Click Your Heart's
The Part 164

...Decisions are the hardest thing to make especially when it is a choice between where you should be and where you want to be....

"Lisa, can you go home first! Give me a chance to think."

"Alright I hope the decision you take is the right message does not harm me of course" Lisa said in a cynical tone.

Bayu took his wife into the house. "Don't touch me, Mas."

Bayu breathed his coarse breath. "I'm sorry" Bayu said, stopping Irma's steps. Then the woman looked.

Irma gave a sharp look to her husband. "How can you make a decision when I'm in a coma. You can wish me, you can turn away from me?" Irma said with tears in her eyes.

Bayu wants to hug Irma but she refuses. "I beg to understand. I've made Lisa suffer for a lifetime. He didn't have the chance to have any of those offspring because of my fault, what's wrong if I take responsibility?"

"Not wrong. But that way you can't accept. My heart hurts."

"Then how should I account for your actions? He's suffering because of me." Sayu full of emphasis.

"Stop turning on yourself Mas. Don't you want all this to happen. Everything is arranged by God."

"I can't just ignore Lisa."

"Mas Bayu can give him money, right? Give her whatever she wants. I can't really share a husband with another woman."

"I understand how you feel but what if you're in his position? Didn't you want me to marry you because you thought no one would marry you after knowing that you can't have children?"

Irma was silent and did not reply to her husband. "I'm sticking to my stance. You may be able to have two wives but not necessarily you can be fair. I just don't want to be disappointed if I live life with my honey. I just don't want to feel hurt watching you guys make out in front of me."

Bayu dizzy thinking of the way out of his problem. Therefore he discussed with Bagas.

"What do you think I should do?" Ask Bayu to his brother.

"Your intention to marry her to save her life is not wrong, but you already have a wife of course you have to keep her feelings let alone she has just given birth to a child and the child still needs your protection. Are you going to let them go just for the sake of another woman?"

"I know you feel sorry for him. You think about her future because you feel guilty for making her suffer but you can make up for it in other ways."

"What for example?" Tanya Bayu did not understand.

"Give him the money to save his life isn't he in financial trouble because his family is broke?" Bagas Suggestion.

"But wouldn't it offend them? I'm afraid they're humiliated."

"Have you asked and asked Irma for approval if you want to get married again? So what's the answer?"

"He didn't agree to it" Bayu replied.

"Of course because no woman wants to be combined. Surely she'd rather be apart than see her husband making out with another woman."

"She said the same thing as you."

"Think carefully, you must make a firm decision. Choose Irma and her child or Lisa. You should be able to let go of one of them. Don't be selfish and don't be greedy. You can't have both because no matter what decision you make, there's a risk."

Lisa returned home upset. He threw his bag in any direction. Then he sat on the edge of the bed once in a while he hit his bed.

Tok tok tok tok

"Can mom come in?"

"Just go in Ma."

"Lisa, is it true that you will accept Bayu's proposal? You're going to marry her?" Ask the mother.

"From the beginning I wanted to get married but who I didn't know. Now I'm like this because of him of course he has to take responsibility ma."

"But you know for yourself that Bayu already has a family. Aren't you afraid of hurting his wife's feelings? She just gave birth to what I heard like that."

"Why is mom defending other people more than your own child?" Lisa Protest.

"Mama doesn't want to defend anyone. You just want to be able to appreciate others. Not being selfish even if you suffer. You still have our parents who love you. I heard Irma has no family what's her fate if she asks for a divorce from Bayu? wouldn't she have trouble taking care of her baby son alone. Moreover, he does not work. Did you think you got there?"

Lisa shook her head. "No ma, I just thought there wouldn't be any men willing to accept me as their partner, if they knew I couldn't produce offspring. Surely my partner will feel disappointed and I choose to accept Mas Bayu as my husband."

"God is fair. We are sure that if Bayu does not become your match then there are others better than him who are prepared for you. The most important thing is that you want to change then your soul mate will be facilitated by God. Believe in Mama we always pray for the best for you."

Lisa listened to her parents' advice. "I'll consider my mother's words I don't want to be a selfish woman either."

"Thank you son. Mama just wants you not to get caught up in polygamy or be someone else's husband's usurper."

Lisa can't sleep well. Advice from his mother rang in his mind.

The next day Lisa met Bayu. But he did not meet Bayu at his house. He met Bayu at lunchtime at a cafe.

"Are you asking for my answer now Lisa?" Ask Bayu.

"Before you give me an answer, I want to tell you that I refused your invitation to marry."

"Why?"

"I've thought about this carefully. I'm moving out of town to open a new leaf. I don't want to disturb your family's life. I've changed Mas, I'm not the old Lisa. I want to be a good woman. Don't worry about me, I can take care of myself."

"But Lis.."

"Mas, Irma needs you more than me. Please don't hurt her, I know what it's like to be hurt. Although I also suffer but I don't want to be selfish by seizing people's husbands." Lisa clasps Bayu's hand. "Just pray for me to live my life well."

Bayu divorced tears listening to Lisa's decision. "I don't know what to say to you. I know you will live your life hard, are you sure of your decision?" Lisa nodded.

Bayu stood up and hugged Lisa. "Thank you for helping me make the decision. I will not forget you, I still love you but I am confused who I choose. However, after I hear your decision then I will appreciate it."

...Sometimes love does not have to be. Letting go of the person we love for their happiness is the best option....