naira had just finished reading the Qur'an. Trying to calm his heart and mind from the crush of the burden that felt heavy for him.

Maybe it will not be this difficult if Nair and himself have not acknowledged each other's feelings.

Naira sat on the edge of her bed. He felt a sense of regret in his heart, for loving God's creature so deeply. And when God confronts him in such a situation, he himself feels the pain.

Nair, the figure of a man who really always tested his faith. He sometimes finds it difficult to control himself not to stare in the man's face.

Naira always copes with it by looking down and looking down. Naira secretly admires Nair as the man recites the holy verse and Pakde Rahman accepts it. Naira also always felt proud when Nair declared Azan in the mosque.

Naira, so far only loved in silence. Prioritizing ideals far above taste. Harboring feelings for the happiness of Abi and Uminya.

But what power, she is an ordinary woman who has a selfish side.He turns out to want Nair as his companion. The only foreign man who makes her comfortable at once thumping.

Years of walking with Nair with friend status was the most appropriate choice for him all along. Even though he knew Nair had feelings for him and had asked Abi many years ago, he still did not want to change that status.

For him, dating was just a status that brought them closer to adultery. Therefore he also tried to hide his feelings for Nair.

Trying not to show excessive attitude to the man, his goal is only one, he does not want Nair to get closer to forcing him to get married in the near future.

For years, Naira was in a dilemma, between mind and love. Between avoiding sin or proud parents.

Naira breathed a heavy sigh. He grabbed the phone he had ignored since the magrib.

Naira gave a small smile as a message notification came in from Nair.

Assalamualaikum, Nai.

Can you email Abi now?

Naira was surprised not to play, only this afternoon he and Nair met and asked him to send her a CV ta'aruf. And tonight Nair asked for Abinya's email address.

Naira saw it sent before the magrib. And it's 9 p.m. Naira immediately sent her Abinya's email address to Nair.

Naira hugged her phone in the chest. His heart was pounding unbecoming. He will soon enter a new stage in his life that is fighting for his love with Nair.

O God, ease our path. And open the doors of Abi and Umi's hearts to bless our relationship. Are you not turning back the hearts of men?

If it ends later, Nair and I don't make it. I hope I can accept the man Abi chose for me.

***

At 9 p.m., Nair opened the reply message Naira sent. Too much thought and weighing every decision he would take, making Nair suddenly hesitant to send the CV ta'aruf.

"Geez!" Nair breathed a heavy breath. He who is sleeping on the bed with the mind drifting somewhere.

"O Allah, shall I send this to Abi?"

"Is it not better if I face Abi directly?"

"But I don't know when I can see Abi. And if Abi suddenly tells Naira and this email I haven't sent, is there a chance for me?"

"Oh Allah" murmured Nair.