CARNATION (KIARA)
DIARY

This moment was indeed a dilemma when Kiara stared at the red diary.

Honey, would you hate me even more if my mom opened your diary?

But dear mama is very aware of what you write in the diary.

At the end of this we often disagree, and I'm sure you must have poured a lot of your writing here.

Kiara said this while trying to bring her two hands closer to the red diary.

For a moment Kiara was silent, but in the end Kiara steadily opened her daughter's diary.

This morning I had a dream to meet papa again, in the dream papa was so handsome, I hugged papa and papa said that he loved me very much.

But when I woke up and asked my mom for the same answer, I hated my mom's answer, I hated everything she said about me.

I just want to feel the taste in the hug of papa, in dear papa, protected papa, is it wrong when I want it?

God, I'll have a birthday soon, I know this is a strange request, but the gift I want to get from God is I'm back to meet papa, papa, God, if you really have come back to you, allow me to know where your last resting place is.

But if all your words are a lie, take me to meet my biological father, because as soon as I meet him I want to run and hug him..

God is the gift that I ask of you, because my mother will never be able to grant all my requests.

Helen misses papa, Helen wants to be in papa's arms.

Sheet by sheet Kiara now read, every word by word made Kiara again shed tears.

Kiara's tight heart when she saw the writing for the sake of Helen she now read, the cry that now came out from her tightly hidden, she hid, because after all Kiara does not want Helen to know if tonight presumptuously Kiara has read all the contents of the heart of the beloved princess that she has poured in the diary.

Honey forgive mom, forgive mom until now can not say much truth to you, mom is afraid dear, mom is afraid if Helen can not accept everything, mama was afraid that Helen would hate her.

Mama did all this so that there was no hope of Helen to find papa, because it was likely that Adrian would not acknowledge Helen as his daughter.

Kiara said all these things from the heart while crying silently, with slowly one of her hands now rubbing Helen's head, it hurt a lot when Kiara saw Helen's face that was very similar to the evil men in her past..

"Good sleep, baby."

With a deep breath Kiara said that and moved from her seat.

After coming out of Helen's room, Kiara immediately ran into her room to satisfy her crying heart.

"Mas Adrian, mas, at this time your daughter is very eager to meet you, God wherever this time mas Adrian is located I beg you to convey this to the adrian mas, because only you can do that."

On the bed and in a state of tears Kiara said that, her status as an ex-con makes her not have the courage to be open to looking for Adrian, who is not the only one, a man in the past who abandoned himself when he found out Kiara stumbled on one case is severe enough that a criminal sentence must be received.

With tears and lamentations to God tonight Kiara fell back to sleep, heartbroken as she read word for word from Helen's diary.

Meanwhile somewhere else.

"Mas, mas Adrian wake up mas, mas good - okay?"

Meira said that while shaking - jolted Adrian clothes.

Adrian screamed again and finally woke up from his long sleep.

"Mas Adrian had another nightmare for sure."

Meira swiftly turned on the room lights and gave the drinking water mineral water to Adrian.

"Thank you Meira."

Adrian quickly gulped down the mineral water that had been given to him.

"Mas, is it right if at this time there is nothing stuck in the heart of Adrian?"

In the middle of the night Meira asks back the same statement for the umpteenth time.

"Really Me, I'm fine, maybe I'm too tired."

Adrian said this while wiping the sweat that poured despite the cold room.

"Mas, if there is a problem do not ever hesitate to tell a story with Meira well, Meira will happily listen to Adrian mas, mas never in pendam alone."

"Surely Me, thank you for caring so much about me, now go to bed again, believe me I'm fine."

Meira tried to find the truth of Adrian's words with her two eyes looking sharply.

"Yes, um."

After trying to convince herself, Meira again laid her body.

"Go to the bathroom first."

Gently Adrian kissed Meira on the forehead and was greeted with a nod of the head from Meira.

"What's on your mind Adrian, that woman has long gone from your heart no, ah no she never stopped in your heart at all, then why the end - the end of this woman who arrived - suddenly appeared in every dream - your dream, arrrrh Adrian come on not like this you expect is not it?"

Adrian said that in the bathroom and in front of the mirror, Adrian who currently feels very strange with what happened can only randomize his hair.

It was out of Adrian's control and Adrian did not want this at all.

"Yes Adrian that woman is nothing more than trash in the journey of life that you have been through, only Miera that you love so much, yes only Meira."

Adrian validated his own words, tonight Adrian went back into the room and hugged his wife tightly..

The morning that almost attacked made Adrian had to try to close his eyes...

The pride of Adrian who until now never wanted to admit that he had a past with a girl whose encounter was very unintentional.

The arrogance that makes Adrian trying to lock and not trying to solve everything well.

And the arrogance that ultimately makes Adrian close everything alone despite many times Meira volunteered to be a good listener.